Thank you good Sir.
I’ve had longer time… but this has been a different 200 days… a genuine 200 days.
I’m sorry for your loss. That’s exactly what we believe over here too, if you have that kind of dream they are coming to visit you to say goodbye, and tell you not to worry. I’m sure he’ll be back to visit some more another day, my grandmother still does that and she passed away years ago.
Hello @erntedank. For me Itry and remember all the times I was fucked up drunk and my hubby dealt with me and all the nonsense I created.
I would let it go, breathe and when in the right head space talk to him about what it felt like. If he has ever handled you in the same position he may be able to relate to it. He may be having a hard time dealing with the changes you have made in your life? I was reminded by a smart soul in this group that if I want my hubby to come along with me on my journey, I need to remember that it takes time. I dont know your story or how long you have been sober, so thsi is compelty my personal thoughts/opinions. Hope you feel better soon.
57 days. Had a very rough argument with the misses last night. I did not think of drinking this time, which is huge for me. If I had started drinking I’m sure it would have been much worse.
Shit happenes even when sober, but at least I’m STAYING sober.
God bless everyone and happy Monday.
Thats one of the first things I’ve learned; expect nothing and nothing will disappoint.
Yes, but the hands of the clock is the girls hands with there dates and how they saved me in this time, the hand is the devil’s hand squeezing my heart, and the two slits are the times I tried to kill myself. I tried three times but the last time Im not even really counting bc I just took a bunch of coke and Adderall which is something I always did anyway. The snake is for all the friends I lost. He is also going to add a necklace to it with the a unicorn and mermaid charms
Thank you for the explanation. That has a lot of meaning and now I like it more. You’ve got some great choices and it’s going to be hard to choose just one.
@MagicMama
Thanks for reminding me. I normally get along well but today was one of those days, when everything felt like swimming in viscous liquid. And a drunk husband does not help anyway. Tomorrow he will remember nothing and I will still be annoyed from all the bullshit he talked. But this too shall pass. And I’ll be well rested tomorrow morning, sober and clearheaded. I like that and I know a cup of tea will wash my anger away. Thanks for letting me vent.
Thanks! For me it’s too soon to feel comfortable with my partner when he drinks and argues with me then. He isn’t supportive at all, so I can’t talk with him about my (struggles) to stay sober. I hope I’ll get in the same modus as you, where I can accept our differences and be grateful for… I don’t know yet But I’m sure I’ll get there!
200 days is fantastic Corin! Huge congrats lady. So happy for you. Hugs and love your way.
I totally get that. And that would be difficult.
And also me and wifey been married 38 plus years. So I got that going for me too. Which has probably made a whole world of difference. I pray for you can stay sober for yourself because you’re worth it. And hopefully give it some time for adjusting. I don’t know if you read many of @Lisa07 post on the “daily checking in” thread. But she’s got some great shares about some of the same thing.
ODAAT
Day 6. Almost a week… lots of triggers today that I can’t avoid. Finding it already hard to get through the day. Finding the strength and courage to NOT give up and choose NOT to drink…
Just imagine how awesome you are going to feel when you go to bed…totally sober. That moment of intense pride versus disapointment:-) I know you got this!
So sorry for your loss, @Truckinmonster21, but that’s a great attitude to have. Grief isn’t fun, but it’s healing, and grateful to not have to face it alone.
So grateful my own ticket isn’t punched yet, and to have found the strength and serenity to really live.
ABSOLUTELY I agree.
Thank you I cant wait to go to bed and wake up to a new day!
Think I will go ice fishing…
- Another quick check-in. Today we’re celebrating my oldest son’s 12th Birthday a day early. Lots of prep work being had before tonight’s Birthday celebration Hope everyone is enjoying their sober Monday!!
Thanks ! I’m going to repeat that and say it out loud …still finding the motivation to go outside yet