Something that has been on my mind, and that I have seen spoken about here and elsewhere, is just how much uncertainty there is in the world at the moment. There seem to be all these big issues of collective uncertainty that everyone is trying to come to terms with (whether it’s the pandemic, environment or political upheaval), on top of our individual challenges.
Just when I think I have come to terms with something, something else pops up. Some relationship issues bubbling away, as well as feeling pretty overwhelmed with my to do list, mental health not the best, questions about what I want to do with my life, and then all the other stuff that’s happening in the world. I know I have the lessons of recovery available to me, but struggling to put these into practice. Trying to grip onto something solid in the middle of my own sea of uncertainty, instead of just letting myself float.
I could look at all of this as an opportunity to practice acceptance and compassion, or as a reminder of the nature of impermanence… But tbh I just feel a bit sorry for myself
I keep waking up drenched in sweat and it’s waking me up frequently Going to work on solving this problem today. Enjoyjng my cup of coffee this morning. Looking forward to starting my day… I’m scheduled to work two nights at the hospital this week- but requested to be on-call instead Currently, I don’t need this job, but have to work a minimum to keep it if I ever do need it full or part-time again. Hope everyone can make the best of their sober Wednesday!
Day 842 - feeling great. Halfway thru my Whole30 and feel phenomenal. I’m genuinely amazed at how much it has helped me in various ways. I’ve been meditating at least once every day, got myself on a good sleep schedule, and just generally have really spent this month focusing 100% on me and how I need to live my life in order to thrive.
Checking Jan 20 2021
Feel great ! Goodmorning TS Familia or good aftertoon depending on where you are dont forget how far you have come the accomplishments everyone on here should be very proud your strong your brave your better then your past remember your not the first and wont be the last to make mistakes we all make them ! In this journey its not only a batttle with our addictions also within ourselves and sobriety makes you look into the core of things thats where the healing begins its tough its crazy but if we keep riding the wave or trucking on the comeback will be amazing !!! LETS GO !
Checking in: Starting Day 17. This number is the bees knees, I love the # 17, never really sure why, but one of my favorites. So heres to have a great #17 today!
Tired but not from drinking booze. I have not had any cravings this round, and insomnia has been my biggest symptom. Part of me wonders if the vaccine is causing any of this, second one this am, so hoping for a smooth next few days. Hope everyone has or had a wonderful day!
@littlemisschatterbox. Nobody messes with my wifey!! You are a beautiful, strong, amazing woman. He is an idiot who has no better time then to be an ass and an antagonist Sounds like a waste of your time and energy. Hope you feel better
Love this Charlie Brown gif! 19 days down and feeling so much better for it. Despite bad weather and lock down it’s so nice to not actually have to deal with a hangover depression or even a really bad craving (they’ve got better since the start of week 3!) Looking forward to february as I start to make it a real pattern. starting a new job helps to focus on something else
Day 179.30
Still in my depressive state. I have to go to the DMV today so thats not going to help any… LOL Ive had this 750$ fine looming over me for a year now. A really nice employee there is trying to help me get it down to 177$ if I can prove that I dont have a job. So thats what I am doing today.
We are leaving for West Palm Beach tomorrow morning. We cancelled our trip last year because of the pandemic and here we are going during the worst possible time.
Then I am headed to SC to visit my Mom again. I will have to check in here a lot. Last time I visited her (6 months ago) I relapsed but I am sure this time she isnt going to have booze everywhere… actually we are staying in this camper outside that she just bought… LOL so that will be fun. I hope.
Anyway, Hope you all have a great day! Congrats on all the milestones. Y’all rock this world!
Welcome back @C_8!
Going to work on solving this problem today. Enjoyjng my cup of coffee this morning. Looking forward to starting my day… I’m scheduled to work two nights at the hospital this week- but requested to be on-call instead 
Currently, I don’t need this job, but have to work a minimum to keep it if I ever do need it full or part-time again. Hope everyone can make the best of their sober Wednesday!
