@Clarity, @anon28001181, @Dazercat, @Dragonflygirl82 thank you guys!! So glad to be part of this amazing community.
Hope you all are having a good week.
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11 months! Woo-hoo! 
Fresh hair? Super jealous - my last cut was pre-pandemic. Looking pretty ratty these days. Might as well just keep at it and donate it again!
I really appreciate your posts here - thank you 
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That’s my thoughts now to. I talked to her Ma tonight again. She said she started to think they should look into this last year, but no one listened to her. Not the social service, not the kids psychiatric hospital or the foster care home.
This time however we’re at least for people fighting to get tweenie the right help, Me, my husband her Ma and her Spouse. I’m not gonna let it go no matter what. Someone somewhere needs to man up and do their job properly.
My goal isn’t to send her away unless it’s absolutely necessary. My goal is to make everyday life work for all of us, at home. And her home is here.
We’re going to contact the Child psychiatric hospital first thing tomorrow. And then the social worker girl again to tell her what the hospital said. Because apparently they can’t communicate with each other.
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Your post came to mind this morning during the guided meditation I attended on Recovery Dharma. We were contemplating equanimity, the state of mental calmness, and how we all are responsible for our own happiness. I immediately recalled you saying how you were learning to protect your peace of mind and to do things for yourself rather than to please others. That made me smile! You’ve come a long way from where you started this journey, making a difference not only in your own life & happiness but in the lives of those around you as well! Congrats on 11 months!!! Keep on rockin’ it, Courtney!!!
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Day 26 - continued from my earlier post. Went to a party today. There was a lot of alcohol. I took 4 cans of alcohol-free beer with me. It was like giving a speech or a presentation. The first few mins were tough. I was tempted. After that the craving went away. I knew most of the people present, and they knew me. They knew I was a heavy drinker and they were surprised. I started off telling people that I was having health problems - liver and pancreas, and was on medication, so I could not drink. But later I just told them the truth. The truth is easier and simpler. I told them that I had a problem (most of them knew anyway) and that I had decided not to drink anymore. They understood, or at least they pretended to understand. After some time it was easy.
Today was a huge win for me. It feels great. I know I can do this. This forum has helped me a lot. Thanks for all the wishes and support 
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Thank you!! That means a lot coming from you. Have a great one.
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all of the sudden I’m at day 350. so many blessings these last 350 days. my own home, a better relationship with my boys, my jeep, having Covid, yesterday got my 2nd Covid vax. so many more. the solitude is worth the sobriety for me
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Good luck, I hope you find the answers. As a mom with a son with mental health issue we have been through a lot, including hospitization. But we have also healed a lot and I learned so many lessons from him about myself. I truly wish you the best.
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I missed a day again! I’ve just caught up on over 300 posts so there were way too many milestones to tag you all, but congrats to anyone and everyone on your milestones and another sober day
157 days no alcohol
125 days no cocaine
1 day no binge-eating.
Had my Podiatry appointment this morning, she’s scheduled me for a biomechanics assessment on 4th February and another steroid injection in the other side of my foot, and hopefully some orthotics, she’s also going to post me so physio stretches to do, and said to apply heat then ice for 5 mins each, a few times a day…the best news is, she gave me permission to start doing some walks again, but much slower and shorter than I was doing. I went for my first slow short walk before catching up here, and it’s so hard to go slow but I know it’s for the greater good and that made me feel good about it. There is hope, and I thrive on hope 
I then got an email inviting me to an interview to become a Prison Custody Officer, it’s not the job I really want that I’m still waiting to here from, despite following it up with an email on Monday, but I decided it would be foolish to turn down an interview, so I accepted and chose my 3 preferred dates and times. The only issue with this job is, there are a collection of fitness assessments that you have to pass during the 12 week induction course, one of which I know for sure is a Bleep Test (not sure on other countries terms) but this involves running and even sprinting, which I haven’t been able to do for years. If I pass the interview, my induction course will start on 12th April, so I’ve got a long way to go between where I’m currently at with my injuries and fitness, and where I need to be, but it’s definitely a motivation to stick to my diet and do everything I can do to heal my feet and improve my fitness. At the very least, it’s extra interview practice for when the job that’s truly meant for me does come along
Then I had Zoom support group, I almost didn’t go and deliberated over it to the point where I was 15mins late, but they let me in and I’m glad I did go, I felt better afterwards. I will make an effort to attend the Tuesday group with the people from the DBT course too now. I don’t know what it is that gets into my head that I don’t want to go to them, it’s so hard to force myself to do it and my brain always tells me I’m too much of an empath so I come away feeling worse, but in reality and on reflection, I rarely have! 
Anyway I feel as though I’ve really rambled here tonight, but I’m not going to overthink it.
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We’ve got only special needs kids here. It goes from adhd, to development disorder to autism. So I thought we’d been through it all, but I guess there’s always time to learn something new.
I really hope we find the help she needs and the right answers. But once again I’ve got some new energy to keep fighting for it.
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Day 11 Survived kids party for my birthday boy this morning. Was great, spent almost 2 weeks to organize this. Couldn’t do this while I was still drinking every day. He was happy, I’m happy!
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That is huge! You did it. You didn’t drink, but you were also honest and courageous to tell the truth - and I think you did it without shame either. Massive, massive success.
I’m smiling pretty big over here for you, hoping that you feel relieved and are basking in some serious progress. 
Edit: I also really really prefer the picture of your kind-looking face to the picture of the bug!
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Or put another way, you’re nearly at 1 Week and you’re half way to double digits!! We’re all about the positives here! 
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Awesome job!
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That is huge!!!
Ya know I read your first post and liked it and thought. 
Why doesn’t he just tell them the truth about his drinking problem. But I felt that was for you to decide. Especially since you have a dual diagnosis. I am pretty excited for you after reading this. We spend all our time in addiction lying. It may be cliche. I reckon, we are full of them. But “the truth will set you free.”
Good job mate.
No. Great job!
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This morning I woke up at sunrise to the most magical view. Hot air balloons out side my window
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Always wanted to hot air balloon
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After you ever listened or read the book The Naked Mind? She talks about retraining your brain. Its like a toddler, you have to keep saying no until it clicks🤣
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