- Coffee. Got to sleep in on my weekend. Feeling I need and want to be out for a bit of fresh air and exercise (not as a punishment as I’ve done quite a lot too @Freckles) . And to be out in general. Covid enlarges and intensifies my feeling of isolation. Not only the feeling btw, I’m rather alone atm.
I’m sober and clean though and no way I’ll ever return to the escape of drowning myself in substance abuse. I know what would happen after the temporary escape of being under the influence. Never want to go back there. Life is so much better sober even as it’s often hard and confronting (yes @cwak).
Coming here still helps me big time. Getting to share my own stuff and sharing some of your burdens and victories. I’m not alone. We’re in this together. Have as good a weekend as you all can friends. I will too. Love from Amsterdam where the sun went down pretty yesterday evening.
Some amazing stuff posted here while l slept. Thanks & keep going all.
@Dragonflygirl82 How you have grown and are still growing Courtney. Love it.
@I.cant.We.can You are a HUGE inspiration Brian. To all of us I am sure. Thanks for sharing your life.
@Blake11 Yay you Emily! One day, one hour, one crave at a time you will beat smoking too.
@anon60334405 Be very proud Mike. I am of you. You are so much stronger than you give yourself credit for.
@TSan Hope you’ll get a good deal on the car. And you arm heals fast. Thanks for sharing and being here friend.
@SoberWalker Normally I never wish good luck to folks, only success, but you might need a bit of both friend! Hoping for the best and curious about the result dame.
@all.here Love to you all. Keep going. It’s more than worth it.
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Aww ta love, had a quiet day really chilling out and studying my football predictions out for the weekend. I like a couple of pound at the weekend. Gives me a sense of calm and chill enjoying the weekend sports x
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Checking in Day 20. Busy day today. Checking out my first AA mtg, getting the house and cupboards ready for family to stay and packing bags for a warm get away.
Last night my son went to my crossfit class with me. Its an alcohol recovery minded group. And at the part where he introduced himself and said how long he was sober or who he was there to support his response was " Well, I am here to support my mom, and as you can probably see I am a kid so that means I have been sober my whole life" all the adults cracked up and I was just so proud how he takes all this with ease and laughter. I am a pretty lucky mom, neither of my kids really knew how much I drank. I never had more than 2 socially unless it was a planned overnight or sober cab event, it just a lot at home, at night, to " relax". Not enough food and too much wine led to me being drunk fast. My husband could always tell, but my kids never apparently noticed. When I talked with them about me being sober, they both commented sure they understood, but its not like you drink very often. Small blessing I suppose?
Still not sleeping well, hoping a get away and warm weather helps as that would be a delicious treat. I have been attempting to fall asleep around 11, toss and turn until 2 then awake by 4am. Finding melatonin messes with my sleep cycle even worse, even at only .5mg. Never was into sleeping pills, so wont start now.
Ok now enough about me! So much happened while I tried to sleep! Just going call you all out at once to say thank you all for showing up each day and being authentic to your story. You all are owning it and it is amazing to see.
@MrsOdh, I hope your friend is doing better.
@M-be-free49, Thank you for the reminder we dont need perfection
@Joy your posts are infectious, I always want to start grinning when I see your avitar!
@anon27760155… Danni , big love to you!
@Dragonflygirl82… You make me excited for my next family gathering, bitching and all🤣
@anon60334405…You took a potental relapse situation and shoved it out the door like an unwelcome houseguest, talk about self awareness. Your post really opened my eyes to other addiction activities that if I encountered I may not give a thought to saying no. I too dont take any narcotics, etc…but thinking through it as an addict it puts a different perpective on the “what ifs” Thanks man for posting , your story was another teaching lesson.
So many I haven’t commented on, but I hold you and your journey in my heart.
Peace and Love to ya’all♥️
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What a pumpkin!!!
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Just checking in as day 20 draws to a close. Had a great day with my family and with friends. Kept busy. Haven’t thought about drinking once. Had a long walk this morning, a family bbq in glorious sunshine for lunch, and then spent some time drinking herbal tea with friends this afternoon. Sober Saturdays are the best. Let’s do it again tomorrow.
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900 days alcohol free. happy Friday
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Day 845. Happy sober Saturday everyone!
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Checking in, Day 20! Didn’t sleep so great last night, but that’s ok. It comes and goes. I still feel ok in the morning and that’s what counts. Off to work a busy (hopefully) Saturday at the restaurant. Tonight I think I’m going to drink tea and crochet and hang out with the kids. Have a great Saturday everyone!
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Good luck with your hair! I do mine now for about a year by myself, because I did’nt make it to the hairdresser when opened. Look like I smootched with my lawnmover 
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Thank you my friend 
@MagicMama gottA love family! Wouldn’t be a gathering without some bitching lmao 
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Hi from Portugal, jus be strong, you are the man. Remember, this is just 1 day at time.
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42 days no drinking. Not even looking back. I don’t need it. 14 hours no smokes. It’s a very strange withdrawal. I can see how much of it’s in my head now. Thanks @Mno and @Fireweed for keeping me in the loop and in the know.
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Hey all, checking in on day 223.
@anon60334405 I’m so proud of you man, that temptation was right in your face and you proved you’re not going back down that path. Awesome stuff 
@I.cant.We.can… @Lisa07 is right, there really is never a dull moment there! So glad you were there to help your housemate out. It sounds like you very well may have saved his life by preventing him from driving in that state.
@Mno I love that you called substance abuse a temporary escape, that is such an important thing to remember.
@Dragonflygirl82 It sounds like you are in a really great place although you have so much going on, you’re killing it! I’m with you on that feeling of being in a place (in sobriety and life) where I never thought I would get too.
Have a great one guys.
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221 days. Can’t seem to get on top of this lil funk I’ve found myself in. I’m starting to feel like I’m on autopilot and just coasting through each day. We’re facing a low of -32 today so don’t see myself venturing anywhere. However I feel if I don’t get out to get out of my mind I’m going to go nuts.
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Six weeks.
The cravings are still there but am slowly building up mechanisms to get past them.
Last night, Friday, was the first Friday after a long week back at work. Was worried I would want a drink but got through it and woke up early today feeling great.
I am totally off my anti psych medication now, it took me 4 months to wean. So glad that’s over.
Can’t believe I made it to 6 weeks!
I’m stronger than I thought maybe.
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Day 355. Thanks everyone, it was definitely a proud moment. When I came down this morning I just showed my mom quick and was like hey can we hide this somewheres lol. She totally understood and knows now. Things are good, I’m gonna try to go get a lift in or I’m not sure, gotta do something. Arm is definitely sore from the vaccine and I was blowing some crazy farts last night. Other then that no side effects
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I hear yah on all of that. Well done mel
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I think if I wasn’t working in a shop I would cut it all off. I would like to feel for once in my life how it is to be bold. But I do not dare…
After my daughter cut it, it’s shorter…not better 
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Checking in with 27 days In the books. I have not gone this long in forever. This time is completely different. My wife has been gone for a couple of weeks visiting family and I have been on a mission not to drink. I have never been able to not drink on my own and this time it’s working. Can’t believe that I have been able to do it. My routine is established and I do t even think about stoping at the store on my way home.
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