Day 371
It was a good day, kind of a rough night. Stayed home for the day said my prayers, readings, gratitude did some chores. Hung out with my housemates and we had our weekly meeting with the counsellor. Went for a couple walks got coffee and did some groceries. Some great laughs and food today. Watched a movie alone after dinner. Went on a zoom NA meeting from eight till nine. During the meeting my housemate Andy started texting me saying he was struggling and I answered him and said see you soon. I went down to his room to say goodnight, are you ok glad you reached out. He was drunk so I said go to sleep talk to you tomorrow. Went upstairs and told one of my other housemates so I have some help keeping an eye out for him. I went back downstairs and Andy had gotten up and into his truck. He almost tore down a hydro pole when he put his brand new truck in reverse and hit the side of the house too. I managed to get his attention and got him out of the truck before he actaully left the property. A few of my housemates and I talked him into bed and I’m holding his keys. Gonna try to relax then sleep cause he’s gonna be mad when he sees what he did in the morning. So much for a quiet Friday in the sober livimg house. So glad I was there to help him before he hurt himself or someone else.
God bless you all. &
p.s. did you know your hilarious and good looking. ya you!!
Thank you @CapriciousCapricorn I appreciate that very much! Yeah it’s been tough but I’m really settling into the fact that the universe has our highest and greatest good in mind towards us and that all is well regardless of what I can physically see. Have an amazing night and thank you again
So I’m not gonna lie. I found myself in a situation where I could of easily just fucked up. I went down stairs to eat a apple, and I’m chillen looking around and I look on the counter and see a liquid in a prescription bottle…my mind saw CONTROLLED SUBSTANCE and instally was curious. I remember once way back in the day my ex got sick and was prescribed codeine and I drank it all on her she didn’t even get to use it. It’s never been my d.o.c but I’m ant type of addict. I can’t lie that little tiny voice in the back of my head said you can make all the pain go away, you don’t have to feel. I just set the bottle down, thought to myself I’m pretty fucking proud of my self because I know the answer. Tomorrow I’ll let my mom know in a polite way, hey I know I have some self control here lately but plz let’s remember not to leave that stuff around me . Anyways have a great night everyone.
That’s awesome @anon60334405 something to be surely proud of, the power to say no is huge, the ability to stay on track when its right there is amazing.
Much congrats on your success and strength my friend
Thanks, I needed your encouraging words today! And congrats on 174, well done
Where I live we call a relocation-company to pick up the old furniture and bring it to the disposal site. Or we ask friends with a truck or a trailer to come over and bring the stuff to the disposal site. Have a good day!
Pretty quiet in my world today which is not normal. Must be the calm before the next shit storm. My daughter was having a meltdown when I got home from work and carried on for 2 hours. For once, it didn’t bother me. I did not engage at all and went about eating dinner. I asked questions when she was calm. Turns out we got her an Oculus VR for xmas that finally arrived today but she couldn’t set it up on her own and threw a fit instead of asking for help. I have her on a 3 month waiting list to get mental health help. What’s helping me is knowing help is on the way for her. Patience is one of the biggest gifts of sobriety for me especially when caring for her.
Way to go! I’m really fucking proud of you too @anon60334405!! I agreee, mom needs to know that shit can’t be left around. She honestly doesn’t know that just because we’re sober doesn’t mean we’re suddenly cured.
Day 207.
I wind down a week where it didn’t all get done. But that’s okay.
So much to learn on this recovery project. When to lean into things (work, personal goals, etc) with more effort? When is this effort not really growth, but just an attempt to appease the “you’re not good enough” voice? In the past, it was never enough effort, so I had to drown it out with wine. You can guess how that worked…
Learning how to ease off. It’s ok, maybe even better, to get things half done. To get part-way there in one piece, and not indulge the “ah, you failed – I’ll go get the glass” voice.
It helps greatly to hear that gentle reminder – “this journey is about progress, not perfection”. To surround myself with the company of champions. To be here with all of you.
Even with a few cuts and bruises, we won another day. Let’s go for gold tomorrow.
G’night. Big love to all.
@MrsOdh strength and love and hugs to your friend and to you too. Distance is so hard at the best of time, let alone times like this.
@Rockstar24777 wow - progress! you wouldn’t be where you are if you hadn’t have tried with Faith, and then left when you had to. you’re an example to me of taking the hard things and turning them into our recovery. Still the best big bro going…
@Singtone “a celebratory glass, or seven…”! I know those seven. Well done on turning away the first and all those who come with it.
@Petes40 always good to see your face! You still look great, even if you slept in. And those days are stacking up nice.
Day 859
Goodmorning! Almost weekend! Have to work for 1 houre this day to help a colleque with our new cash desk system.
I’m ok, but my mental health is going up and down. Having a hard time finding relaxation. Try to read more instead of surfing on my phone. Also pushing myself forward in eating healthy and going outside for a walk in nature. We (The Netherlands) are in a lockdown and today starts a curfew too. I need to focus on the good things in life because I can’t control the bad.
Bought a clippers and going to be a hairdresser today and fix my Covid Hair Wish me luck!!
Good luck Claudia.
I need a buzz too. Got to look for the dog Clippers
And actually I’ve cut my wife’s hair twice now And I’m still alive to talk about it.
Great numbers you got there.
So glad I was there to help him before he hurt himself or someone else.
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. Anyways have a great night everyone.
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Wish me luck!! 
And I’m still alive to talk about it. 
