Checking In Daily to Maintain Focus #25

Today, on my 68th day of sobriety, I found out that I was accepted into grad school, and my first choice at that! I would have NEVER accomplished this in the midst of my addiction. So grateful and excited about my AF future.

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plz don’t give up on me. I thank you for everything you have done for me, even tho I’m still fucking up and missing work, I need to get my shit together man.

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You ok? Hope so!

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Yes I’m ok. Just beating myself up, I’m gonna lose my job if I keep missing work. I’m in and out with my emotions today

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@cwak… This is great news! What are you studying?

Oh ok. Everyone needs mental health days. Shake it off and get back at. You are strong my friend. Keep that fire going. :fire: prayers :pray:t3::yellow_heart:

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Thank you!! Yes they are, and so happy to be back in class. I am grateful we live in an area where this can happen. I am sending you positive thoughts to help you and your kiddos through homeschooling, it’s not a fun ordeal!!

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Sorry for missing this question! Thank you @RosaCanDo for answering so expediently!

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Day 124. Y’all! So many things to celebrate here today:
@Mno, 600 days!:boom::boom::boom:
@Desire2ChangeToday, 18 months!:trophy:
@Girlinterrupted with eight months!:confetti_ball:
@Clarity, six months and a week! :tada::tada::tada:
@MagicILY and @Drave showing up with two months!🪅
@FindingJesse keeping up the pace with nearly two weeks! Well done!

And so many others taking care of business, growing and getting stronger in all aspects of their lives: @Tomek, @anon60334405, and @Dragonflygirl82, I’m cheering for y’all.

Sober on, fellow soberians! Y’all are awesome, each and every one of you!

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  1. I think I spent a little too much time here today but it felt good to catch up a little with some of the great folks I’ve really come to care about.
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Thanks for spending time with us! You make me laugh.

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Congrats Menno, you’ve got this sobriety in the bag. Clean and sober that’s all we want and odaat you’re doing it. :confetti_ball::tada:
Blessings and sobriety!
:sparkling_heart:

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Thanks Paul, yes it’s my real name and I’ve started living it again in sobriety.
Blessings and sobriety!
:hugs::sparkling_heart:

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My condolences Steve, he’s at peace now.
Blessings and sobriety!
:sparkling_heart:

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Thank you for the article. Makes me feel better. :pray: Always does when I read sth and get the notion that it is not my fault to feel this way, that it is normal. Thank you.

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62 Days! Feeling steady.

Last night I received news that an ex-boyfriend had died. The relationship was over 11 years ago, but it was complicated and when it ended I discovered he’d been lying to me for the four years we were together (primarily that he was separated from his wife and going through a divorce, and I investigated and found out they were still together). He was also my professor when we got together and crossed that line he should not have. In short, I came to realize he was a liar and a manipulator.

I looked at the obituary and there were all these memories being shared by people — what a great teacher he was, such an honest friend, devoted husband, etc. All these claims were just bullshit to me even if they were truths to the people sharing them. At first I felt an absence of anything, then pity and anger. Nobody knows the truth of what he did me, probably not even his own family. In the photo tribute video I saw an absence of four years. I was just a gap that nobody knew about. In its place were photos of him and his wife, proof of his betrayal and lies. This terrible experience I had is long in the past, but reflecting on his death resurfaced some of it for me.

What does this mean for my sobriety? Well, I guess I’m just glad it didn’t make me want to respond by drinking. The range in emotion and feeling angry — I just stayed with it and I was ok.

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Congrats @Desire2ChangeToday and @Girlinterrupted, keep on trucking ODAAT. :confetti_ball: :tada:
Blessings and sobriety!
:hugs::sparkling_heart:

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Day 213.
Time for this day and me too to be put to bed. Tired. But content. Because I’m sober.
And I am - again, damn proud of us…

…of @MagicILY for not being triggered to drink by that heavy tale of your boyfriend’s death (and life).

…of @Jennajen for naming it. let’s face it - we could all use a good hug.

…of @Tomek for showing up with honesty. this is hard stuff to do, but it’s still so good to see you here…

…of @Girlinterrupted for 8 months! Looking good, friend! :wink:

…of everyone who is coming up soon on the first 30 days - that is a huge milestone! You’re all doing amazing.

We break new ground here, every day, one day at a time. Proud of us, proud to belong here.
We did another day, and we’re gonna do another one tomorrow. Just watch us.
G’night all - big love. :orange_heart:

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  1. Coffee. Work, another three days of day shifts starting. It’s raining again :cloud_with_rain: :bike: :cloud_with_rain:. Yuck. Still I don’t feel too bad. Therapy was good yesterday. First time after two months I actually felt I got some energy from it and not just felt drained afterwards. Especially now actually. Nice. So here I go. Sober and clean. Have as good a day as you all can friends. Clean and sober. Love from a wet Amsterdam. The pic isn’t new but I just like it.
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