Impressed by my 7 year old’s emotional intelligence today. She was playing in the school grounds with me when her friends turned up. They asked her to play, but she said “no, I want to play with mummy today” and so she played with me a few yards away from her friends playing something different. If it was me, even now, I feel obligated to do something if invited, and have to invent an excuse if I don’t want to. I certainly wouldn’t refuse and then clearly just do something else in plain view. I felt uncomfortable by proxy, but my daughter just owned her choice. Good on her.
Letting all the little things get to me, which makes everything feel like a big thing. Not being able to find my keys (they are definitely in the house) became one more thing in a long list of things that prove I do not have my shit together. Like dude, you just misplaced your keys!
I am sick of these unhelpful destructive thought cycles that I keep getting trapped in. Yesterday I thought more than once how if I just got shit faced it would make the day pass quicker. But I didn’t. It was a long day but I made it.
I need to keep reminding myself that being able to sit with discomfort is the goal. Not to remove the discomfort.
A great, sunny and warm sunday morning, yet I’m vacuuming and my son is watching “Peter Pan” instead of both of us being out.
But he caught me off foot - I slept in, so he woke me up with a cappuccino after he had a “hearty” breakfast (an ENTIRE bowl of corn flakes and milk ).
So, I’m gonna finish cleaning up and make myself presentable and we’re off for a walk and a “picnic” by a medieval graveyard (there are some really interesting tombstones there - nothing creepy, and the kid likes the place).
I wish you all a wonderful sober Sunday.
I have not yet had a chance to put together a video or two (though I plan to do so), but since you were kind enough to ask, here are a few photos. The wall paintings are from inside the tomb of Ramses VI, the photo of the underground vault is the cavern where the Holy Family lived for a few months before returning from Egypt for the census, and the statues of the rams (there are a lot more than just these, and there is a person visible in the bottom left corner of the photo, to give scale) are from the Temple of Karnak.
Coffee. Contemplating if I’ll go for a little recovery bike ride today. The weather is so pretty and I’m a bit stiff from yesterday when I did a 150km ride. Which is a bit over the top for this time of year and my level of fitness. I feel good though. I guess I’ll do it. Sober and clean. Have as good a day as you all can friends. Clean and sober. Love from the river Lek where I was yesterday. Not going there today. Too far.
@anon27700620 Thanks for the pics friend. @LuluOnTheBridge Nice to see you Lulu. Have a good Sunday. @siand Hugs to you siand. Not finding my keys (while knowing they’re around) can really get to me, bringing out my raging child. And IMHO the goal is a bit of both. For me at least. I think I can work both on my level of discomfort and accepting discomfort exists. A two edged knife so to say.
@Conor689908 Especially as yesterday when I overly lost my temper that she had broken a 4 dollar pen that she had just bought, she declared she would never forgive me!
Checking in on day 13. I like Sundays. My hubby is home so I can get out for a few hours and work. I love being a stay at home mom, would not have it any other way but those few hours alone in the car doing deliveries is so nice. Not only is it a little me time, but I also make money so it helps my family. Feeling pretty good. You guys rock! @I.cant.We.can congrats on 400 days. @anon27700620 love the pics you have shared of your trip. Have a wonderful sober Sunday TS friends.
10 weeks.
And a dress size down.
And off horrible medication.
…still a very long way to go, but I’m trying to focus on how much I’ve changed in the last 2.5 months.
Next to no cravings, aside from Friday evenings.
I’m sometimes sad that I won’t be able to feel drunk again but I remind myself that I spent the last 20 years boozed up and now it’s time to recover and look after myself )
Day 254 clean and sober today. Wow… yesterday was a complete mindf**k of a day caught up in my head. Feel like I’m detoxing from my ex and it’s so hard to kick. I’ve been trying for so long hoping that it could be like it was when we first met again that I’ve been chasing that high like a drug. I am definitely an addict because in the past I would do anything to get that sense of relief from her regardless of the danger to myself and heart. Blows my mind. Have a great day everyone, love you guys!!!
Checking in at the end of day 49.
Today was a device free Sunday in our house, so this is my first look on here. If the kids can’t use their phones or iPads, neither can the adults. Apparently.
I love that sober weekends are just the norm now and that the idea of drinking is not even a thing.
Spent 3 or 4 hours helping my daughter to revise for her mock GCSE exams this afternoon and evening. That would have never happened when I was drinking.
Life is so much better now.
Have a great sober day, wherever you are.
Goodnight.
Checking in on day 252 (finally got the counter on the app back to working properly). @anon27700620 thank you for sharing those incredible photos! Very, very impressive.
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