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Bro. Horrible news. Not sure if youāre a praying man or not, but I am and I will spend many days praying for you. Much love to you man.
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I am so deeply sad to hear about your son, Corey. I am glad you are here and checking in. Please keep reaching out. 
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Man Iām so sorry. I couldnāt even begin to understand what youāre going through. Fuck man. Weāre here
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Check in day 22.
Feeling a lot rn, I donāt wanna face reality for today, I deserve a break so be it, even though I know I have so many things to do, I will take care of them tomorrow, today is a day for myself.
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I cannot express how sorry I feel, Rob!
Stay with us, even if you think it makes no sense right now.
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@TSan sorry about your time with your dad, but well done for standing your ground 
@Littlemac congrats on double digits
@Croke congrats on 3 days, welcome back 
@Truckinmonster21 so sorry to hear this, welcome back, you know you can do this 
@betterdays2come congrats on your week
@Girlinterrupted congrats on 9 months of being normal
@Rockstar24777 Iām so sorry for your loss, sending strength and love 
@Dazercat sending prayers that your back heala quickly, I can relate to your frustration
202 days no alcohol.
170 days no cocaine.
Did a nice long walk this morning, it was beautiful. Watched the episode of The Voice on catch-up that I missed last night, which was brilliant too and made me tear up a few times. Feeling positive about restarting my diet tomorrow, just not looking forward to how miserable I will potentially be for the first few days while I adjust.
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I didnāt use porn today!
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Hi Sara
Thank you for your feedback and encouragement. It wasnāt easy yet im learning to feel the feeling and that it will pass.
I am a Child and Youth worker and work with special needs/behavioral students in the school board.
I took a training and now are certified Yoga instructor for traumatized teensā¦yet I decided to go all the way so I can become certified with Yoga Alliance and become a certified Children and Teen Yoga teacher.
I believe it will help me in my careerā¦with my children and myself. Yoga/Meditation has been a life saver for me. Especially with my own trauma and anxiety.
Good for youā¦are you back in person or online?
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Your checking in with us because you need us man, just like we need you. We see your purpose man, we see your strength. Iām so glad you did reach out to us, and Iām so sorry for everything your going through. Man you are the toughest person I know. Iām here for you man, love you dude.
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Struggling today. I have a few things I need to accomplish today, but I just have not motivation to do them. The urgency to get them done is there, but the will isnāt. Currently sitting in a hole. 
I know I need to get moving, but I just canātā¦
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Day 390. So I figured out my deadlifts, when I go to get into position, my hips are hyperextending ( anterior pelvic tilt) so my spine is not staying neutral which is causing me to pull with my lower back
you can see how my but is sticking out. Iām glad I figured this out, heading to the gym soon to try and see what I can do. I had a good weekend with my girls, Iām getting pretty irritable with them lately doing alot of yelling because well there kids and figuring out life too. And I donāt always know how to handle situations. I apologise and tell them Iām sorry for yelling sometimes, but I feel the damage is already done you make them feel bad when you yell. I hope I can figure this out and keep being the best dad possible. Love you guys have a good evening
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Procrastination is totally a issue for me
I donāt drive so I walk everywhere and that can be tough
I just try to acknowledge the peace I get when Iām out.
Also I love it when I get home to my clean room (I got to organize it at the moment)
I get a feeling of relief when Iām back for the day.
Iāll come home, maybe throw on the TV and enjoy my roommates and a plate of food.
Itās a good feeling when itās all accomplished
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Hi everyone. Iām off to bed shortly, but as I looked at the counter on my phone, I realised that Iāve just hit 200 days as well. It almost seems like a bigger milestone than 6 months !
Anyway, I have a question for those of you who are āmusically inclinedā (Iām about as talented as a rock).
A few years ago, I took my mother on one of those Viking River Cruises, from St. Petersburg to Moscow. At the request of one of my brothers (who IS talented !), I took a bunch of video clips of singers / musicians in Russia, mostly very traditional stuffā¦ lots of baritones, balalaikas and stuff like thatā¦ and a ātraditional instrumentsā orchestra.
So hereās the questionā¦ would anyone be interested in seeing that if I put together a little video ?
There is itā¦ goodnight all.
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Congrats on 200 days Fokusnik! I think itād be nice to see some (musical) stuff from Russia yes. Just a passive music lover here.
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Well done on 200 days 
great going and keep up the good work.
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Hi Rob - first, I am so, so sorry to hear about your son. It is heartbreaking. I feel for you brother. My heart breaks with you.
I quoted from you (above) just to point out that none of us has the perspective to say whether or not we deserve to be here. None of us is ultimately our judge of worth. We all try to be better each day, yes, but ultimately the measure of whether our life is āworth itā isnāt in our hands. (How can it be? I barely know my own capabilities; I surprise myself regularly. Obviously if I donāt know my own capabilities, then I canāt judge others either. So the capability to judge whether Iām worth it or not has to be in the hands of someone or something else. Some call this Higher Power; others call it Nature; it goes by many names. The key thing though, is you do not have the necessary perspective to say whether your life is āworth itā.)
Not sure what time zone youāre in but Iām thinking of you. Weāre all here with you in your grief. Let yourself feel it. Let it flow.
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Welcome to the 200 club fokusnik! Amazing!
And yep - please put together that video. Iāve been meaning to thank you for the Egypt video. I donāt think my travels will take me much further than that grocery store for the next while (still pretty locked down here) - so living vicariously through anyone elseās travels, and through the pics that are posted here and on other threads, is truly appreciated over here!
Congrats again on your 200 days. Youāre worth it. (And if you reply something about how youāre not - Iām not going to indulge you in the argument! Because youāre worth it. So there.) 
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Checking in, hope everyone is doing well this lovely Sunday! Another great sober weekend in the books, and found a video game I enjoyed yesterday. I found this and thought it may be helpful to someā¦focus on the gain, not what you are giving up! That concept has helped me a lot every day since I stopped drinking.
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Rob, I donāt know what to say. Thereās nothing to say. Iām just compelled to say something. Youāre not horrible. I wish I could sit with you until you felt like talking. Weāre all there in spirit and I would love to hear stories about your son if/when you feel like talking. Iāve lit one candle for your son and one for you. Iām so sorry.
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