Good to see you checking in. It was the same for me for soooo long. Then I got to a month and went back to the old patterns. I really was skeptical of the “one day at a time” mantra, but once I embraced it, set my intention every morning to stay sober while checking in here, it started catching on. Keep doing the work and it will pay off!
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You’ve been through alot. I’m glad you went through it sober for the past 180 days. Congrats Rosa! 
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Thank you, Shay! I am glad, too.
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Aw 🥲
That’s correct. And you turned me on to that awful movie. I think there was a thread. Movies so bad they’re good or something. That and the memes. Don’t remind me what that movie was. I think it’s out of my head forever. 
We are going to watch Nomadland tonight if I can get Hulu. The new Frances McDormand movie. We love her so much.
And steak night is on Saturday this week.
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Sorry about that movie…Tell me how you like Nomadland…I love her!
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No worries. Glad I saw it. Kinda. Just no need to remind me the name of it. 
McDormand is the best. Just love her. I hope it’s good too.
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9 weeks going strong. A bit of depression and anxiety but it’s going away. I’m happier and healthier. But most important is the people who I love that allow me to be apart of there life are happier and healthier because I made the decision to change.
Happier. Way more productive. See my family more. No fights with my wife. Apprently I never had “money” problems I just spent it all. I look forward to the gym now. My dog loves the amount of walks we go on now. Crushing it at work. Oh… and I don’t eat like crap anymore. No need for fast food to cure a hangover. No $30 7am 711 stops for Tylenol, Visen, Gatorade and a early morning red bull before work to survive the day.
Keep strong everyone! 
YOU GOT THIS! WE GOT THIS!
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105 days. Broken record here, but I’m seriously struggling with how to fill the emptiness I’m feeling. In the past, I just poured all the alcohol into that void. While I’m glad I’m not turning to alcohol, I find myself filled with a lot of anger because of the emptiness. Ugh… feels hopeless tonight. The addicted brains says, “if you’re gonna feel like shit anyhow, you should just drink.” I’m not doing this, but damn, it’s a heavy lift man.
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Day 268 clean and sober today. Well it gets better and better every fucking day. During the procedure yesterday they fucking punctured my lung and it’s fucking collapsed. They’re giving me pain killers and trying to see if the bleeding stops. I swear to fucking God if one more motherfucking thing happens I am going to lose my fucking shit!!! Fuck being strong and looking for the silver linings and Gods will this and God will that. FUCK THE MOTHER FUCKING LESSONS!!! LET SOMEONE ELSE HAVE A MOTHER FUCKING TURN IM FUCKING OVER IT!!! This is the stupidest fucking joke of a fucking life it’s fucking ridiculous what the fuck I have been gifted with in this fucking life, fuck the rest of this bullshit life FUCK OFF!!! I FUCKING HATE IT!!!
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OMG Rob!! That’s terrible. I dont know much about punctured lungs, will they be able to fix this? I am so sorry this is happening to you. What in the actual FUCK??! Sending you all my love from the bottom of my heart.
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Love you too Sarah, there’s so much shit with it. They’re worried Pneumonia as I can’t breathe in all the way, watching for blood pooling in stomach and lots more fun. I’m fucking losing it. Not going to drink or get loaded but I’m tired of taking shit and I’m going to fucking snap. Fuck
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12 weeks sober.
It feels Iike a lot but not enough at the same time. I’m impatient as a rule so it’s hard to be positive.
I’ve moved my drinking obsession to a new one: losing weight. I’m calorie counting and obsessed with what I eat. My OCD has been terrible as well.
It feels like if it’s not one thing, it’s another.
I’m sick of my mind.
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Oh man, my heart really breaks for you. Are you still in the hospital? I dont understand how they do surgery on your kidney and puncture your lung?? Can you get a new doctor thats not gonna fuck up??!! Im seriously mad at this doctor. I wish we were all there with you. 
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It was just a simple procedure to change the drain but I had the appointment because they originally put in the wrong stint and they had to replace it and they must of slipped or something. I’m still in the emergency department…
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I think I am 9 weeks today too, and you have just summed it up beautifully.
I need a ‘really like’ button for posts like this.
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Holy shit, Rob. I can’t even believe that… I’d call a lawyer for that screw up.
Hang in there, sweetie.
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Excellent work, Ryan! Keep up the determination. The more sober days you have the easier it will be.
stay strong!
Bye for now…
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Wow Rob! Not another fucking issue for you. I’m so sorry. I wish we could do something to help you. Life just fucking sucks for you right now. Sending you a big hug. 
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105 days no alcohol, that’s 105 days i haven’t made an ass out of myself. No dehydration, hangovers, guilt, or offending people.
Instead of beer…been drinking lots of Chia water with lemon…delicious!
Instead of skipping meals, I’ve been learning how to cook new things.
Instead if sneaking one more beer, sometimes I sneak peanut butter and jelly on a rice cake 
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Instead of calling my wife a bitch for no good reason…it’s soft kisses and tight hugs.
Fuck alcohol. Sobriety for the win.
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Rob, so so sorry you’re going through this right now. Sending love
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