Man, i was just there last Saturday. Then I started thinking about how fucking desperate i was to have a life free from that shit. We’ve been sober a while now, sometimes we forget how fucking bad it was. Remember our pact!
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@CapriciousCapricorn I’m sorry you didn’t get the outcome you were hoping for, but yay for tattoo 
@Complicatedmama I’m so sorry for your loss, it’s great that you came here to share instead of the alternative, sending strength 
@Lotusflower I’m sorry for your loss too thank you, I always feel my mum with me too, it will be 25 years next month, it’s hard to believe.
@zzz congrats on 3 months 
@nwags congrats on double digits
@Dazercat such great news 
212 days no alcohol.
6 months no cocaine.
Today has been a rollercoaster. Insomnia came to visit last night and I made some rental enquiries. No one seems to respond to my emails so I took a leap of faith and made a call for one of them, it’s a 1 bed ground floor flat with a level access shower, so it meets my assessed disability needs, and they said they would accept pets, and that it’s available as soon as I want to move in. It looks so nice in the photos, so I made an application and scheduled a viewing for this evening…30mins before the viewing they called me to say they don’t have the keys and that the landlord has them, so we rearranged for tomorrow…I still met my dad for help completing the exchange contract forms, and he said let’s take a ride over there…it was awful, there was graffiti on the external walls, the doors were all kicked in, there were needles and empty bottles around on the ground, and it’s right next to a hang out zone as it’s next to a shop. My dad said he wouldn’t sleep at night if I lived there, and although I’m 33, his advice is hard to ignore. There is another property with the same agents, so I’m going to email her directly asking if I can switch my application to that one, knowing my luck though they will say no pets.
I handled the homelessness assessment well, it’s progressed me to the next stsget, I’ve now got a full assessment at 9am tomorrow and they will see if they’ve got a duty to find me temporary accommodation. He did say they would support me with getting a private rental due to the length of their waiting lists, so there may still be hope. I was so fixated on that ground floor flat though, I thought it was the miracle I’d been waiting for and my heart was so set on it, stupid BPD brain!
Today is 7 months no alcohol, tomorrow will be 6 whole calendar months no cocaine. I feel somewhat numb but a hint of pride is mixed in for good measure.
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Yes sir, I don’t think I was in actual danger. Just felt a little triggered and realized how easy it would be to hop right back to it and lose everything. I’ll never forget are pact brother, I took the girls and my lil cousin for a walk, we went to look at my Harley. My youngest revved it up 
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Jumping in late Mike… Fucking proud of you! ^^^that right there is why we check in, no matter what.
And while not intentional…that will also give someone else strength to do the same 
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right on man… was she pumped revving it up?
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What’s happening Mykola?
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Don’t worry, it’s all right, I’m with you. I just now noticed that my nephew got my phone in his hands ))
526 days
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I also started monitoring my diet a month ago… I lost 8 kilos. But I still have a lot to lose.
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what can you change my friend, when I kept relapsing eventually I realised that what I am doing is not working, you can’t just keep white knuckling it. That’s the most inappropriate phrase right now but you know what I mean.
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And the penny drops, well done 
last thing we do and the first thing that works.
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Congratulations on 7 months no alcohol and 6 months no coke @CATMANCAM!! That’s an awesome accomplishment. I personally know how hard it was to kick both at the same time but we did it and we’re still doing it.
Sending you positive vibes on your housing situation.
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we’ll hear from you again don’t worry about that, it’ll be in about 6 months time when your trying to put one day together whilst complaining about how you lost your licence and your new bike is a wreck and how your tattoos are meaningless now.
Or just don’t have 1 drink, simple.
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It was simple and I didn’t have a drink, my post was to let ppl know how easy it is to fuck up if you don’t pay attention. There will come a day when your writing the same post…a.a or not
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I know it was and I have
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7 months today!
There have been a few bumps this month, but I got here. I started step 5 yesterday. It is a little weird to think some 29 year old in NY I have never met knows more about me than anyone. The sponsor-sponsee relationship sure is interesting.
Today has been, different, so far, went to get a haircut and it is shorter than I wanted, I dyed it and it is redder than I expected. Oh well, I will get used to it. My period started with a bang today so all I want to do is curl up in a ball. But I am sober, and little by little working on myself.
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Checking in grateful to be sober 47 days. I heard this today and it struck a chord so I thought I would share… We drank for happiness and became unhappy. We drank for joy and became miserable. We drank for sociability and became argumentative. We drank for sophistication and became obnoxious. We drank for friendship and made enemies. We drank for sleep and awakened without rest. We drank for strength and felt weak. We drank “medicinally” and acquired health problems. We drank for relaxation and got the shakes. We drank for bravery and became afraid.
We drank for confidence and became doubtful. We drank to make conversation easier and slurred our speech. We drank to feel heavenly and ended up feeling like hell. We drank to forget and were forever haunted. We drank for freedom and became slaves. We drank to erase problems and saw them multiply. We drank to cope with life and invited death.
Have a strong sober day/night everyone 
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I need a LOVE button for this. Like doesn’t cover it. Thank you.
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Checking in on day 3 from cocaine and alcohol. I feel mentally exhausted and havent been sleeping the best. Hoping tonight is better. Goodnight everyone!
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Congratulations on 7 months!! That is amazing and so are you! 
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