Woo hooooo! Way to go Fleur! So happy for you, you’re really sticking to it. That sounds like quite the eventful day you had! Change is good sometimes.
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Red and sassy! Love it, congrats on 7 months!!
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Did you have Covid some of my friends had a blood clot after they recovered from Covid!
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Day 229
Party was a major hit! We had egg hunts and games and prizes but the best part was when my daughters dad dressed up as the Easter Bunny and knocked on the door with my daughters birthday cake and everyone was so surprised. One girl told her mom it was the “Best party ever!” Her mom told me “Way to go!”
That being said this party planning really got me down in the dumps.
I guess there is a reason I never put myself out there. I had invited 3 of my old coworkers that have kids that I had worked with for 4 years and 2 of them didnt even respond. And that had me thinking constantly of the wreckage I left my life in when I quit. My daughters dad told someone about my ketamine addiction and Im pretty sure the rumors all got around when I never showed up for work one day. Ive really been letting this all get to me. But whatever. I am a new me and my party kicked ass without those girls who never gave a shit about me in the first place. Everyone there knew I was drowning and not one person ever asked me if I was okay. I guess its time to walk away from that chapter of my life. I am a better me now and I know that and thats all that matters…
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No, I had a partially collapsed lung that I got pneumonia from. I’ve never had pneumonia before and it’s so painful. A nurse was telling me that Covid hurts so much worse people were telling her. It must be insane because it’s been excruciating at times like debilitating
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Sarah I’m glad you had a great party and yeah… f**k those people you’re awesome! 
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@Charlie_C, @Rockstar24777 @CapriciousCapricorn Aww thanks you guys! I was also thinking maybe I was just more depressed because I hadn’t been checking in here as much. It seriously makes such a big difference because you are all awesome!!
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I had a really good day today, it was so nice and warm, the sun was out, and I got good news - I’m getting my first shot of the Pfizer vaccine tomorrow around noon! Everything was peachy…then on the way home from my doctor’s appt (also went very well), I noticed the new construction on the main intersection near my neighborhood is going to be a liquor store. One of those fancy “wine & spirits” places that I used to frequent. That’s just wonderful. 
It shouldn’t bother me, but frankly it pisses me off. That prime real estate could have been so many other wonderful things for this area, but noooooo. My husband will be excited about it, though. He can fucking walk two blocks to get his favorite beverages. Christ. Ok, rant over. Sorry for the downer. And my husband is not the issue and neither is the liquor store, it’s the pang of almost regret, or jealousy? That this is happening when I decided to be sober. Ha! So ridiculous! Like the first thought was, “Oh, NOW they decide to put this there!” 
Whatever.
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Adding on here to say I feel better after venting (thanks guys) and I’m nowhere near worried about maintaining my sobriety. I’m not about to throw away these 184 days! Much love, TS amigos! 
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Checking in, day 125. I noticed, that I became pretty lazy in regards to my sobriety. I don’t force it, I don’t do anything actively to maintain it, I just happen to be sober and I know how dangerous it is. I can’t sleep well recently and when I can I have disturbing dreams, I’m too permissive to myself, a few things happened lately that upset me and I started to pick up bad old habits. I feel as if the ground would soften under my feet, it’s not so easy to stand on anymore. I don’t plan to drink, but I definitely have to change my approach to avoid it in the long run.
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Congrats on the 7 months AF and 6 months no cocaine, you’ve got this! Keep on trucking ODAAT. 
Blessings and sobriety!
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Big up to you Fleur, 7 months is just awesome, congrats! No looking back, keep on stacking them days ODAAT!
Blessings and sobriety!
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It’s been a great day! Went to a meeting tonight at the very rehab I was in just a month ago. Its was awesome seeing staff and brought me to a place of gratitude I can’t describe. I was so lost when I was there and to be able to walk in and then back out an hour later was a great feeling. I owe them so much for what they helped me accomplish. So many days I just wanted to leave but I stuck with it and here I am. I was also asked to give my lead there next month. So many people had written me off and here I stand. Sober and full of gratitude. I only have my higher power to thank. He did what I couldn’t do for myself. I truly love being able to go to sleep instead of passing out.
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Checking in on day 212. Spring is now OVER here. We skipped summer and fall and went straight back to winter! 
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Day 254.
Many a work-related zoom meeting, at the end of the day, concludes with references to wine o’clock. I remember thinking “I wish I could be a normie”, but now I question if this is normal. I know some true normies – they don’t really think about it, and if they come across an open bottle or a drink menu, will just as easily take a pass. No judgment to the ones who can tightly control their consumption and who look so forward to making it to wine o’clock each day for their glass, but I wouldn’t trade sobriety for controlled consumption even if I could control it.
I am getting really used to the feeling that there isn’t something outside of me that I need. Sobriety (not to mention isolation/quarantine) brings it all into question. It’s like I loaded the car with all the things I thought I’d need as I headed off into my sober life. Left the corkscrew behind. And yet, I could still be travelling so much lighter. There’s not room on this journey for some of the relationships. Habits. Thought patterns especially.
Making it to wine o’clock every day was letting the wine glass decide where I was headed. I’d rather wake up each morning and see where this beautiful sober highway will take me for another day. See what else and I can leave behind along the way.
Some bumps in the road today, to be sure. These were eclipsed by so many small delights. And your company.
We did it again. I’m sure the views will be just as good tomorrow.
G’night all – big love. 
@CATMANCAM 6 months and 7 months! Nicely done, at a stressful time no less.
@Misokatsu 7 months! Woo hoo!
@Peace beautiful – thanks for sharing!
@Clarity keep that head held high. You’re doing amazing and you don’t need them. 
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Congratulations on 7 months @Misokatsu!!
You’re an amazing lady. I admire your strength and determination.
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11 months today. Such a blessed journey
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Congrats @Harold on 11 months sober, you’ve got this! Keep on keeping on ODAAT!
Blessings and sobriety!
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@Misokatsu
@CATMANCAM
On your 7 months of sobriety.
Tyler I hope you can get your living situation straightened out soon.
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