Yes it’s disappointing, but be kind to yourself. 
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Met some friends for brunch. They are old friends from America who kinda moved to Japan together, it can be hard hanging out with them as naturally talk soon returns to reminiscing about their shared home town. During the first part of step 5, my fear of being left out was highlighted, and although I understand the reasons why it happens in this situation, it is easy to feel left out. I didn’t binge eat today and have a cracking headache, I don’t know if it is the rainy weather or sugar withdrawal.
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Almost walked out of work this morning. I’m sick of the assistant supervisor taking his third person shots at me bc he’s to much of a scared bitch to say anything to my face. I don’t deserve it, and I’ll be damned if Im gonna have a job having me feel down all the all time. It’s still in the air, im seriously considering walking out.
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Hi Michelle,
You should not be feeling bad going to your own home because of “guests”. They are not really guests are they? They do not have a God given right to be there and you are giving away too much of your power to them and your man. It sounds to me as though it has gone beyond setting boundaries and more of an ultimatum/deadline, otherwise you will be stressed waiting to see if your house gets sold and hoping that will get rid of your room mates. It might not and that is not in your control. Remember, you do have power (you have had the strength to endure what you did) and some things are in your control. 
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Dreaded Friday… Here we come. Such a catch 22 as I love fridays, but normally because it means i can leave work and start my indulgence. Day #6 today. Have a social gathering to attend this evening. And these people ALL drink 
I plan to keep my wits about me however. Its going to be tough but I plan to stay strong 
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That’s going to be hard. It can be a chance to see how drinking is a wasted indulgence. Maybe you can bow out early.
Keep your eye on the prize. 
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@anon79808082 my thoughts exactly. When you watch people start shouting and falling around its quite eye opening as to how bad I must have looked drunk too
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Day 111. Still sober, still alive. Had my second counseling session yesterday. I’m so full of anger and resentment, and those feelings coexist with all of my shame and regret. Suicide is on my mind daily. I still hate that sobriety is not fixing one fucking problem in my life, but instead I’m feeling and facing these problems. I don’t think I have what it take to get through this.
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You can do it, and then feel alert and proud of yourself tomorrow. You know where the first drink leads.
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I suggest getting your license and a new job first Mike. it’s easier to get a job when you have a job. if you have a plan moving forward it might make dealing with the bullshit easier.
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Hi Tom Congrats on 180 something days as you said. Great share. Very true. Step 4…Karma…reap what you sow etc…right on. I’m glad you have let go of that anger and found peace. Prayers for the relative in pain.
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Hey @cwak congrats grats on 111 days. Lucky number. Sending you love and strength. You can do this 1 day at a time. Your proving it now! Every ones journey looks different but keep going we all have those down moments i know I’ve had plenty days where I wanted to.give up. So.glad I didn’t. You matter…I’ll be seeing you around 1 day at a time. Blessings my friend. 
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Half way to 90 days! Thank you all for the encouragement, motivation, advice, and all the stories I read to keep me laser focussed.
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Hey @Eleven17 congrats on 45 days. Awesome. Look at all that money saved. Keep going im right behind you. Day 26 here.
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Yes, it does. Woke up feeling rather crummy and skipped the gym. Fighting a UTI so that isn’t good. But better than a hangover.
Hope everyone is having…or since we are quite the international group, HAD, a sober say.
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Just dropped my daughter off on an evening out with her friends…at 7:30 on a Friday night…because I can. Loved it. Feel like a grown up. 
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@littlemisschatterbox, 535!!! Wonderful!!
Starting Day 7. This time last Friday I felt like hell and was planning a solitary drinking afternoon to get rid of the jitters. What a dumb plan. Not this week!!
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Yeah man either way I’ll survive, my happyness comes first. I ride with the assistant supervisor he already told me I need to start finding my own ride even tho I live next to him. Then this morning he was third person talking saying how the house keepers who are abusing time and showing up when they want to free rides are over he’s going to the big bosses. I was literally dieing laughing. Fuck this negative place dude I deserve better then this
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Good Morning Sunshine…day 535 rocking it! Have a wonderful day as well. Did you watch GA last night. Lawd I can’t take it. I think the show is ending and this is the final season.
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Checking in sober, Day 430. Thanks for all the well wishes yesterday on my 14 month soberversary! Its Friday and the weather remains sunny and mild, it should hit 50F today, so I plan to get more outside time to enjoy it. Tonite its back to cold and likely snow, so all the more motivation to enjoy the day. Wishing all a happy, sober Friday & weekend!!!
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