Checking in daily to maintain focus #27

Beautiful bride! Many many congrats to you both! Not sure how you made her say I do :sunglasses: :stuck_out_tongue_winking_eye: but well done you!

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Yes and amen to that Tony! Excellent! have a good night friend.

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You too, Menno. Goodnight.

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Congratulations!!!
You both looked and still look gorgeous!! :orange_heart: :star2:

I absolutely love that profile pic where sheā€™s looking over her shoulder :heart_eyes: :star_struck:

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Day 388. Another day of gods will, and the power to carry it out. Much love, stay sober, stay beautiful

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Such a beautiful story; you made me smile, Charlie. All the blessings and happiness for you two!:sparkling_heart:

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Hey all, checking in on day 256.

This sums up my day today as well! Iā€™m grateful to be sober and not hungover so I can be productive and have days like this more often.

@Charlie_C Great couple of posts! Those are great photosā€¦Congrats!!

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True long-lasting love does exist :purple_heart: thank you for reminding us young hopeless romantics. Happy anniversary Charlie and congrats on your sobriety. The best anniversary gift you can gift your wife is you sober. Have a wonderful day :smiling_face_with_three_hearts:

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Iā€™m so angry right now. My wife and I just got into a huge argument. First time this has happened in sobriety. Before, I would always get as drunk as possible on these days to escape her and to spite her. I swear to god all I wanna do right now is go to the liquor store and pound the biggest bottle I can find or better yet just go off myself somewhere. Fuck this shit.

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Day 258 clean and sober today. Getting ready to head out to the doctor. Hopefully I will be getting at least one of the drain lines removed today. I had my first session with my therapist yesterday and boy did she earn her money yesterday lol. I had a lot to dump on her and she seemed ok with it. I hope you all have a wonderful day today, love you guys!!! :sunglasses::metal:t2:

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Had marriage counseling yesterday and I am feeling a little raw. Iā€™m telling myself a bunch of things that I know arenā€™t true about how I am already doing so much recovery work that this counseling stuff is work she should be focusing on. Iā€™ve made amends, I am doing my maintenance work, Iā€™m in two programs, they donā€™t get what Iā€™m saying. Woe is me!

Once again, my addict mind is trying to make sure counseling goes the way I think it should go. Because I am a selfish and self-centered ego-trip on wheels.

I should see this as an opportunity for expanding my ability to communicate with my spouse. Something that can ALWAYS be improved upon and woven into the work Iā€™m already doing without too much extra effort.

Anyway, just being accountable. Have a good day everyone!

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Ok i need to vent.
Not even 10 in the morning and cravings are kicking in. Called a family member, I donā€™t feel relaxed nor in control. Although I know it wonā€™t bring anything good. Probably only guilt actually. And I know if I have one sip Iā€™ll drink myself to black because Iā€™ll be so guilty of having drinking again. I canā€™t to that to my girlfriend , sheā€™s going through a stressed time at work. Fuck. Keep seeing bottles in my heads. I can taste it. It sucks so bad. I hate that I have an imagination like mine. So vivid itā€™s like itā€™s done anyways and itā€™s going to happens. Last two weeks have been rough, I had a big stress happened Friday and last until Monday. Now I feel the backlash of it. Body is tired. I know itā€™s only because of this my cravings are up to the sky like this. I have two meetings left today and if itā€™s not getting better Iā€™ll just take the afternoon off and go chill on my couch. Fuck no chance I let that impulsiveness of mine take control of my behaviours. My sobriety, and therefore my mental health and my relational wellbeing is worth much more than a Damn bottle of vodka with a chaser of self-destruction and a feeling of guilt and failure.
So Iā€™ll stick to my plan. Iā€™m going to listen to that crazy craving for what itā€™s truly is : I need to calm down, flush some stress out of my life and take care of myself. So right now it means to finish my day as I like my job and want to feel accomplished. So instead of a cheap beer or a Damn little bottle of vodka to sneak in my cup of coffee (like I have been romancing all morning) Iā€™ll take a walk and buy a good strong cup of good coffee. Iā€™d call my brother during the walk and then finish what I have to do here with some good music. If itā€™s too much I leave for the afternoon. I rather leave than secretly drink. Itā€™s much more important.
Damn itā€™s a rough day - I didnā€™t see it coming.

Sorry I really needed a place to vent and maybe talk to myself at the same time.
Hope you all have a good day!

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Congrats on 100 days ! And it keeps getting better keep up the hard work!

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Those are beautiful photos @Charlie_C! Thank you so much for sharing.

Checking in for day 18. Feeling a bit tired today but trying to not let it bring me down.

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It happens to the best of us bud donā€™t be so hard on yourself. Love yourself drink lots of water take your vitamins. Have you been practicing breathing exercises for meditation? Look up some tutorials on meditation it helps anxiety a lot, you can learn to slow your heart rate bpm down how to concentrate and focus better. All around benefits.

You are going to be so proud of yourself when you donā€™t drink today and you will be even prouder when you donā€™t drink tomorrow. If you need a hand reach out. Have a great day bud take care of yourself

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933 days alcohol free. Happy Wednesday

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@zzz Awesome job on 80 days and the step work.
@anon27760155 Danni I just love watching you grow and Iā€™m blessed to be on this journey with you. Thanks so much for your shares.
@WCan Talk it out as much as you need to but just keep getting better at getting better cuz youā€™re doing it.
@Charlie_C Happy Anniversary. Itā€™s so wonderful you have a loving partner in your corner.
@cwak BREATHE. . . Drinking wonā€™t help and will most likely just make matters worse. Living life on lifeā€™s terms isnā€™t easy but itā€™s manageable if you stay sober.
@Rockstar24777 Iā€™m so glad you found a therapist youā€™re comfortable with and are able to unpack. Thereā€™s only up from here bro.

254 days. Went to the city for a short grocery shop with my man yesterday. It was nice to get out with just the two of us and I really enjoyed it. My mood has improved over the last few days and I stressed the importance of being able to discuss with my man whatā€™s on my mind. Whether itā€™s good or bad going on in my head, I should be able to talk to him about it without being invalidated. Guess weā€™ll see how things go as the one roommate is sure testing my patience.

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@anon83587935 @Squirt thank you guys. It is indeed a rough day. I actually had a cancellation of one of my meeting so I took a longer break. I am going to do the other one right now so itā€™ll be done. But damn it is strong todayā€¦ now that I have planned on taking the afternoon off my mind is starting to use this as an opportunity to actually drink! I think Iā€™m going to have a nice lunch from a place I like down here instead and watch a movie or something. Gotta calm down that head and breathe. I am going to stick around and re-read your kind messages.

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Day 250ā€¦

Halfway to 500, less than a month for a sober babyā€¦

What better way to remind me of one of the best things and experiences I have had, than my 35k t-shirt

That sounds bad, but how much did I spend on alcohol and drugs over the years? A lot more

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