@CATMANCAM…thanks so much I completed my first day not overeating too so feeling pleased and on track.
Have stocked up on vitamins , getting my steps in and health meals and other than using dreams feeling pretty good.
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Thanks for all the support on here and the motivation
Check you all tomorrow 
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- I am back to my busy life, working full time, home schooling one child and now I have my 6 yr old niece and 8 month old nephew I’m caring for until my little sister gets her shit together. Came home from work made dinner while helping with homework. I’m trying to figure out how things are going to work for awhile we have a small duplex and even without my niece and nephew it’s small. I really want to buy my own home. I have never able to because my credit was always bad or I didn’t care enough to fix it. Well I’ve been doing really well these past few years thanks to my sobriety. I have everything in order to start to buy my own home. I’m so afraid though. Afraid I won’t get approved, afraid I can’t keep up, afraid I won’t find a house I love, afraid of failing my kids…so many things scare me about the whole process. I know I shouldn’t be but I am. I don’t even want to tell my kids or family because what if I don’t get approved then they won’t be disappointed along with me. I want to spare my kids the grief. They always ask me when are we getting our own house. I’ve let them down before. I couldn’t bare to see them hurt again. Idk I guess I’ll just wait and see what happens. Have a blessed night TS fam
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I’m sure you’ll get approved. Try lendingtree.com see if you can get a FHA loan.
Good on you for taking care of your sisters kids. Kids deserve stability.
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Thank you Dan. I’m sure it will be fine I’m just so nervous.
I agree kids need stability. I just wish my sister understood that.
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I remember the anxiety over getting loans, it’s not fun. Buying a home is a nerve racking process from getting approved to getting an offer accepted to the appraisal and home inspection and then the underwriters. It can be overwhelming, just go one step at a time. You’ll be fine 
. Best of luck to you
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Good luck with that. It can be very stressful.
From our experience. We have lots. Stay on top of every one. Always. All the time. Nobody does shit until you stay out front and on top of them. If you can do it with addiction. You can do it buying a home. Just don’t wait for deadlines. Always stay a head of them.
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Checking in. I am sober. I don’t feel strong in sobriety right now. I find myself craving and romanticizing drinking. Even though I know I’m better without it.
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Day 170 no alcohol/ day 44 no smoking. This past week has been physically and emotionally exhausting, but I’m still sober, and that’s what counts. I’ve missed checking in here and seeing how everyone has been doing. I hope all my fellow soberians are doing well. Y’all are strong and awesome, even if you don’t feel that way right this minute.
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Day 259.
Today was an adventure. I entered the forest, clutching my fave teddy bear named “sobriety” – no biggie, just make it through to other side by end of day. Monsters, ogres, trolls, fire-breathing dragons, lurking everwhere! All of them tripping over each other to capture teddy and run off with him! I hung on tight… and we outran (but barely) the monsters (meetings and deadlines and workload oh my!), told the trolls to back off (negative self-talk), made some peace with the ogres (grief), and as for the dragons? (communication between adult siblings, sigh…) well, your fire doesn’t really burn, not too badly anyway.
Teddy’s beat. I am too. But we’re still together. Not a one of 'em walked off with my sobriety. (The PG version includes an explicit language warning. 
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We did it again, friends. Let’s do another one tomorrow.
G’night, big love to all. 
@Lotusflower congrats Des! What all the others have already said!
@Complicatedmama you won’t know unless you go for it. cheering you on over here!
@TSan always good to see you! you’re almost at 6 months - way to go, friend!
@Rockstar24777 happy belly button birthday, big bro! plenty o’ hugs to you.
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Checking in day 9. This morning I woke up with anxiety for some reason. Now all I can keep thinking is how am i ever going to have fun again. Im enjoying being sober, I feel good. But alcohol is all I have known for 15 years. Now I feel like ive lost something 
like it feels more real as the days go by. I dont know how to live my life sober as Ive never done it successfully. Feeling very depsondent 
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Thanks Em…love your " story telling"…brilliant…sober on 1 day at a time. Good night!
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Hi Kels.
Glad you’re checking in on day nine. Congratulations.
Feelings will come and go. Cuz that’s what they are. Feelings.
I’ll tell ya what’s fun though.
Waking up in the morning without a hangover.
Driving with no alcohol in your system and never having to worry about a DUI
Not fighting with my wife.
Having nice quiet devotional time in the morning without a headache.
Being in the moment outside and watching the birds and the squirrels attacking my bird feeders.
Not going to the toilet ten times during a sporting event and actually seeing all the game.
Not being embarrassed at the checkout when the cashier asks me if I’m having a party when all that booze is for me.
It will get easier. You will have fun. You will enjoy being sober. And you will be so grateful.
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952 days alcohol free. Super anxious today. Barely slept last night and work in 2 hours. Hoping this passes. Happy Tuesday.
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all good. Day one 
- Late coffee. Very tiring workday last night. Lots of residents acting crazy. Which may sounds logical since I work in mental health care. Anyway, it gave me some anxiety but coming home I didn’t feel I needed to drink to help with that. Ginger lemonade instead. Much better. Slept pretty well. Going to do it again today. Sober and clean. Just like you all I hope. Have a good one or at least as good as you all can. Love from my place.
@Complicatedmama I’m excited for you Patty! Scary stuff but I’m sure you can handle it. Sober. Hugs.
@Rockstar24777 Belated happy birthday Rob!
@TSan Happy to see you friend.
@Foreverfree36 Early days in your sobriety Kels. Life is actually much more fun sober. You’ll find out I’m sure. Patience. Keep going.
@M-be-free49 Sounds like a very exiting adventure! Another one today OK? Hugs.
@Tommo Love your shares Tom. Very glad to have you with us. Sober on brother.
@Steve92 Glad to see you checking in friend. Hang in there.
@apes2020 Good to see you April. Keep going, keep learning. You will make it stick.
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Been missing you, lady! So glad you are back. Hang in there!
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