I am sorry to see this, @apes2020 Can u think about what the triggers were, and how to do it differently next time?
M7 D5
Had a nice lunch with a friend. It was at one of those fancy burger places, with a big tall burger u have to dislocate your jaw to get it in ur gob, and thank god for the paper envelope-thingy to catch all the stuff dripping out. I was glad it wasn’t a first date or anything, impossible to eat elegantly.
Checking in sober, Day 434 (62 Weeks AF). Didn’t sleep well, lots of stress so random thoughts flitting through my mind distracting me from rest. Didn’t get in a walk/hike due to the extreme cold yesterday. Hope to make up for it today. Gonna make a point to do a meditation to try and re-center myself. Wishing all a strong, sober day!!
Checking in. My best friend was taken to the hospital with covid and I’m so fucking nervous. I don’t know how she is. She lives alone with two kids (my godchildren) and don’t know where the girls are. They must be scared. I’m in a different country, so I cannot do anything, it’s so frustrating. I’m worried so much.
Thank you @Mbwoman . Yes! I choose everything…colors in all…wanted it to cover some previous scars and not conflict with my cross or infinity sign. A lot of Pintrest post ideas coming together. It will be my 6th. Do you have any?
Argh, I really want a lotus flower wrist tattoo for the same covering reason, but then I wouldn’t be able to go swimming or to the hot springs. So jealous!
340 today. Approaching the year mark and so grateful. The new job is going well so far. I’m grateful to be a part of this great group of people
They actually slept in which always baffles their parents because apparently they only do that with me
Don’t tell them about the chloroform @anon35096624
1 month and 2 days!! This is the longest I’ve ever gone without drinking in over 45 years. I’m doing it!!
Hey all, checking in on day 275. Hope everyone is doing well!
@apes2020 glad to see you again!
Day 1,230. Vaccine day! Woooooooo
That sounds wonderful. Do you make it yourself?
@anon35096624… Day 3! From a physical recovery standpoint, you are getting through the worst part and the good news is you never have to do this part again! Its your gift to yourself 
. Emotions, yeah…if you are like me…its kinda why I drank, to get away from them. But I can promise you this. Feeling them… the good and the bad, are also part of recovery and also a gift. So dont shy away from feeling the feels girl!
Going through day 2 currently. Having another Meeting online today evening.
Hopefully there is a US equivalent. $15 for 2 bottles. Then again…think of what I spent on poison. The combo of lemons and ginger just sounds amazing. Thanks for the info!
@Lotusflower. No, I don’t. I just never did when I was younger, and now having seen how delightful (sarcasm) my skin looks in certain places, at 60, I’m glad I didn’t. LOL But, where you have your new tattoo is a great place, and if I were to get one it would be on my inner forearm. I thought of getting a small tribute to my sons. Incorporating a heart with their initials of “J” and “M”. Maybe I will do that! And sobriety celebrations are always an option. And I do have two arms . . . hmmmmm . . . now I am intrigued. Anyway - DO love your design.
Day 44
Work stress has my body and soul so tired. Yesterday was a Monday where everything breaks at once. I ended up staying an extra hour.
I have loads of PTO but my coworkers are always unavailable. Because I’m higher up in rank, I have the responsibility to make sure things are covered.
I haven’t taken a full week off in almost 2 years. Long weekends aren’t cutting it.
Haven’t felt so much like drinking these 44 days than I did yesterday.
I didn’t and got through but I’m exhausted this morning. Really hoping I can have a calm day at work, but expecting the worst.
I’m almost out of adrenaline and my beloved coffee is just giving me tired anxiety.
Sorry for the sob story. I had to get it off my chest because I know you all would understand.
Day 190: Slept in, missed putting my bins out for the recycling truck, my routine is derailed, daylight saving time can suck it! I will have to force myself to get up on time tomorrow. I was just thinking how lately I’m getting irritated at little things, so-called “first-world problems,” and it makes me laugh at myself. When I think back to periods of binging and sick with a hangover, mental health down the tubes, and dragging myself out of bed to round up my hidden empties to hurry and get them out with the recycling before my husband found them…yikes. So glad those days are over. Today is a good day, I slept great and the recycling can wait till next week!
Sending sober loving energy out to you today 
Day 278 clean and sober today. Will be finding out what time the memorial will be scheduled for my son this Friday. My son was an amazing musician. Could play guitar, bass, piano, guitar, drums and more. He mostly focused on drumming and was so naturally talented that it blew myself and many people away. His first live gig was playing drums for my band when he was 12. We opened up for an 80’s band called the Motels (look them up if you want they were pretty popular). He had always told me that he got into music because he would listen to my band rehearse and he loved it. I talked with the singer in my band and we’re going to perform Corey’s favorite song acoustic version beside his casket for him this Friday. As I was thinking about things late last night a new song came out of nowhere and I started piecing it together. Afterwards some lyrics started coming to mind and I sat down and started writing. As I began there was a huge storm that started and it began raining so hard like heaven was crying. I don’t know but it was really intense. I need to have this song done by Friday so any prayers or positive vibes for strength and clarity would be greatly appreciated. Have a wonderful day everyone, love you guys 
