Checking in daily to maintain focus #27

[Rockstar24777]

Thank you @CATMANCAM and @MagicMama!

[FindingJesse]

I’ve been off porn for two months! Thanks for being here!

[Nordique]

Hope you stay healthy @Jennajen! Keeping you and your flat mates in my thoughts.

@Charlie_C I’m so sorry to hear about your father’s condition worsening but you’re exactly right, the most important thing is that he’s with family and comfortable. You can’t ask for more than that when dealing with such a horrible illness. It warms my heart that they take such good care of him and he gets to still do the things he enjoys. Have a great rest of your day!

@Rockstar24777 That was so touching and heartfelt, you’re gonna nail the song!

[Rockstar24777]

Thank you @Nordique I’m going to give it everything I’ve got. Thank you so much for your continued support as well as everyone else that’s been here for me through this. I’m truly grateful for you all

[Tomek]

Checking in after a long day. My brain just doesn’t stop thinking and worrying. My friend gets oxygen. The kids are all right, they are at a friend of theirs. Being powerless and unable to do anything is so frustrating. I haven’t eaten today and will just go to sleep if I can. It’s so hard to know that she’s suffering.

[Lilemm]

That’s amazing time clean n sober, congratulations

[Misokatsu]

@Rockstar24777 I can hear your love for your son in your post. Hugs, and I am sending whatever good vibes I have.

@Charlie_C It sounds like a nice birthday for him. Glad he is being taken care of. He is lucky to have good family around him.

@Jennajen Hope you stay healthy!

[Mno]

You’re both in my thoughts friend. That’s very tough. Hugs.

[Rockstar24777]

That was a really beautiful thing to say @Misokatsu, thank you for that…

[Dolse71]

congratulations, I love it when people say they have never been sober so long, it’s a whole new world well done

[Dolse71]

your doing amazing, it’s just another day well done.

[Mbwoman]

@Charlie_C. That is sad seeing our parents’ decline. My Mom is 86 and had a major stroke 3 years ago. Totally paralyzed on her left side. We dont have the capability to care for her at home as she needs help doing everything. She was living with my younger sister in Bonita Springs, not far from you. My sister still works full time and her husband is 63 with health issues. But, Mom is still pretty sharp and is still herself. Forgets things…but we all do! I’m blessed to have my Mom. And I haven’t talked to her after drinking in a long time, so she thinks I’m totally sober. Not gonna ruin that for her.

[Dazercat]

Sorry about your dad Charlie. That is a great idea about the baseball games if you can pull it off. Brilliant!
In a way it’s great if he doesn’t remember the death of your mom. My mom never could let go of dad after he died. Kept asking where he was. And waiting for him before she would eat. It was horrible. Glad he’s got family around him to take care of things and the extra help goes a long way too.
My prayers go out to you and your family during this troubled time with your dad.

[Jonachav123]

Day 432.
I don’t feel good.
Where can I find the strength to not buy a whole lot of alcohol and sleep medication just to see what happens? To just not have to feel anymore…
I guess some call this a dark place.
I think I just want to escape and not feel anything.

[apes2020]

so I stopped a good few days ago but I didnt reset my clock till yesterday because I was still in the sleepy phase and not doing much but eating , sleeping, showering and Netflix. I waited to restart my clock till I was back up and able to begin my morning routines without wanting to crawl back under my doona all day…so I lost 11 days this time. I was using for 4 of those days. So I havnt used for about a week now but I made it my day one because yesterday was the first day that I could physically get up and out and go out for a walk to the grocery store etc. I woke up this morning at 9.30am and I feel OK this morning. Going to shower and head out to get my nails done and buy a coffee. I dont feel like using, this is a good thing. Today is a good day. Oh and its also fall here in oz, so the leaves are falling and its magically glorious outside its my favorite time of year… I live next to a huge beautiful botanical gardens, I rarely go there , I don’t know why. I always go to the beach side of the suburb on my walks, I think il mix things up now and go for a walk to the gardens in the mornings… The smell of fresh dew and grass and the early morning sun glistening on trees in gardens are moments of magic

[Mbwoman]

@Jonachav123

Where can I find the strength to not buy a whole lot of alcohol and sleep medication

Where did you find the strength for FOUR HUNDRED AND THIRTY-TWO days. All caps for a reason.

[Jonachav123]

@Charlie_C @Mbwoman

Thank you.
I felt like I really had to type my feelings down here.

[Mbwoman]

That was a brilliant thing to do. A healthy response to feeling like . Do it every single time. Hugs!

[Mbwoman]

Fingers crossed for a big NEGATIVE!!

[cwak]

I really have no idea how I’m at 115 days. I was certain I would give in last week. I’ve felt similar today. Yet here I am. Haven’t done it. I wish I knew how to change the “want to drink” part of all this instead of just constantly resisting.