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Oh Courtney Iām so sorry to read about your uncle. And so freaking young. Thatās just got to be heart breaking. You and your family will be in my thoughts and prayers.
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Thank you Eric
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Wow! Iām so sorry Courtney. What a shitty day for you from all angles. He was very young. Sounds like you have some nice memories to cherish. Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers. 
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Thank you Lisa I appreciate that.
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Starting day 3 today. Still shaky but the Meetings Yesterday literally saved me. Attended two online Meetings in the end.
Headache ist better.
Maybe I shouldve Seen a doctor before starting over but I am still to embarrassed to admit anywhere Else than in front of my husband and in Meetingsā¦
Hope I can make ist through this das also.
In the Last months I had a couple of days of not drinking but never more than 3-5.
Already chose a Beginner Meeting for today thought.
I will also try and reach out locally to See If there are any F2F Meetings soon.
Have a good 24 hours everyone!
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Back to day 0. I lasted 15 days on my first attempt which I am pretty proud of (considering itās the longest Iāve went without indulging in a LONG time). Iām just glad I made it back here and didnāt talk myself out of this.
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Thank you @TSan and @M-be-free49 Iām not sure if we will be able to have it recorded but rehearsal was amazing and full of sad and happy tears. This is going to be so beautiful. Thank you
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- Last coffee till work. Last workday of six. Yay! Itās national election day here. Only 37 parties to choose from of which about 12 are expected to make it to de Tweede Kamer which is our house of representatives. Youād think we have something to choose from. Still itās bloody hard to make a choice. Well. At least Iāll make my choice clean and sober. And wonāt be drinking tonight to celebrate victory or forget the defeat either. Life is much better this way. Going to leave a bit early so I can cast my vote at a pretty voting place in town, this church called de Duif (the pigeon). Not my pic. Have as good a day as you all can friends. Sober and clean. Love from Amsterdam.
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Oh goodness, no way Iām catching up on this thread today. Took my final last night and did well. Iām so glad thatās over. Next class starts on Tuesday, so I have a short little break. No falling behind like I did on this one.
Happy sober hump day!
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Lolā¦love this. Very trueā¦
Day 408. So many of you reached out when I said I was leaving. I just want to thank you all, I was definitely in one of my moments, I still am a little bit. I can sit there every day and count my gratitudes and when I have one bad day none of the stuff I was grateful for even matters. It takes me a little bit to get everything back in order. I forget even on those bad days that if Iām sober thatās all that matters and it was a good damn day. So yeah just stick with it, Iāve had alot of triggering moments here lately but I pulled through them, saw the truth in the lies my mind and alcohol was trying to get me to believe. Much love @Rockstar24777, @anon79808082, @Dragonflygirl82, @CapriciousCapricorn, @Singtone, and anyone else who reached out. Sorry I never responded, I was in my own selfishness and self pitty. But I love you all
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Day #4 check in. Been trying to be open and honest with family. Still at times I go through a wave of depression and guilt for the way drinking has hurt my family.
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This week Iām spending time with my daughter who is a nurse in Lexington. This program and the grace of God has given me the opportunity to rebuild this relationship. Itās sad but humbling to have to start this from scratch with her. Blessed today.
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@cwak , @Private50ā¦Iāve experienced that. The newness of the first few days (unless you are really suffering physically) can be motivating. The āI can do this!!ā thoughts and feelings.Even though months down the road the sobriety benefits are many, the ādamn, I canāt/shouldnāt/wonāt drinkā thoughts can be depressing. And a trigger to drink. Glad you both keep coming back here. Itās working for you.
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953 days alcohol free. Got to work at 6am, currently hiding in the work truck, taking it easy for the first hour. [I honestly never slack off I just got a recognition award from my boss]
I was going to dive right into the day of work orders and bus driving but I thought of the people on here saying I should take a breath when Iām feeling super anxious so here I am. Grateful for this app because thereās nowhere else I could ramble on about my crazy thoughts lol
Oh and itās st Patrickās day and all I kept thinking about on the drive to work was having some green beer and an Irish car bomb. Wtf ? Nah Iām gonna sit in this truck for a bit and reflect on that. Happy humpday
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Good to see you hit those big numbers. Hope your well. Happy Wednesday
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