CONGRATULATIONS @littlemisschatterbox that’s AMAZING!!!
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Nice one, 18 months is great going. Proud of you 
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Doing good. Needed more support and seeked it out through people in my meeting
I also wanted to share this I found this morning
I just wanted to share There is a 24 hr zoom AA meeting I found and anytime I’m struggling during the day, I just go on and listen to peoples shares. I haven’t yet worked up the courage to speak myself but I’m only day 3 and theres no pressure. Just listening has been so powerful for me.
The Zoom ID is 292 371 2604 password
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Today is a tough anniversary. I am going to lose myself to studying and depression naps… definitely needing a friend today.
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Congratulations on your 8 days.
There’s many meditation apps out there. I personally like Breethe app. It has all sorts of guided meditations. I use to use the sleep ones a lot. Now I’m usually doing the weight loss ones and the calmness or anxiety ones. The focusing in on your breathing and listening to the sleep guided ones really helped me a lot.
Maybe a hot relaxing shower before bed too.
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Thanks, Eric. I’ll check out some meditation apps, but that hot shower idea sounds enticing lol. Think I’ll give that a go tonight.
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First off, the sleep issues are temporary, remember that. I found the best drunken sleep to be less refreshing than worst sober sleep.
Melatonin helps a little
Exercise helps a little
Good healthy diet helps a little
Meditation helps a little
No electronic devices an hour before bed helps a little
Waking up and getting up at the same time helps a little
Routine helps a little
Naps help a little
Little by little, it all adds up.
The one thing that does help is time. The lack of sleep is the price of admission and once it’s paid, sleep will be the most glorious thing you’ve experienced! Hang in there.
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Day 197 - I haven’t been on much lately, been suffering with the spring malady something fierce! Sinus pressure, a seemingly never ending headache, sore throat from drainage, ugh. So, yes, I came here to vent (sorry) and I’m going to crawl back to my hidey hole. Thank goodness I am sober!
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Freaking Allergies 
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I’m so sorry you’re suffering Rosa. I hope you feel better soon.
No spring here yet. Snowing again and cold. 
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Oh ya. And my wife loves her white noise machine. She puts it on every night.
@Will3 congrats on 10 months
@Kipper congrats on your PB
@littlemisschatterbox congrats on 18 months
@ICanAndWill sending strength
225 no alcohol.
193 no cocaine.
20 days no binge-eating.
It’s hard to admit but I’m feeling really relapsey. 
I think it’s a cumulation of the presence of the dealers all last week, and the fact that I’ve lost my home is very real now that I’ve started packing boxes. I feel like crying but tears never come, I’ve got butterflies in my stomach and I can feel anxiety in my chest. I’m scared, I haven’t felt like this since I got clean. I’ve also been going through my photo storage app on my phone and deleting all the horrendous photos of myself in active addiction. I never want to go back there!
Since I stopped binge-eating I haven’t been able to watch any TV, so I’ve got 2 episodes of The Voice singing program to catch up on, maybe that would help to release some tears.
My dad dropped my prescription medications off to me today, and I got a really cold vibe from him, and it’s made me wonder if it’s the anniversary of my Grandad’s (his dad’s) death. It was around this time of year 2-3 years ago. It plagues me that I can’t remember any of my grandparent’s death anniversaries, but I really didn’t cope well with their passings and ultimately used drink, drugs, and food, to numb it all out.
I’ll be okay. Really grateful to have this place and you all to share this stuff. I have no friends that I can talk to so it can feel quite heavy all alone. Thanks for being here. 
I did submit the job application today so I guess that’s a positive . 
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I guess I’m lucky that I don’t associate olives with booze. I’m lucky in that, I guess. But I do understand fully what you are saying!!
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Oh, the whole French Foreign Legion thing didn’t exactly endear me to anyone !
But mostly it’s the whole family thing… having been dumped by my wife - which I doubtlessly deserved - no kids, always on the run… things like that.
I suppose that if I could spend a couple of years in Japan, my Japanese would get a lot better too ! I take lessons twice each week over the Internet, and that is really working out well, in my opinion, along with WaniKani for the kanji… which is difficult, but coming along, I suppose. I’m almost halfway trough the levels !
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Thanks Stella. I completely agree, keep reaching forward. All they are going to do and want to do is hold me back on who I use to be. Not who I am now
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Day 1, after doing good for a bit. I am having a hard time realising the friends/people I keep up with to see how they are doing regularly, do not keep up with me. If I do not call or send a text… it’s just silent. The same goes for family.
I know you surround yourself with people that fit with the way you present yourself and you should find ‘new people’. Still it hurts me a bit and I feel more lonely in a happy shell/mask.
Anyway. Day 1, proud of the sober day-streak I had before this.
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This message.
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Okaaayy!!! Get it girl. 
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Yes, but for the infantry. The paratroopers have a different cap badge.
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@littlemisschatterbox I said it on ur thread, but worth saying again, congratulations!
@ICanAndWill Sending strength.
@RosaCanDo My sympathies.
@zzz Think about what happened before u drank. Think REALLY hard about if it was worth it.
@anon27700620 Plenty of marriages fail, doesn’t mean the participants are worthless. I know u don’t like being cheered up, or don’t think u are worth being cheered up, but how u look at things really alters if u are “happy” or at least not miserable.
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