- Quick one as I slept in and I still have homework to do before my therapy group later this afternoon. Happy I don’t need to go to work till Monday. Just as happy I’m not going to fill my time off with stupid drinking and or drugging. It never helped me with anything. Never again. One day at a time. Have as good a day as you all can friends. Sober and clean. Love from Amsterdam where I had nice little walk with an old friend. Spring is coming. Love.
@Singtone Thanks for sharing Tony and no need to apologize. Good stuff to read and think about. I also sometimes have those ‘what’s the point’ discussions in my head, but from an oppositie viewpoint. Sometimes I feel an urge but then I think what’s the point in using? And I come to the conclusion there is none. Might have to do with the stage my use had gotten to, which was an ever deeper sinking in a black pit and absolutely nothing positive at all. I just can’t think of any positive about using. And if I wanted to kill myself (I don’t) I could think of ‘better’ ways to do that.
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Day 199 and sleep has eluded me but I forced myself to rest as well as possible. Maybe feeling a bit better. Pain comes in waves, though. Doctor’s appointment is first thing this morning. Sending love 
I appreciate the well wishes, amigos. Going to try to shut my eyes a bit longer.
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Positive and healing vibes and thoughts your way amiga. Tender hugs.
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That’s interesting, for me a lack of structure or a lack of next day responsibilities really affected me. I do understand your “logic”, but for a while now I have not been a one and done drinker. If I drank once, it would be one foot on a slippery slope, even if I had more than 10 days free.
I also enjoy the community, even if I am not the most active poster, it has been over a year for me, long enough to see some people leave. Glad to have u here part of it.
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961 days alcohol free. Happy thursday…
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Hey everyone, day 284 here.
I hope everyone has a great one. @RosaCanDo good luck at the doc!
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Feel better Rosa!! I hope they can help you figure it out! If anything, maybe IV tordol to help the pain.
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Day 287 clean and sober today. Made it through another rough day yesterday thanks to you all here. I’m definitely feeling better and I’m so glad I don’t react impulsively on my thoughts. Weird thing yesterday happened. The exam I have been trying to take to be able to register with the state as an entry level counselor only gives you 3 chances to take it and I had already failed 2 times I ended up failing for the third time last yesterday. For some reason it said attempt exam again so I clicked it and passed on the 4th try!!! So I’m just awaiting approval to receive my RADT (registered alcohol and drug technician) certification and it will allow me to start working in the field when I finally hit my year. If all of the pain and sadness I’ve faced in my life can save at least one persons life it will all have been worth it. I’m very grateful to have you all to be able to let out what’s on the inside of me and what goes on in my thoughts, you all have been wonderful friends and I truly appreciate all of the love and support. Love you guys, have a great day! 
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This is amazing Rob I’m so glad you passed it and got that extra attempt! It seems like somebody was looking out for you 
I saw your posts in the other thread a while after you had posted them last night, so I’m glad you’re doing better. You are one badass dude.
I’m glad we’ll hit our 1 year mark just a few days apart!!
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Thanks @Nordique! Yeah I’m convinced that coming here and letting out what we’re going through no matter what is so important and it really does take the power out of our thoughts and feelings. And yes! I can’t believe we’re actually so close to getting our year sober that’s AMAZING!!! Thank you for always being here and for all of your support, have a great day!
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I’m proud of you for walking through this sober @MagicMama, you’re doing the deal and it’s amazing
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349 today. Isn’t it great to go to sleep at night instead of passing out and waking up instead of coming to?
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Please do, Sir. Nice to see back as well.
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It’s a good shout, Geoff. I’m a huge over thinker. I’m starting to think that that is one of the reasons that I’m susceptible to alcohol. It’s a way to turn my thoughts down. Thanks for posting. I do love this community.
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Tough day, not for my recovery just in general. Just pissed off and fed up with lock downs I guess. Gah, I hate feeling this grumpy.
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Checking in at the end of day 81.
It takes a lot to get to 81 days, which means that it’s a lot to give up. 
One more get up before a 16 holiday from work. I have managed to lose sight of what a great thing that is. Can’t wait.
Life really is so much better now. I should never lose sight of that.
Have a great sober day, wherever you are.
Goodnight. 
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Thanks @Conor689908 and @M-be-free49, it’s great to be nicotine free. 
Blessings and sobriety y’all!
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Checking in March 25 2021
Day 4 complete iam so freaking excited I’m coming up and working hard towards my first week sober yes yes yesss !!! 
It means so much to me to be sober and I thank each and everyone of you guys for helping me along the way congrats to the ones putting in all the effort and hardwork to stay clean it’s not easy wether it’s one day or 1+ years life will always throw everything your way and it’s US the sober ones making it out here happen Let’s Gooooo everyone !!!
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Day 416. Had today off because my mom couldn’t watch the girls. So I was able to get autumn on the bus, got her dressed all cute and her hair done all cute it was nice… When she gets home were all gonna go up and clean my bike and teach them how to do a oil change. I am still in a little of a funk, I think I’m gonna stop taking my straterra for my ADHD because it makes me so tired all day everyday, it does help but I can’t stand being tired all the time. I am feeling lonely a little bit, I wish I could meet a girl who is sober and connects with me and just go for bike rides, and hikes, and camping and just talk and be sober I feel it’s never gonna happen in this town, I really don’t want to date someone who drinks or gets high. Sometimes I wish, everyone on this app all lived together in a community 
idk I think that would be pretty badass, for a little bit atleast lol. Anyways much love everyone, hope you all have a killer day and keep killing your goals
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Woo hoo!! Excited for youuuuu!! It was meant to be! You go Rob!! 
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