Day 10 no alcohol!! Double digits!!! And it’s Friday!!! Yesterday was shit - tired, irritable, and real bad cravings - but today I feel amazing. If I make it to Sunday morning, it will be the longest I’ve gone without being drunk in 8 years. And for the first time in 8 years, I feel like I actually might be able to do this. To stay permanently sober. I’ve been living with this fantasy in my head of being a sober, productive, in shape, has-his-shit-together dude for a super long time, and now I feel like I can finally make it happen.
Feeling very positive and thankful for this community. Happy Friday, everyone!!
Just wanted to drop this on the forum somewhere, since it’s a question posed here frequently, especially for those new to sobriety. This is something that I have struggled with, too.
One of the top AskReddit threads right now. Lots of great suggestions.
237 days…
Today I graduated from a programme which was all about connection in recovery, this programme has been a challenge from the start as I didn’t lose the connection of my family from being an addict, hell my family and close friends didn’t even know I ended on the streets or when I tried to take my life because I couldn’t see my worth as a person as that was already stripped from me… These last 237 days have had some highs and some lows. I have discovered myself in this contining battle before I would use a substance to hide the hate I had for myself, I would push the self sabatage button daily just so I didn’t have to admit that I was a freak…
This is the longest I’ve ever gone in sobriety and I had to do it on my own, I had to be honest on what I hated about myself, I had to be honest with why I thought I needed that drug to function/cope…
Even as I spoke and gave my thanks to the programme and the support from facilitators, I had to acknowledge that this community, this little app has helped me more than I ever thought… I read and know my fears of how I feel there’s is someone on here who feels the same, when I felt like the world and life problems were gonna be too much to handle, its here that’s guided me enough to not give up on myself.
I know I’m not fixed, I know I’m not perfect… I do know I have Alot to give and I do know I love myself more than I ever had done previous to these 237 days.
Sobriety gave me something I never knew I needed but I did, beliefs in myself, that I am worth something x
I was so close to relapsing last night. I wanted to numb myself and drink away my problems once again, had alcohol with me and somehow I managed to not open it. Grateful today that I didn’t give in. I know I would’ve kept going and who knows what the outcome would’ve been. I thank God that he gave me the strength. Happy Friday everyone
Checking in sober at the end of day 82.
I built today up to be some huge challenge. It turned out to be nothing. It made me realise a few things, though.
I really do want to live a sober life. Sometimes you need to be right up against a decision to know how you actually feel about it.
I lean on this forum more than I realised. I value the people in here and I want to keep up my membership. I also feel accountable.
I really want my wife to drink again because the idea that I’m somehow depriving her of something that she enjoys (and that she is able to control) is the only thing that makes me think about choking a drink down.
Holidays from work should be looked forward to, not dreaded. I have just started a 16 day break. Amazing.
Life is so much better now.
Have a great sober day, wherever you are.
Goodnight.
Goodnight Tony… my sober twin. Just me rambling right now…your wife may feel really good making this choice to support you by not drinking and unless she has indicated something, it may be more confusing to her if you tell her to drink? And I know I should take my own advice after what I am about to write.
My husband still drinks every night and will at time make a point to let me know its his last one, etc. Or he drinks in the garage so I dont need to see him drinking. It bugs me alot. It bugs me kissing him when his breathe is full of booze, it bothers me when he makes it known he is stopping for me after having a few. Its something I need to work on because he is in a way attempting to support me. The calling it out all the time is starting to drive me up a wall though. I realize I probably think about what he is thinking about regarding his drinking way more then what is neccessary.
so proud of you!
