I’m so f**king proud of you Danni!!! You have come so far my friend you amaze me all of the time. Fantastic job!!! 
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I’m also on day 55 without nicotine. Six months ago, I woke up on my brother’s sofa with a crushing hangover. I had to dig through the trash to find my keys. I had to stumble back to where I was staying to let my dog out, and he was upset because he’d been locked up alone in a strange place all night. I puked until I couldn’t puke any more. I couldn’t remember the vast majority of the night before. I’d come to find out later that I’d been truly awful to a dear friend of mine. We haven’t spoken since.
I realized that morning that something had to change. I was tired of feeling awful. I was tired of trying to outrun my anxiety and depression by turning to the bottle. Most of all, I was tired of having to apologize for things I said and did that I couldn’t even remember.
Six months later: the anxiety is still around, but mostly manageable. As are the depression and the mania. I have had to make a lot of apologies for my past behavior in these six months, but I rarely behave in a way that requires an apology now. I’m getting to know and like myself for the first time in my life. I’m not perfect, but I’m not a monster, and that’s good enough.
Alright. Enough rambling. Onto the good stuff:
@Lauquin and @Stupidrummer, congrats on double digits, you fabulous sober twins!
@RosaCanDo, way to go on 200 days! When I start thinking I may not be able to continue on this path, I often find myself reading something you wrote and thinking “I better keep going! Look at Rosa, getting it done!”
@Petri congratulations on 8 months sober! That is amazing!
@Joy 601 days without a cigarette! I am in awe, and hope to one day be able to say the same!
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Congratulations on 200 Rosa!! You are doing amazing! Glad you are on this journey with us. 
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Amazing 
congratulations 
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@Complicatedmama it sounds like a special day in honour of your special baby girl, and those cupcakes look amazing 
@Suzrene congrats on your smoke-free week
@Lauquin congrats on double digits it’s a learning process for sure, but it’s so worth it! I had to lose the people I used with, this took me a few attempts at sobriety to learn, but eventually, sobriety became the top priority, and I soon realised those friendships were just as toxic for me as the substances. True and healthy friendships will still be there to enjoy and value your sober company 
@RosaCanDo congrats on 200 days
@Mbwoman congrats on 3 weeks
@Petri congrats on 8 months smoke-free
@Stupidrummer congrats on double digits
@Fireweed congrats on 900 days, 2 months, and 1 month
@anon27760155 congrats on graduating from your programme, so pleased to hear you’ve found some self-belief and self-worth, you deserve it
@TSan congrats on 6 months and also 55 days smoke-free
228 days no alcohol.
196 days no cocaine.
2 days no binge-eating.
Another productive day. I took breaks but overall spent 4.5 hours sorting through my 3 biggest storage boxes, I’m really proud of how much I’m letting go. It was easier than expected, each time I declutter I can let more go. I expect next time I do it I’ll let even more go, and that’s okay. Some more boxes to go through tomorrow, and then I’m going to condense what’s left into a smaller number of boxes to create an empty box or two for the rest of my clothes to go into.
I’ve been emailing back and forth between the council and estate agents and things seem to be moving in the right direction, just a waiting game now. I can’t believe my tenancy starts in 12 days! It’s gone from feeling like forever away, to feeling like it’s really soon. I’m excited again now that I’m making progress with the decluttering and packing and actually have the tenancy documents 
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Living in the moment as much as I can. Have a nice routine developed while still being flexible enough to bend but not break during times of change.
God bless you all.
& 
p.s. Just a reminder that you’re incredible, keep it up. Ya you!!
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I am so proud of you, lady! You are making this happen and I am honored that you feel that way about reading my thoughts. I feel that way about you and so many people here, isn’t it wonderful! I can relate so much to that deep down feeling and wanting to change, and look at us doing it. And learning how to live with and work with our conditions. I’m so glad you’re here.
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Way to go on the 4 months free from the shackles of nicotine. Keep on keeping on ODAAT.
Blessings and sobriety!
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What a great moment to check in to this thread. Amazing milestones from amazing people. Amazing stuff from amazing people. Thanks for sharing friends. It helps us all so much. Seeing people share their smober time (old forum word for being free from smoking) too is great. For me it all started with quitting smoking. taught me so much about all my addictions.
@Petri Big congrats Petri! 8 Months freedom from smoking is awesome.
@Joy belated congrats on 600 (601 by now)!
@Stupidrummer Double digits yay Chuck! Excellent work.
@Fireweed 800 Hanna! Wow! And all your other milestones. Fantastic work Lady. Big hugs.
@Bomdhil Keep fighting Thomas. If you can do two days, you can do three.
@Truckinmonster21 5 days already, you’re back on the road J!
@anon27760155 Love you Danni. Congrats on graduating. Love to witness your growth, your struggles, your amazing honesty, love to witness the full you.You’re a huge inspiration to me and I am sure to many many more. Hugs.
@Ericaj89 Congrats on another sober day Erica. Next time please come here and talk before getting alcohol.
@Singtone Talk to your wife about how you feel. Full disclosure. Together you’ll find a solution I am sure. With you staying sober of course.
@TSan So happy for you friend. Nobody’s perfect. Liking yourself is awesome. Hugs.
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Congratulations on 6 months sober! Almost like a whole new person. Keep on ODAAT
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Checking in, day 141 no alcohol, day 3 no cigarettes. It’s weird to start over putting down something and face the same things I faced at the beginning of sobriety. It is hard to handle the mildness of everyday life. I miss harsh taste, the dizziness, feeling something physical. It’s hard neither to reward nor to punish myself with it. It was always about „I deserve it” let it be good or bad.
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I feel you. It’s Friday. I don’t really know how to deal with those “you deserve it” sometime. It was à stressful week, and I have to make the weekend still productive… I know drinking wouldn’t solve any of it thought. So I guess it’s going to be bath with book or a good food with a movie. Sometime it’s just about making our mind comfortable by slowing down… not always easy, but by practicing it becomes easier. I hope, lol. Hope you’d find some peace.
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Congratulations Jenna that’s AWESOME!!!
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What a great accomplishment TSan!!
Way to go!
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