Little update from earlier post today about having a hard time fighting the voice telling me to drink wine in the Sun. I feel much better now, No drinking! 
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I made the mistake of reading their investigation. Apparently Iām The Spawn of Satan according to tweenie and her mother. They didnāt literally said it but theyāre blaming exactly everything on me. Itās my fault that my husband tweenies Pa hasnāt been āIn her lifeā which he has been all the time but the Ma have tried to stop him.
Itās ny fault that tweenie doesnāt have access to her computer here because sheās doing inappropriate things online.
Itās my fault that she doesnāt get the food she wants, in fact she might not even get food if you read it carefully and believe me she does. She eats more than I do. But we limit sweets and tries to limit her so she wonāt eat until she throws up.
Itās also my fault that she feels sad and lonely and doesnāt feel welcome here.
And I claim that she shoplifted but thereās no proof (except for the surveillance cameras in the stores)
Ah and did I mention that itās my fault that she doesnāt like me and have to move and tried to kill me too.
Itās also my fault that she canāt live with her Ma, and that her sister at her Maās place have said that if tweenie comes back to their house sheāll move and never come back (She had to move in the first place because she tried to kill her sister with a huge knife)
Besides that itās also my fault that tweenie doesnāt want to talk to her psychologist.
Last but not least itās most definitely my fault that my husband, tweenies Pa doesnāt do exactly as tweenie and her mother wish because yep you guessed it, Iām in charge her and Iāve probably hexes him.
Iāve filed my complain against their investigation, I had decided not to at first. But Iām to tired of taking anymore of their shit. Pick a fight with Spawn of Satan and sheāll evoke The Devil himself and raise Hell for fun. Well not really, but I might invite a few tiny demons to stay by my side,they can be useful if I need to hex again 
Over and out.
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went to the shooting range my favorite spot favorite hobby I shot the hell out of Bob today I needed that 
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Oh for fuck sake. Surely professionals would see red flags if everything was only one personās fault?? Surely they would see a scapegoat set up??
I admire you Sophia for doing the best you can and staying sober. You are gold girl!!! 
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Thank you. Well it wouldāve been great if it worked that way. But youāve followed along and you know that the Ma is good at manipulating people. Luckily she doesnāt have the last word in this investigation neither does the social workers. My complaints and the final decision goes straight to their bosses. Right now theyāve set the final goal that tweenie eventually is going to move back to her mother. Iāll be here leaning back in my chair watching when that wonāt work either.
If they donāt want to listen and prefer to blame me, I hopes karma get them all good eventually.
I hope everything is well with you dear 
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@apes2020 congrats on double digits 
@MrsOdh unbelievable 
I admire your strength through all of this!
252 days no alcohol.
220 days no cocaine.
Feel a little worried that there have only been 38 new check ins in the last 24hrs. I hope everyone is doing okay 
I made 24 phone calls and sent 5 emails this morning, all before midday. (To change my address). Iāve also travelled to my hometown because my doctorās surgery said I had to fill in a form for them to change my address so I went there and did that, luckily I already was going there today to collect my repeat medications, so that was convenient timing. So now Iām all up to date with everything regarding moving. It feels so good to have everything sorted out, and Iām really proud of myself. The sale proceeds also cleared and I have paid my debts 
Thursday will be great because I will have WiFi back in my life, the new WiFi hub should arrive before then so all I have to do is plug in and go 
Itās been so good to be busy and productive every day for the past month, I donāt know quite what I will do with myself from tomorrow onwards, Iād like to start getting back out for walks, so may try to find my way on foot to the nature reserve that is around this area somewhere, I also now live right by a lake so I will atleast take a walk around that. When Iām walking I listen to audiobooks, so it will be good to get into those too.
All is very peaceful and I am feeling so very grateful
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Garbage dayā¦just found out (notified by attorney) that my ex has filed for custodyā¦so I guess it is time for round 2! Honestly I feel I have a decent case, it is a lot of financial concern with not being able to afford a lawyer etc. Luckily I am clear headed and can work through it all. Send some good vibes my way folks!
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Looks like youāve had a very busy day. Iām glad youāre doing well 
My case, unbelievable yes,unfortunately that doesnāt make it less true. But hopefully everything will sort itself out eventually. Someone, sometime, somewhere should be able to see what I see now. At least I hope so.
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Awesome, I wish I could do that where I live too.
Itās been years since I practiced my shooting skills. (If you can call it skills when a hunting rifle is all you know how to use )
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Favorite hobby it just takes me to onother place and nothing like the smell at the end of the barrel but thatās me 
Hunting Rifle ? Awesome !! I bet you do just fine I still need practice myself
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Iām Swedish so it might be called something else in English. But yes the kind of rifle you use for hunting,you know like shotguns and things like that. (Fun Fact, shotgun is sometimes called a moose bouncer-Ƥlgstudsare in Swedish )
My Grandpa when he was alive and my Pa when he was younger used to hunt just about everything that was in season year around. And Iām a country girl, when I was a kid we got permission to skip school so we could come along hunting,especially in the fall for the moose hunt.
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Nicee ! You would have alot of fun here in the states thatās something I would love to get into next is Hunting Iāve never been hunting before that is an awesome name Moose Bouncer
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Weāve got friends and family in Memphis. And we absolutely love US. Last time we where over for a visit and got to the shooting range I out shot everybody in our group.
And the American food and and snacks, dear lord. Itās a huge difference compared to Sweden.
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Checking in on day 4:
Had a meal, took a shower and got a few things done. Setting one foot in front of the other. Still very low energy and confused, so going to bed early is what Iāll do. Hope everybody is having a good day, reading through the forum kept me somewhat grounded today, so thank you.
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One last check in before sleep. Or maybe a check out. The more I think about the social service investigation, the more upset I become. I thought Iād be just fine being their Villain but Iām most certainly not fine with it.
I donāt want to be the bad guy, I want to be the lovable hero that everyone adores. But I guess thatās not possible for anyone in this story, accepting for maybe tweenies Ma that raises herself above everyone else.
But in most stories the Villain is just misunderstood, and not really a bad guy, right?
Iām going to call my therapist tomorrow, I need to find out why this is bugging me so much, because I wonāt let it destroy me.
Goodnight everyone.
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Well done keep putting in that action and amazing things can happen 
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Sorry for the drama youāre dealing with. Iāll keep you in my thoughts and hope that everything works out fine.
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Thank you
Thatās actually what Iām hoping for, that karma will hit eventually and people will see what I see. But right now it feels like I want to help karma
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