Checking in on day 0. I have no words for explaining why and how. I’m at a very low point right now. Contacted a sponsor. I am in desperate need of one. I can’t do this anymore
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You can’t do it alone Sunshinegirl. Nobody can. I hope you’ll find a sponsor asap. Hang here in the meantime. You’re not alone. Success. Hugs.
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- Coffee. Last shift coming up for an 18 day holiday. I can do with one. Too bad there’s a whole lot of wielding a big array of power tools going on in and outside the apartments surrounding mine. Might have to be out a lot in the coming days. Well. I’m clean and sober. That’s still the main thing. I’m building my life on that foundation. One day at a time.
Have as good a day as you can all friends. Love from Amsterdam and Seattle four years ago when I got to see my nephew practise with his Husky teammates. Hope he can return after the summer for his senior year.
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Not really. Still no going abroad due to you know what. Might go to the south of the country for a couple of days. To do some cycling in the hills there. It will be good anyway because I need some time off work.
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We all have had day 0s. They suck, but u are here to fight another day. Getting someone else’s help sounds a good idea.
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I did the same thing. My sponsor told me I still was hanging onto my drinking days, romanticizing the memories rather than accepting the tragic mess that I was. He told me I needed to grieve and let go those days once and for all. So I put a picture of my kids on the bottle and kept it on my dresser for a few weeks. Seeing it reminded me of what truly is important to me. On the back of the bottle was my arrest photo from my DUI, a stark reminder of what I was putting ahead of them due to my addiction. I thought about this every day, even meditated on it. In time it sank in that I had to truly commit with all my being, all my soul, to sobriety. So I held a ceremony, dug a hole, threw in the bottle, tossed in a copy of my arrest report, and set it on fire. That me is now dead. Sober, free me has risen from those ashes. I am the phoenix rising!
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I love this! Thank you for sharing. I have an empty bottle also…sounds like a smart idea.
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988 days alcohol free.
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Well I’ll be!!! You are amazing. Kicking ass and taking names. Glad to call you friend. I’m so happy for you 
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yes I did all that 
He says with big smug grin but forever cautious and grateful
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Day 313 clean and sober today. Talked with the psychiatrist yesterday and she doesn’t want to raise or change my meds yet. She said the depression is absolutely a normal reaction because of everything that’s happened and I’m just going through a lot right now. I told her about the people I have around me and about all of you here on this forum and she was so happy that I have support. Thank you everyone for walking with me through this, I love you guys a lot. Have a great day today 
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Congratulations Paul, right on!!
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Day 262 full of energy getting stuff done around the house and its time for work fam, have a great day everyone 
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have a nice day everyone 
Day 108: Checking in.
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Checking in on Day 10. Just got called from work, Back to work again tomorrow after being closed for almost 4 weeks. Its gonns be haaaard!!
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Day 226: Happy Hump Day! My brain is scattered and I’m having trouble focusing on tasks. Lack of sleep does that, doesn’t it. I have a whole list of piddly things to do around the house and errands to run but I keep dropping one thing in the middle and moving to the next and not getting anywhere. Hm. At the same time I’m feeling calm, just not accomplishing much. Weird vibes, energy today. I’ve been a bit glued to the news, now that I think about it that could very well be distracting me a lot. So much going on in the world and our country, so many questions. Uncertainty. I guess I just figured it out. Thanks, guys. I’m checking in sober and will stay sober today. Stay strong, amigos, and keep reaching out when you need a hand. 
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Hey all, checking in on day 311. Not much going on just another sober day 
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