Day 2. I’m so grateful that I got through yesterday without drinking. I think I nearly caved in about 30 times! That zoom call last night really helped, thanks guys. (Also giving my bank cards to my partner who says he will keep them till I get past 14 days this time). It’s so childish and doesn’t exactly fill me with pride but I actually feel safe that I physically cannot buy any alcohol. So no mental wrangling. Quite a relief actually.
@apes2020 never mind, let’s just get back on track. Maybe this time.
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Loving it Paul
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Checking in on day 6. Beautiful sunny day outside. Life is just good at the moment. Wishing everyone a sunny day
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Sometimes you gotta do “silly” things for sobriety, like what you did with your bank card. It’s not childish but responsible. I lived 4 years without an internet connection in my house at one point, to restrict my access to my doc. So good on you!! It was good meeting you, please stick around.
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day 2.
Woke up at 5pm. Pushed myself to get up and shower and get out the door for a sunset walk for half an hour. I feel like hell today. Going to make some green veggies for dinner and try fall asleep early because I have to be up by 10am because the AOD worker is coming here to meet with me.
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go us lol. We’ll be fine. We can do it Ok, I thought I was going to be more regular and consistent in checking in here… but life has other plans. Oh, well. Life on life’s terms. The main thing is that I remain sober, working my recovery, and on a positive path. Today I take another step on that journey. Day 476, which makes 68 weeks alcohol free. Have a strong, sober day!!!
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I didn’t even have to try for this one! What serendipity. Great day yesterday! Nothing special, actually it really was special because it was a productive Monday and my husband Eric and I laughed and joked a lot, got our work done, and continued the talks about addiction and what we want our life together to look like. He keeps wanting to talk about how good he feels having not had much alcohol over the weekend, and none during the week last week. I’m just happy he’s happy. It was gloriously spring/summer like yesterday at 80 F/ 26 C and we spent the evening sitting out on the deck, playing with our dog and just talking. Perfect. This is one of my favorite times of year, before the bugs really come out full force, although I did get my first mosquito bite of the year yesterday. But still very few flies and those biting gnats/black flies we sometimes get are a long ways away yet (f*cking hate them!). Today looks to be much the same and I’m just going to enjoy this as much as I can as I go about my day. Much love, amigos. 
P.S. @C_8 Just when you leave for a spell…dang. Maybe you’ll see this when you get back. 
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Day 304, that is 10 months official here! Woohoo. Working through some of the mess little by little regarding the things that have popped up. Definitely a stressful time, but still very thankful for facing the challenges sober. That’s not a bad thing to be able to take to court with me either 
I hope everyone is having a good one!
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CONGRATS!! 10 months is such a great accomplishment! Keep it up 
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Day 319 clean and sober today. Two months ago today Corey passed away, I miss him so much. I’m going to keep on trying to honor him with my life but it’s hard sometimes to be strong. I talked to the director and he said he has turned in my resume to the big boss and now I just have to wait and see if they wave clean time so I can start working right now. He told me that if they don’t wave my clean time I definitely have the job when I hit one year sober. That makes me excited that I at least have the job. I’m sure Corey would be amazed and proud of me for becoming someone who will work to help others. Hope you all have a great day today, love you guys! 
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Checking in on day 317, nothing interesting going on here but sometimes I like that.
I hope everyone has a sober and peaceful day!
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Wooooooo!!! 10 months is bomb.
Great work.
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Checking in on my 10th day! Not sure the last time I had 10 days and feel good. I am going through some of the weird sluggishness and taking things hour by hour trying to remember to be grateful for everything I possibly can when negative thoughts arise. Hooe everyone here is off to a great start today.
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Congrats and well done on reaching double digits!!!
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Lots of great stuff in this check in, congrats on dbl digits.
It is exactly what you need to be doing. You are right where you are supposed to be. Just keep going to bed without substances in your body and you are winning.
Sometimes it is hard to remember this when we don’t feel 100% so kudos to you for keeping your gratitude at the forefront of you mind, well done.
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Thank you so much!!
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I’m here, I’m alive and I’m sober.
Day 240
And I’m freaking tired of being an adult by now.
Tweenies Ma keeps blaming everything on me, now she wants tweenie to take some days off next week so she can go to her sisters communion. They live in the other end of the country, so it takes a while to get there. Unfortunately there’s a rule here, you get as a maximum ten days off school/term sickdays is counted just as late arrival. Unfortunately tweenie has a lot if skipped classes and late arrivals.
So the principal didn’t approve that she’ll take some days off.
That’s also on a week that they already have days off because we’re having a long weekend.
Guess who’s fault that is? Yep, you’ve got it, mine. Tweenie feels so bad here so she had to skip classes and didn’t have to bother to get in time for class.
Shit got worse when we had - 4 degrees and frozen ground this morning and I didn’t allowed tweenie to go to school in a miniskirt without leggings or stockings under and a crop top.
Guess I’m back on the naughty list.
Meanwhile my 18 y/o as I wrote about yesterday have refused to take her meds in a while and now she’s feeling really bad. I recommend her to call her psychologist, now her boyfriend and his parents are agreeing with her that it’s my fault that she feels bad. And that I’m not a good person for her to talk to. Well no Shit Sherlock, I’m not a psychologist and no matter what I say to her she doesn’t give a darn because she’s 18 and knows it all.
The kid that was here this weekend acted up again in school today. Guess who’s to blame? Yep, me, I didn’t talk to him enough this weekend.
Another friend has an issue with his alcoholic Baby Mama, I told him that maybe she needs another rehab and boom I’m the bad guy here to.
Least but not last, one of our old neighbors is back in the village, now she lives like a 10 minutes bike ride from our house. She’s talked about her new job as an exotic dancer (In lack of a better word) pretty good pay, and she asked me if I would like to try. I declined as polite as I could and now she’s mad because she felt like I shamed her career chose.
I want to add that this lady looks like Malibu Barbies gorgeous dark haired friend. I’m not even close to that.
What the heck is wrong with the universe today, and what did I do wrong to get all the blame for everything that’s wrong in the world?
On the positive side, I’ve almost saved up half of the money needed for our yes day, by helping the old lady again today. And she’s taking us into the city Thursday. Also me and my husband is trying to pick rings for a wedding wov renewal at our 10 year anniversary this summer. Unfortunately I’m married to Mr Goth/Steampunk/Voodoo that probably would prefer to have The Scull ring from Phantom in the jungle as a wedding ring. 
End of complaining, hopefully tomorrow will be better. I’m definitely on the end, if something more happens I think I’m about to break for real.
Wishing y’all an amazing Tuesday.
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382 today. Feeling good about life. I ask for help each day with acceptance . It’s my kryptonite…lol
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