Oh Sophia I’m so sorry to read about your Pa. I’d be cussing a lot too. With all the shit going on in your world you seem like a super, not human, woman. I mean you still stay sober through all this. You are such an inspiration to all of us here dealing with life things. You constantly amaze me. I reckon drinking wouldn’t change any of this. Probably make it worse to handle. Congratulations on you 241 days.
I know we have our differences with the Big Guy upstairs. But you and your family will be in my prayers.
Keep on being the rock your family needs.
But also find time for yourself.
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Thank you HoneyBee 
We do have our differences with the Big Guy, maybe that’s why he’s against me nowdays 
Strange enough I just read a funny quote saying “They say God, never gives us more than we can handle apparently God must think I’m a badass”
I think I should make an embroidery of that and frame it 
Thank you for cheering me up. I’m sure things will start to go better soon.
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@Cherrijam congrats on your week 
that’s a stunning beach photo 
@JennyB4u welcome and congrats on 17 days
@anon35096624 congrats on your week
@THE52Real-MVP welcome back 
@Foreverfree36 congrats on double digits
@MrsOdh prayers for your father and extra payers for some cooperation from the universe for you some time very soon
@Wakikki that’s the disease of addiction, well done for coming back here and being honest, keep trying
@Girlinterrupted congrats on 11 months
@SoberSenze sending strength
@Squirt sending strength to you too, really hate those days 
261 days no alcohol.
229 days no cocaine.
Today has felt good. Walked again. Also went for a short but nice drive to drop off a parcel which I’m returning to Amazon, the local drop off shop didn’t have any labels. I got an extra cheap deal on my diet products today, they will arrive tomorrow.
My nightmares are so bad lately, but thankfully I am forgetting them almost as soon as I wake and they aren’t impacting my days like they always used to.
It’s so refreshing to feel this content 
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Thank you. I’m glad you’re having good day
Amazon is awesome, It launched in Sweden last year, and suddenly I was able to buy a lot of Elf on a shelf stuff we normally can’t get here. My boys where amazed. 
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your doing great
Nice one back to a whole week, onwards and upwards 
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do the opposite of what you just posted, if you can’t talk yourself out of it then talk to other people. We are here and want you to be sober. You are never alone in this.
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None of us did, that’s why we got willing to listen and learn. You won’t succeed if you keep repeating old patterns, they obviously do not work. Change things up, what are other people doing that you arent? Why are they having success? I can assure you it isn’t because they are any less an addict or alcoholic than you are. You need to get humble, willing, and open-minded to a whole new world in order to " string days together". None of us got over a year of recovery by repeating old habits.
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Thank you so very much
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Yes friend action is needed. Seems to me you’ve not been in a good place lately. Let’s make this ‘attempt’ the last one. The real one. The one that’s not an ‘attempt’ or a ‘try’. The one that’s gonna stick.
Why did you go back to drinking and the rest? Might be helpful to think about it. I’m glad you’re here. Work your sobriety and let us help. Together. Success.
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Welcome back Z
Today’s a great day to restart your sober journey.
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We got ya buddy, it’s just great to see you still want it, it’s not the dog in the fight it’s the fight in the dog.
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Try screaming that in their faces… literally scream it in their faces. Maybe they need to understand the severity of the issue, as you say you come across as “together”, let yourself unravel some.
I was just going over a psyche evaluation from years ago. I remember the day vividly, I arrived an hour late to my appointment because my anxiety was so bad I had to keep pulling over. I got lost in a town I grew up in because my thoughts were so confused. I was bleeding profusely from the hip under my pants by the time I got to my appointment from self harming and the Dr said. " Although she was an hour late for her appointment the patient presented well…" I wanted to fucking die and I was too scared to tell anyone…
Dont be scared to tell them where your head is April.
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Day 8 and I want a drink so badly today. The house is so clean now it’s ridiculous… now what? I have a new friend popping in who doesn’t know about my addiction and I’m praying she will bring a bottle of bubbles. God this struggle is so fucking constant. Played the piano, listened to music. Praying to get through this.
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I know it’s hard, probably the toughest thing you’ll do but you can do it. You’re just like the rest of us who pushed through and got to the other side of it.
Please fight it, you’ll be so glad you did.
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Welcome back.
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Oh Sophia, praying for your dad’s and your situation. Sending you strength and patience. Stay strong, safe and sober.
Blessings and sobriety!
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