Hang in there @Wakikki… That was me yesterday. So today I gave AA a shot and planning to stick with it. We can do it!
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@SoberSenze thank you I Will hang in! And I followed the advice @Mephistopheles gave me and checked out AA, and online meeting. This time I have to make it!
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Day 234: It has been quite a week so far. I have more energy than I have had in a long time, I am sleeping well, I am following through with my commitments, most importantly to the commitments I have made to myself. I went to bed so early that I woke up at around 2 am wide awake…I did snooze for a bit around 3:30, but by 4:30 just decided to get up and start the day. Might need a nap later. I’m going to have to pay attention to this because my dad has this issue…fall asleep too early and wake up way too early, plus both of my parents rarely sleep more than 6 hours a night. SO WILD…considering when I was drinking or even while I was depressed I was sleeping (or at least in bed) for way way longer. It feels good to be awake and alive.
Yesterday was a great day - I felt so much more like “myself,” whatever that means anymore, and it just felt good to be comfortable in my skin. I was physically active, and the fact that I am getting in better shape, able to climb these Dubuque hills without losing my breath, fitting into my clothes better, I am sure that’s a big part of why I am feeling good. Today is a kitchen day and I am very excited! Since I’ll be going away soon, I’m prepping dog food for la princesa, la consentida (google translate, folks!) so that Eric doesn’t have to cook for her since she won’t eat her regular dog food on it’s own anymore. Brat. And I’m making potato salad for our BBQ on Friday, and breakfast for dinner tonight (eggs, potatoes and Mexican chorizo). Should be another beautiful day out, which means more time on the back porch! Hope you all hang in there today - it is really good to see people reaching out here when they need support and others pitching in to help. Happy Thursday, amigos 
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Checking in towards the end of day 116. 
I can’t believe that my little 16 has a 1 in front of it. I can’t believe I even have a 16. The idea of that was utterly ridiculous on day 1.
I now love looking through an app that I use at all of the green days. Almost four complete months. Almost a third of a year. Reminding myself that every single one of them is a little battle won. The comforting thing is the realisation that the more recent battles were not as hard fought as the early ones. That just makes me want to do it more and more.
I’m rambling now.
Have a great sober day, wherever you are.
Goodnight. 
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Checking in, day 175 no alcohol, day 37 no smoke. Still no day without pain killers, but it’s getting better. I have a lot of work and tasks to do and it’s good for my mood. I don’t really know what I should do with my free time. I don’t think about tomorrows, but that’s ok, better than giving up.
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Day 16
Not much to say but I’m moving forward day by day again. Trying to slowly change my diet to a healthier one and squeeze some exercise in today.
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I get it @SoberSenze and I do the same the same thing too. Some days the best I can do is just get to bed knowing tomorrow will be a better day. This will pass, stay strong 
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Day 321 clean and sober today. Feeling the same way as some others have been feeling. Went to bed super early last night and woke up feeling nauseous. Lots of thoughts in my head, need to get back to meditating daily. I hope everyone has a wonderful day today, love you guys
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Checking in on day 319, have a good one everybody!
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My urges and anxiety are through the roof. I’m only on Day 4… I need to remind myself that I did manage to get to 11 months clean last year… 11 months… I did it once , I can do it again… I won’t use , this I know is true, but the feeling’s im feeling right now are so uncomfortable… I’m distracting myself as best I can…I’m in cozy chill mode netflixing on the couch… My tummy is full… I’ve had extra long hot shower. Face mask. Hair mask. Self tanned…I’m doing all the things… But my monkey mind won’t shut up… I’ll stay on here and read for a while longer… I meditated today twice… But this monkey mind wont stop jumping from thought to thought 
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https://www.crystalmeth.org/cma-meetings/cma-meetings-directory/3736-online.html
Maybe you can hop on a meeting via zoom. Sometimes I just listen with my camera off and muted. Helps me. 
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That is huge, congrats! I feel confidant in saying you will get a lot from the energy inside the rooms of whichever meeting you attend. I love them all.
Shit April. I’m sorry. Everything I was going to suggest you’ve already done. And it’s so late over there. I hope by now you’re asleep and in the morning you will feel better with another day under your belt. Keep checking in girl your worth it. 
I’m adding you to my prayer list today for peace and freedom from this fucking devil of addiction.
Hopefully you can get out tomorrow and get some extra exercise in or something. A couple of good angry power walks.
Keep checking in we are here for you.
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Definetly will log on and check that out. I’m yet to participate in any zoom meetings at all ever , so im keen. 
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Thank you Eric 
my body sleep clock is outta whack so I’m still up netflixing. If I dont crash by 4am, my gym opens at 5am so I think I’ll head there and smash out some cardio 
my urges have gone so that’s good news. I’m feeling a lot calmer than before so thats good 
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Ya I know it takes awhile to get that body sleep clock back to normal. Have a good cardio. Or 2 if you got to.
Glad the urges subsided. Let’s get you just one more day buddy
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@zzz Coming back here is a great step. You seemed to be doing great, what changed? What seemed unbearable and brought upon the thought of drinking?
@Beforemy30s Congratulations on 2 weeks.
@apes2020 The best question my therapist asked me is what I wanted from therapy. Be honest with yourself, write it out and present it as if you’re advocating for your best friend. Sending you strength and love.
317 days. Spent a fair amount of time reading on here yesterday. I realized how much this community really means to me as my heart hurt hearing of others’ relapses. A few months back I sat in a liquor store parking lot debating whether I was going in to purchase beer. My conversation with a member here gave me the strength to drive out of the parking lot and not look back. Sharing my “battles” here and receiving such amazing support has definitely been a factor in my continued sobriety. I thank each and everyone of you from the bottom of my heart and pray that my presence can help others. Day 1 or 1001 we are all on this journey together.
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Play hide and seek with 600,000 when the Russians come?
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