Day 960
Had 2 friends for dinner. It was nice but also was triggering me a bit. For that kind of occasions I have alcohol free beer in my fridge, so I took one.
My sober life was a subject of our conversation too. I do not hide my reasons why I do not drink. But it was so nice that one of my friends gave me a compliment about it. People around me mostly do not understand how difficult it is to quit and how you has to keep working to mantain your sober life. So it’s nice if someone says something positive about it
@SoberSenze well done on a week! I always struggle so much to get a week, then it eases up a bit. It’s like Monday morning, once you get to lunchtime the whole thing is much better!
Hope you’re OK Chad. You’re not craving alone. You should be on your flight now. Sober and clean. Success and strength in dealing with this friend. We’re here.
Coffee. It’s our National Day of Freedom. I slept well. No building noises, because it’s a national holiday. No big parties and festivals today. You know why. It’s still wet and cold anyway. I’ll have my own little celebration, being free from addiction in freedom. Freedom to be who I want, the freedom to work on myself, the freedom to not long for some stupid substance to make me forget or ‘better’ my day. It’s the best feeling I’m telling you. Have as good a day as you all can friends. Sober and clean. The pics are from 3 years ago today, when it was warm and there actually was a Freedom festival in town. Hard to imagine it at the moment. Love from Amsterdam.
I wish I were in the spirit of it more. I went got my hair done and got a nice manicure and pedicure a couple of days ago. Feels nice to doll myself up. I turn 34 today. It’s important to me that I face some heavy decisions this year to be able to move on to the next chapter of my life. I’m doing alot of great things but I’m also living a huge lie in a major way. I broke down in a puddle of tears when midnight hit. Like, crying for hours, crying right now. I wish I could stay home and cry all day but I’m so busy today. I’ll make it through. Have a good day everyone.
@Desire2ChangeToday happy birthday!! I’m sorry to hear it has been emotional so far, but at least you have a clear head on your shoulders to make those tough decisions. I hope you find some time to celebrate today
Seems like you are having a hard time Shay, sorry to hear. Hope you feel better a bit by now, opening up and letting things out can help.
Happy birthday is still my wish for you
Pa has gotten more ill overnight, they’re about to put him in respiratory care. He quickly got worse overnight and got moved to the lung intensive care unit (There’s probably a real English word for that part of the hospital, but unfortunately I have no idea what it is, medical terms in English isn’t really my area)
I got permission to do a single project on my project management course instead of a group project, so that’s good.
And the old lady took us into the city again today because she needed her car fixed. I bough some makeup on sale, and a pair of black canvas shoes I really needed for this season.
One day at a time, control what you can actually control. At least in my state, life for those of us actually working is getting pretty crappy. People are not joinging the workforce, and every single buisness is hurting for people. Factories, stores, truck drivers,…every business is at their breaking point. I am watching my peers melting down over life right now.
Simple fact, I can not control why people are not joing the work force. I can not control suppliers running out of product, not being able to deliver product. All I can do is control what is in front of me. Do my best, and then go home.
I see drunk alcoholic Thirdmonkey in my peers. Life is craptastic right now…but back then I let it effect how I was…and I was miserable.
Today, I will do what I can, control what I can…then go home and relax. It’s a lesson I have learned from AA…and my peers just can’t figure it out.
Congrats on your 34th Shay. You made such a tremendous amount of progress during the last 648 sober days. I’m proud and feel privileged to have shared some of your road with you. And I am sure you will do this next big step too, and will be an even better person for it. Life ain’t easy but it’s worth it. You’re living it. Big hugs friend.
