Day 328 clean and sober today. Was up super late last night, it was a sad and lonely day for me yesterday. My roommate went to a friends house for a couple days so I had the house to myself. I love it when he is gone because it’s so quiet and peaceful. Did some meditation last night with candles, so relaxing! I hope you all have a wonderful day today, love you guys!!! 
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Checking in at the end of day 123.
Did 90% of a painful job in work that I’ve been putting off for weeks, today. 
Other than that, not much to report.
Trying to make a bit more of an effort with a good friend of mine who I previously drank a lot with. He lives in my condo, so I went to see him after work today to play a board game. He complained that he drinks about 60% less now than he used to. I pretended to be sorry, but I was secretly delighted. 
Have a great sober day, wherever you are.
Goodnight. 
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@anon74766472 FANFRICKENTABULOUS. 2.5 years is amazing and you’re inspiring.(@CATMANCAM I too read the Minute as a Month at first too).
@Wunderbar Awesome job coming here instead and congratulations on 1100 days. Sending love and strength.
@anon35096624 Congratulations on 2 weeks.
@Bigbear Congratulations on double digits.
@SoberSenze Congratulations on 1 week.
@Desire2ChangeToday Happy birthday and HUGS
@MrsOdh Your Pa is in my prayers.
@Jennajen Your entire post made me smile. You are kicking ass & I love witnessing it.
@Tomek Sending love and strength. Hope this passes soon.
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@Soundlab Congratulations on double digits.
@Conor689908 & @mleclaire Happy birthday.
@Beforemy30s Congratulations on 3 weeks
324 days. Missed checking in yesterday morning and realized that starting my day with coffee & TS is a routine I don’t want to let go of. Will get up earlier so I can maintain this as you people here are an important part of my recovery. Need to do some unpacking in my personal thread as I’m still struggling with anger and irritability. Started my new job yesterday and one hour in the power went out and back home I went. Power was off for a lil over an hour and then I was back at the office. For a first day it was pretty casual. Now I’m off today and back to work tomorrow.
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Back home from work, Just finished dinner. Feeling alive!! (or dead, was hard Back at work 
) it was really good be Back at work, I feel good. Tired but good 
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Checking in!
I cried yesterday… happy tears. I just had this overwhelming moment where I felt so strong and was kicking so much butt… I felt all my hard work was suddenly paying off. I could see my progression. I was so thankful for never giving up on myself. This quote is so true… “Real progression comes in small portions day by day.”
Sometimes we can’t see how much progress we are making. Don’t give up; keep trekking on! I hope you all reach this point where you pause for a moment and realize “Holy shit, I am doing this!!!” “I am strong, I am amazing, I can do hard things.” Be kind to yourself. Your mind can be your best friend or your worst enemy. Keep going guys!! Love you all. Have a great day.
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Atta girl Sarah. Love this. It’s so true. I’ve been here a lot lately.
Just one day at a time. It really really works.
So happy for you lady.
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Checking in day 490.
I already posted this on the gratitude thread. But I feel it’s so important.
Everyone is my teacher. Some I seek. Some I subconsciously attract. Often I learn simply by observing others. Some may be completely unaware that I’m learning from them, yet I bow deeply in gratitude.
Some lady named Gloria
On Twitter
Keep sharing folks. And have a wonderful sober day.
Just for today. We can do that. And we are worth it.
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Checking in substance free for…
Today is a blessed day, I have it easier than many.
A very close friend of mine is facing her third round of the worst chemo to be had. Yesterday they had to stop treatment as she had a terrible reaction to it and her throat started closing. She was over night in the hospital and today they are trying again… Benadryl first and a slower longer drip of the chemo. Please keep her in your thoughts. 
I have my intake appointment with the pain clinic today, I am hoping to get some support, maybe a little group therapy. They have some other specialists available so fingers crossed I can get some more pain focused aid.
Recovery from substances seems to be stable. Self injury hasn’t been on my mind at all. Money spending is at a lull. Gaming has settled. I feels like these new meds that I have been put on curb urges… that wasn’t why I was put on them but I am not complaining.
Congrats everyone on your recovery journeys, happy we are all here together.
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Yes, you are strong and you are amazing 
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@Soundlab congrats on double digits 
@Tomek sending strength 
@Beforemy30s congrats on 3 weeks
@Jennajen amazing post 
@Its_me_Stella prayers for your friend
269 days no alcohol.
237 days no cocaine.
The depression and anxiety continue.
I had my first eating disorder therapy session today. I even cried! What bought on the moment of tears was the discussion of working towards ‘normal’ eating behaviours, I was shocked by the flood of emotion, and when she asked what was happening, I found myself saying ‘that’s what I want, to be normal’, and I think I didn’t know that until that moment 
. I have felt very emotional since the appointment, but in what feels like a healthy way, like it feels that I might now finally stand a chance of getting better. We worked out that I have been in this cycle of restricting and bingeing for 4 years and 1 week, and I am pretty much the same weight as when I started 
The big rule during therapy is I’m not allowed to purposely be trying to lose weight, but for the first week I’m not allowed to change anything other than keeping a food diary and recording how many laxatives I’ve taken and how I felt before each binge. She also recommended a different book that is CBT based and has a step by step program in the 2nd part, and we will be reflecting on what I’ve worked on in our following sessions. I feel so hopeful 
I even disclosed how my all or nothing behaviours have been at play in other areas of my life and said I was in recovery from alcohol and cocaine addiction. I just feel really good about this, sorry for the ramble 
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Checking in. We were informed that the kindergarten will re-open on Monday, so there will be some quiet and peace from next week, really looking forward to it.
I received a new task, so I got only one day off. From now on I will be busy for two months. I would definitely need some rest, but the idea of having full days of freetime scares me. I think it would make me even more depressed and I would just waste my time. So I took the job which seems pretty interesting and hopefully it will make some sense to my days.
I have contacted a psychologist who was recommended to me, but unfortunately she doesn’t have time for new patients. But I may will get some contact to others and I also will search online. I haven’t had a session since I ditched my last shrink a few months ago and I really need therapy.
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There she is.
It’s crazy right… when we realize this. In fact we have been doing hard things our whole lives. Surviving addiction is almost impossible, then we are faced with what seems like the impossible task of overcoming it and THRIVING while we do that… we doubt ourselves. We don’t see how much strength it’s taken to survive it.
A special place for you in my heart… so happy you got back on your feet 9 + months ago.
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Day 11. I just got uninvited from a family event because I asked to know the plans and said I wouldn’t come to the drinking bit. Basically I therefore am not invited to the whole thing now. I know that this isnt right, but I can’t help but feel very left out and upset 
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I always live your shares and it is good to read. I imagine it was relieving to open up. At least it is always for me, than a short period of shame but in the end I always feel better and encouraged that the way in which I am on is the right on atm.
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Wo, how long did this take? I have to admit that patience is really no my thing. And I am glad I am learning. 
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