Checking in super grateful to be sober. I’m also glad that I’ll have a little bit more time to spend on here now that my classes are done.
A friend of mine called me last night because I sent her a meme I made of a mutual friend. I honestly don’t even think she remembers calling Glad those days are over for me. I realized, I was fighting being an adult. Grown ass adults don’t get shitfaced all the time. It’s incredibly stunted. I was not raised seeing adults get drunk. I don’t know that I’ve ever seen my parents so much as touch a drink until we’ll into my adulthood.
On a sad note, my niece who I’m sure I’ve mentioned here before, because her asshole mom is my asshole sister, lost her boyfriend to an accidental fentanyl overdose Friday night. I’m so sick of this fentanyl shit. It killed one of my best friend’s from when I was living in Florida, it killed a friend’s son (thankfully the dealer was charged with murder), it took @Rockstar24777’s son, and so many more. It’s a real and very serious problem that I don’t feel is getting enough attention. These dealers need to be charged with first degree murder. It’s so dangerous and needs to be off the street. These dealers are basically killing off their client base which proves they have absolutely no idea what they are doing. My niece is in an incredibly fragile place and I’m extremely worried about her.
She finally has a therapist that she loves, the best one in the world, she’s seeing mine. She’s very much like me, so I knew he would be the right one for her. Anyway, this is long, but my heart aches for her and all of those losing loved ones to this monstrosity. I don’t even know where to begin to help in the fight against it.
Me too, Beth. It’s out of control. I feel so bad for your niece. We’ve lost 5 close friends in the past year to this shit. Not enough is being done about it around here either. Dealers have no repercussions and it blows my mind. Fentanyl can fuck right off!
Day 280 had a really nice time last night its amazing that even after years and years of going out on Saturdays and Fridays the feeling of being with friends who are responsible is very rewarding and to wake up without a hangover even better. I am very thankful for that everyday if nothing else have a great day everyone
Today can be an equally happy and hard day for people in this world. (Men included) I hope that if you can not find joy in Mother’s Day you can at least find peace. Big hugs from Canada.
Checking in at the end of day 126.
It has been a nice, calm, easy drink free weekend. It used to be so hard to get through a weekend, but now I don’t even think about it.
Life is so much better now.
Have a great sober day, wherever you are.
Goodnight
I am very sorry to hear that another one of our lives has been lost. I was at an in person meeting on Friday night, there were SIX newcomers!!! That was the highest number of newcomers I have seen in one meeting since I have cleaned up. Tears were pouring down my face because as you know fent is a huge problem here too and taking lives right left and center. If an addict makes it into a room even for just a night they have a greater chance of survival (just for today). That was what I saw on Friday night a room full of addicts just trying to fucking survive.
There are flyers and posters all over this province offering free classes on how to deal with fent ODs. Thats what it has come to, thats how we can help… if we don’t educate ourselves we are just a bunch of people crying for help but doing nothing.
And you’re right they should be charged I think alot of time its a case of cross contamination and someone using who has no tolerance to fentanyl.
Congrats on your days my sweet friend and a big Happy Mothers Day to you.
Checking in on day 6 and I can’t believe it’s almost been a week no alcohol. The first few days I literally felt as if I was not in my own body. Im so happy to be doing this. The cravings are still there but not as strong. I thank you all for your encouraging words and support. It seriously has helped me out tremendously! Hope you all have a great productive day. And Happy Mothers Day to all the beautiful mom’s out there!
Sometimes I see my parents in my dreams. Not often. This dream surely had something to do with Mother’s day. Funny thing is that my mum in my childhood never wanted to know about Mother’s Day as in her opinion it was nothing but an marketing trick to sell stuff. Only when I was an adult she expected something done for her. Which for years I refused. A-hole me.
And yes, fuck fentanyl. It’s not big here yet. Let’s pray it stays that way. Very sorry for your loss Beth.
Haven’t checked in for a long while because I’ve been a constant relapser and wanted to wait for a milestone. I read this thread everyday. Made it to Day 60. Pretty big deal for this lady. Thank you for all of your support, and have a great sober day!
@apes2020 Congratulations on 2 weeks. @AyBee Quit that YOU LIL SHIT!! You stopped my heart and the filled it with joy in one finger’s scroll. Congratulations on 2 years; that is fanfrickentabulous. @Wunderbar Sending love and strength. @Hopeful777 I LOVE hearing your strength. Your words warmed my heart. @Mno Thanks for sharing. I felt your words on life. @Soundlab Congratulations on 2 weeks. Perhaps plan out your Fridays and Saturdays so you foresee yourself getting through. I didn’t work for the majority of my journey so far therefore every day has been like a weekend. Take ODAAT and if need be, like me, take one hour or minute at a time. @Bigbear Hope HALT has worked. Dig deeper into those feelings and I believe you’ll find they’re not true and are the addict voice. Keep fighting the good fight and tell those drinking thoughts to fuck off. @Girlinterrupted I lost my cousin to “this monstrosity” in February. My condolences. Prayers are with your niece. Sending love and strength.
327 days. Having an odd day and need to sit in the feelings to get through them. Happy mother’s Day to all you beautiful mothers and to the Dad’s who assume both roles. Living in Canada it’s the time of year one can experience 4 seasons of weather in a day.
Couldn’t agree more with everything you said. It’s a freaking NIGHTMARE. Breaks my heart. Thank goodness your niece is safe. God only knows how many more lives could have been lost had we not all chosen sobriety.
Day 26 Happy Mother’s Day to all that celebrate. Today is usually laundry day for me I may start it after my nap or wait and do it tomorrow lol. Feeling lazy today but that’s ok as long as I dont drink.
Checking in… day 288.50
Last night my daughters dad was so anxious and angry almost hyperventilating and was wanting weed so bad.
I Yoga Nidra’d his ass… meaning I walked him through a guided meditation. First one I have ever done on someone. It was amazing! I walked him through every part of his body starting with his fingers all the way to every organ and lobe of his brain. I had him take deep breaths of healing energy and breathe out every pain and negativy in his body, I walked him through a sequence of beautiful images of nature… waves crashing on a beach, storm clouds, a vast desert, a lake with cranes flying over it, a sunset in hawaii, a double rainbow after the rain. Then I had him walk through a forest where he finds a path lined with cherry blossoms… until he reaches a lake with koi fish… he sits and meditates by the lake. Someone is sitting next to him, it is God. God breathes in and takes away all the pain from his body. He is free.
After his meditation was finished the first thing he said was “Adri is so lucky to have you for a mother” Then he said he felt 200% better. Lol. So yeah, Yoga Nidra. I was winging it, but it worked. His cravings were gone. He was cool as a cucumber. So awesome to watch that change happen from within.
@Fnkychic hope you’re okay after the reaction @Julied congrats on 3 months @Wakikki congrats on double digits @Mno congrats on 700 days @MrsOdh continued prayers @siand awesome number! @iva congrats on double digits @apes2020 congrats on 2 weeks @AyBee congrats on 2 years @Soundlab congrats on 2 weeks
Glad those days are over for me. I realized, I was fighting being an adult. Grown ass adults don’t get shitfaced all the time. It’s incredibly stunted. I was not raised seeing adults get drunk. I don’t know that I’ve ever seen my parents so much as touch a drink until we’ll into my adulthood.
happy for you!
So awesome to watch that change happen from within.
