The depression has really got its claws in, I havenāt even been able to get dressed this weekend. Coming here to catch up it seems Iām not alone though. Itās worrying me a bit because I know how low and how quickly my moods can drop, but Iām hoping it might be just the miserable weather here in the UK this week, otherwise I will contact my GP to see if I need a medication review, as Iāve been on the same meds and doses for 2 years now.
I am so sorry this has happened. There is no justice when it comes to fent. It blows my mind that its happening and only getting worse. 6 people in my building have o.d from it in the last 4 years here. Its a serious issue here. Nothing can be done about it apparently because its just getting worse here. I think more people have switched to methadone , but they still take the gamble and use aswell sometimes. I basically Russian roulette. Iām sorry for your nieces loss
Woke up without my Alarm at 6.15am. I woke up like 3 times last night in the middle of the night. I I think my subconscious is concerned il sleep through my alarm and miss class today lol so I kept waking up during the night
I have piltaes at 8.30am. Then OTP at 12.45pm till 4.30pm. Iām really looking forward to today.
I feel good today mentally. I feel like things are slowly falling back into place for me. I know I need to not get to over excited about things and just keep my focus on the day to day. I tend to go full steam ahead with anything Iām focused on. All or nothing type vibe. Not healthy. Iām slowly learning balance. Rome was not built in a day as they say !
@CATMANCAM Sorry to hear you are feeling low. Even of you canāt get dressed and out of the house, could you open a window and let some fresh air in, some deep breaths? I know it wonā t fix everything but I always get onto a downward spiral if I am stuck in the house.
Had a weird relapse dream, I was at school, and too hungover to go in, having loads of issues with class mates, but I didnāt start drinking until later and was a right goodie-two-shoes at school.
Should be at work, but my daughter has a fever and puked this morning, so am at home. It is weird, I always feel guilty, like I am slacking off like when I was drinking.
Thanks! It was sooo awesome to visually watch the changes occur within him and to know I was able to help. It took a lot of changes within ME to get to the point where I could help him, thats for sure!!
598 Days. What a crappy Motherās day. Most of you know, I have 1 child and she has disabilities. My days are very difficult caring for her and working a full-time job. I often get depressed thinking about all the things she canāt do nor will never do but I try to stay positive for the most part. On occasion, I think about the fact that Iāll never have grandchildren and Iām not going to lie, it breaks my heart. Iāve discussed this with my husband and he just brushes it off. Heās the one that buys gifts and cards for me on our daughterās behalf and I do the same for him. Obviously, I put way more thought into this stuff than he does. Today was proof again that he just goes through the motions because he has to. This is the card he gives me and thought it was funny when I actually read it out loud. He claims this wasnāt the card he picked out and the cashier mixed it up with someone elseās. Really?! Poor excuse.
Iām sorry you had a crappy day Lisa. I think your feelings are valid and your right that is a pretty piss poor excuse. But I guess you never know. Is he still not drinking? Maybe if heās still not drinking heās a little testy or irritated. Maybe he could be having some hidden guy emotional shit with being sober and all.
I wish I had more for ya.
And for what itās worth, from what I know of ya, I bet your one of those super moms.
Itās been about 6 months since heās had a drink. He hasnāt had a day off from work in 5 weeks and he says heās too tired to think so Iāll give him that.
Oh Lisa, this breaks my heart. You have been such a mother bear to ALL of us on TS! So, Happy Motherās Day from me. The irony in the fact that your daughter canāt wish you a Happy Mothers Day is that you really are a Super Mom.
So sorry to hear that. I can easily imagine your husband just picking up a card and not actually reading it. From your posts on here, I can hear the love you have for, and effort you expend for your daughter. You are a great mum, and your daughter being unable to articulate it, and your husband being unable to make the effort to choose a decent card, do not change that.
I agree with ya Laura.
My wife and I hate being told when we have to celebrate. We do it when we like. Itās bullshit. Freaking greeting card industry
this is amazing. 60 is always a good moment 
