Congrats on 700 @Mno Menno!! your posts are always so humbling are helpful. Glad that you are hear
So today turned out to be better than Iād expectedā¦ I got a job!!! I got employed!!!
The universe is really being nice to me recently very happy about thisā¦
Its only part time because half the week Iām at OTP but Iām happy with anything to be honest!
So my monday to fridays are now offically full and booked up!! This makes me beyond happy.
Now I can really cherish my chilled calm weekends. I love the feeling of working hard all week and being busy so that by the time the weekend comes, you really enjoy the small things in life. Like Saturday mornings cleaning the house. Going to the local fresh markets to buy flowers and fresh deli foods. Treating yourself on a Saturday with a little shopping trip to your favorite clothing boutique and being able to buy that item you couldnāt afford before. Lazy Sunday mornings in bed with the papers and coffee and fresh croissants. Rainy Sunday afternoons at the local art house boutique cinema watching film festival filmsā¦ And all the while being clean and sober. Always
Day 15. Thank goodness. Massive wobble there but Iām on track. Thatās the second time you guys have meant the difference for me between drinking and not. Iām so grateful. Iām so happy Iām not on day 1 again.
You all are just amazing
Iām here, Iām alive and Iām sober.
Day 253
Paās birthday today.
No news from the hospital yet.
We just discovered that the stairs leading upto our house. A concrete stair, is literally falling apart. The reinforcing bars is crumbling like crackers, just like the concrete underneath. So the summer garden project is kinda sealed already. And my drivers license seems very far away at this point.
But at least weāll get some things done around the house, thatās always a good thing.
And until Iāve heard anything else from he hospital Pa is still alive so thatās also good.
My teacher moved the project plan deadline from today to Wednesday for me, and thatās also a good thing. Unfortunately I still donāt have a project because I canāt focus on thinking. But hopefully thatāll change soon.
Tweenie is still at her Maās place, they didnāt want to get her back here because they were having a cold. So sheāll be back Saturday or Sunday instead.
So itās nice anf calm here for another week. Itās nice that I donāt have to try to deal with her on top of everything else. Iām not sure I could do that.
Really helps reading through the comments here, Iām 3 days into my 1st time wanting to go alcohol free after god knows how long being a heavy user, it causes me no end of problems and want to escape its grasp instead of making excuses for it. Thank you people for sharing your different difficult stories and feelings
I think part-time so you can focus on recovery is perfect. Last year I worked 3/4 days a week only and used the rest of the time to focus on mental health. And piss about on YouTube, but mostly focus on mental health.
I truely thought i was at breaking point, so i did what i do best i hid well under my bed sheets, the tic attacks have not been pleasentā¦ I have an appointment with the nerologist so will see where it leadsā¦
Takeaways have been the only option as i really canāt cook without some dick deciding it looks nice on the floor ā¦
These days/weeks are where i want to be chemically enhanced but nope the gremlins have not won because im fucking committed to a life outside the pure hell of addictionā¦
Keep going as all of us deserve to be free of the addiction that has spun our lives out of controlā¦
I dont know how it is everywhere else, but here we have one heck of a worker shortage. I might be the only buisness fully staffed. I am having a hard time finding gratitude in that. My people are greatā¦I should have a warm heart. What troubles meā¦I am trying to overstaffed my store so they will be fine when I go on vacation. Nothing I can but keep on trying to find that extra person.
YouTube is a non negotiatble must have time for me daily as well lol I like to squeeze in my YouTube time in the mornings and watch a bunch of motivational stuff. Stuff that primes me for my day so to speak I couldnt live without youtube lol
Oh my lord girl you need some blessings sent your way !! You are plagued with issues coming at you one after the other im going to keep you in my prayers tonight that the stair gods work there magic and send you a miracle OK
Hey! Our sober dates are similar! Itās nice to have a āsober twinā along the journey! I also did a big move across Europe in February, what a coincidence! Where are you headed?
Great job on staying sober at a bar and opening up to people I just recently started to tell my friends I had a problem, itās only taken me 3 years talk to someone about it , but I feel so relieved!!! Iām finally not trying to do it alone and itās making all the difference so far. Youāre doing great
Checking in at the end of day 127.
Went to bed late last night because I was watching the Grand Prix (it starts at 9pm here), so Iām going to bed early tonight.
Have a great sober day, wherever you are.
Goodnight.
your posts are always so humbling are helpful. Glad that you are hear 
very happy about thisā¦
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I like to squeeze in my YouTube time in the mornings and watch a bunch of motivational stuff. Stuff that primes me for my day so to speak 
im going to keep you in my prayers tonight that the stair gods work there magic and send you a miracle OK 
I just recently started to tell my friends I had a problem, itās only taken me 3 years talk to someone about it 
, but I feel so relieved!!! Iām finally not trying to do it alone and itās making all the difference so far. Youāre doing great 
