Checking in Day 1 no Alcohol complete I’m going to keep coming back and never stop until I achieve it until It becomes a way of life again Marijuana I have 2 years I don’t smoke it cigarettes coming up on 60 days overall optimistic for the future I start my old local job back today looking forward to it and I’ll keep coming in !
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Glad you’re still here!! Keep fighting the good fight, we got your back 
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Major 10/4 I really appreciate that !
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Trucker, you just concentrate on you and your life, your family will come around eventually. Don’t let them dictate how you are living.
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@Soundlab What about creating a rainy day project list that you can do when weather interferes with your plans?
@CATMANCAM Hope this bout passes soon.
@apes2020 Congratulations on the job.
@Bigbear Awesome job on overcoming the wobble. So happy to see you here this morning.
328 days. Plans for today include laundry, cleaning and starting seedlings for the garden. I also need to love my feet and dawl them up as I’m allowed to wear sandals to work. The perks of the new job just keep coming and dam it feels good. I struggled with some uncomfortable feelings yesterday surrounding Mother’s Day. I don’t enjoy a great relationship with my mother and her as a topic has been in therapy multiple times over the years. I have worked on letting her go but still cling to what could’ve been. My inner child was hurting yesterday and soothing her took a lot out of me. Today is a new day and it’s supposed to be a beautiful one so I choose to have a beautiful day. Hope you all have a beautiful day too.
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One week sober and it’s all because of the encouragement I’ve gotten from you guys! I really love and appreciate you all!
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Good morning. I haven’t been in this app much lately even though I really could’ve used the help in the past few months. In the past year my relapses have been getting closer together, which frightens me greatly. And I haven’t been honest with myself or my sponsor about how bad it’s gotten…although April 11 was my last drink, I have been using cannibis since then. I didn’t want to reach out while I was still getting high. I know how vital honesty is to this whole recovery thing, so I suppose this is my first attempt at coming clean. I appreciate having a safe space here to practice telling the truth. Thanks for being here and happy 24! 
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That is so sweet of you to say, thank you
Sorry to hear you’ve got to miss your mom too. The walk helped and talking about my feeling also helped.
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@franksmom0 congrats on 300 days 
@Lisa07 I’m so sorry about the insensitive card 
@SoberWalker @Hopeful777 sorry you both lost your mum’s too, mine passed back in 1996 from the same cancer
@apes2020 congrats on the new job 
@David_m welcome and congrats on 3 days
@Truckinmonster21 welcome back 
@TaiTy21 congrats on your week
9 months no alcohol. 
241 days no cocaine.
Being patient with the depression and giving myself extra sleep in the mornings. I’ve had my window open from the top all day letting a cool breeze in and listening to the birds, the sun also came out for a couple of hours this afternoon while I was reading my new ED recovery book, and that seems to have made it feel less heavy in my soul.
I’ve got an annoying lose end hanging over me from my old flat, the service charge company are insisting I pay up to 30th June, even though I moved out on 15th April, and since the matter of the sale is complete, my solicitor won’t contact the buyers solicitor to recover funds without the service charge company confirming the billing period total and a breakdown of how they have worked out the ‘outstanding balance’, because it’s a lot more than the total of the remaining direct debits and I paid up to date as of 15th April. It looks like I’m going to have to pay the £462.08 and cut my losses, because they said they will start adding charges from 13th. The service charge company don’t answer their phones nor respond to my emails, but the anxiety this is causing me makes me think I should just pay it and move on, even though £381 of the bill is the new owners charge.
I got my car back from the repair garage today, and it’s back to looking like it was when I first bought it, I’m pleased but also feel like wrapping it in bubble wrap to keep it this way 
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13 months today. Feeling good. I switch shifts today and work evenings for awhile. It will be a nice change of pace
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Day 16.
6.25am.
9 degrees. Cold and pouring rain.
Love waking up to this weather !! The sound of pouring rain in the still morning darkness. I woke up at 5.45am with no alarm. I’m waking up early each morning naturally which is amazing.
I woke up and immediately remembered my good news about the new job. Instantly in a brilliant mood to start my day
I have pilates at 8am. Then OTP at 1pm.
I will do my journaling and goal setting now and meditate for a little while till the sun comes up. The sun comes up late now at 6.50am. I think its going to be a cold winter. Its getting colder in the mornings already and its only not even half way through autumn.
I feel good today. No urges. No anxiety. It’s a good day 
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Way to go Harold 
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When the dust settles and the fog is gone not everyday of sobriety is amazing, sometimes life gets in the way, what is amazing is that we don’t need to turn to our drug of choice anymore. Your all wonderful people and inspire me on a daily basis. Thank you.
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Just woken up from another drinking dream. This time it was a horror show. Was out with some old drinking friends. Everyone was hammered. It was carnage. It was the end of the night. We all looked shambolic. I felt lousy. Everyone else looked like they felt lousy, and we were trawling around trying to find an open bar. I had a broken wine glass in my hand but was trying to filter the wine through my tongue and the roof of my mouth to finish the wine without drinking the inevitable shards of broken glass. All whilst trying not to let anyone else see that I was still trying to drink it. Eventually, once we realised that everywhere was closed, we agreed to go back to a friend’s house to drink as much as we could.
The worst of it is that none of this came out of my imagination, it is all stuff that happened too many times before - so it felt perfectly plausible.
How could I think that was normal…?
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it’s nice that our conciense reminds us of the error of our ways and prepares us for the morning when the ego awakes 
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@Harold Congratulations
9 months! We did it! I don’t actually feel that triumphant, some trivial life things irritating me right now, and some not so trivial things taking up some mental energy too. But, if sober, I can deal with them all much better.
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- At our regional office, after hours helping Ms. Monkey. She is a recruiter for the same company. Drunk 3rd Monkey would be passed out on the couch, drunk.
Sobriety moves selfish behavior away. I love her, but alcohol would cloud this and selfishly keep me drinking.
Sobriety is more than not just drinking…its about changing behaviors, out looks, and actions…far past the booze bottle.
Stay sober friends!
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Checking in on day 25. Called some people back in Germany to catch up …
I told a friend that I’m going to stop drinking for good. He told me “There’s no need, you just stopped for 6 months! That’s the opposite of being an alcoholic!”. He then added that I didn’t need to keep punishing myself forever for “lashing out” recently …another friend told me that I should moderate and not quit for good. She went on to tell me that learning to drink moderately was part of learning how to be an adult.
Sigh. I love my friends, but they only show me how different their relationship with alcohol really is from mine how clearly they don’t have a problem and how very much I do. They really don’t understand. I’m so glad you guys do
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