This is my second in the app I’ve been clean for 105 days going strong today was perhaps the hardest day for me and the first time that I really had challenges to my sobriety I’m in a treatment program yet there’s more drugs available to me here than there is on the streets and I was faced with that hard-core today but I’m happy report today refrain from using and I’m still 105 days queen it sucks that I have to lock myself in my room to get away from all of it but I am away from it and I refuse to allow anything to get in the way of my sobriety I’m not going back to that life
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Checking in substance free for…
Just got off my “favorite Friday night CA” meeting. Joined via zoom tonight because I am not feeling great. Was good as per usual… I swear every fricken week someone is taking a cake at that meeting its crazy. Maybe it’s because everybody from NA is taking their cake there as it’s pretty much the only in-person meeting happening in town!! Ha!
You know I don’t always check in here but tonight the girl who took the cake reminded me why I should. “We don’t take cakes for ourselves… we take cakes to share a message of hope to the people who are coming back or trying to get days or just starting out.”
I think that’s why I should check in too…
Congrats everyone on your days.
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12 days sober from Alcohol very proud of myself step by step day by day we get better at it checking in for the night all day no thoughts or urges to drink iam happy living sober ! Truck Driving is Great …have to kick it into gear with math 
and weightloss that’s about it goodnight y’all 
trucker out .
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Day 326.
Friday! Friday of a long weekend. Glad I’m not heading into it with that crazy tension, you know the one - looking so forward to the first drink or two but knowing how much effort it would take to moderate. Wanting to drink but desperate to avoid a hangover, the shame, regret, wasted time.
We kicked it off with a river walk instead, the dog girl and I. Smiles like hers (and mine) are proof: this is so much better. 
G’night friends, sweet sober dreams or morning smiles to all. 
@marcusmaximus2000 500 days yay! yay! yay!
@Soundlab but there’s a big difference - you didn’t pick up this time! To me, that’s huge. Hang in there, friend.
@Bigbear hey, we’re here - offering our hands, a help back up. you slipped - but lets just get back up and take those first few important steps in the direction we want to go. today. that’s all you gotta do right now. And well done on the accountability!
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Awww, Sophia, I am so sorry to hear this. Sending condolences and love to you and your family. You are honoring him and his life so beautifully!
Grief can be a bumpy road, as you know. We’re here.
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Oh bother…
Thanks for the link.
Found her.
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Welp checking in at 505. Another doctor today and another issue. My heart is out of sinus rhythm and I got AFib. So let’s pile that on top of the root canal and the 2 precancerous moles that need to be taken care of. I got an appointment with a cardiologist June 9 and I’m pretty sure I’ll need another Catheter ablation procedure. Looks like I might be stuck out in Cali for awhile. All my doctors are out here. I can’t remember which old timer here said it but
“at least I’m not on fire 
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And I didn’t get all liquored up about it tonight either. What’s the fucking point!
I really don’t feel like drinking at all. And I’m not drinking tomorrow.
I’ll figure it out.
I’m still going to enjoy myself because I got 505 days AF and I’m not going to loose that. No way!
Stay sober folks. Drinking would just makes me more miserable in the long run.
I get to drive out to see my daughter tomorrow. Can’t beat that. And I won’t be hungover.
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Aww… seeing the dog girl just cheered me right up.
Give her a nice good long pet for me.
You’d think I didn’t have pets 
Can’t get enough of that lovin.
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Day 37 here for me. And for you too @Penguin hope you’re doing well!
I did cinema (with a fancy soft drink rather than gin in a tin) and a couple of hours in a bar with a friend (with ginger and lime - my new fave). I know staying away from bars is essential for some especially in the early days, but I’m trying to do it mindfully on occassion and with exit strategies in place. I actually didn’t miss or crave it last night. In a few months when I move I know lots of socialising with new friends will happen around drink so I’m trying to train that resistance.
I saw a handful of women drunk and struggling last night. I was in the centre of the city on a Friday night so that was expected. I have been those women. I don’t want to be again.
This journey keeps bringing lessons. Last night I just really really enjoyed film and food and company. I didn’t need the alcohol to make it a fun night.
So here is to a fun, sober weekend all. Happy to read over everyone’s successes and those staying strong in adversity at this time. 
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Not only what you said, but you’d only exacerbate your condition. Like me and my blood pressure and depression/anxiety. Alcohol never helps. Thanks for continuing to be a model of recovery. Drinking isn’t worth it. I’m so glad my parents don’t drink!
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Good for you! It’s just so dangerous. I was half passed out in a shady alley by a dumpster and my husband had to come find me because my male friend just left me there when I became distraught. Hubby was working and meeting up with us later. It’s not the shitty friend’s fault, it’s mine for getting wasted by 7 pm on a holiday night and expecting someone to take care of me. I’ve been violently sexually assaulted while intoxicated in my early 20s and it is simply not worth putting ourselves in that danger. Maybe circumstances change, but the drinking doesn’t unless we decide to make a change. Thanks for letting me vent after your post.
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You’re so right about that!
And my blood pressure was GREAT! 113/76. I couldn’t believe it.
And they do call it Holiday Heart. Drinking too much can cause AFib. I’ve heard people get it after the new year.
Thanks
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That reminds me I didn’t post my dinner
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Well hurry up! I gotta go to bed it’s 1 am and I am supposed to go for a hike in the morning!
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Working on it
Hi @RosaCanDo I’m so sorry to hear of the terrible thing that was done to you. And of the situations that have come from drinking.
I know from bitter experience how scary it can be to end up in scary situations when you are unable to fully care for yourself so I appreciate your honesty with this.
It is one such situation 39 days ago that has made me see i need a full change. And I see how every journey is different and will come with peaks and troughs for all. We’ve got this though, and as you say, deciding to make a change is key.
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You haven’t even heard the half of it! Lol. I try to laugh instead of cry. And be grateful every day I stay sober. Thank you for your kind words. I wish I could say that my experiences are not the norm, but we know they are. Are you doing okay?
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