There she is. Hope I managed to link
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Awww, Sophia, I am so sorry to hear this. Sending condolences and love to you and your family. You are honoring him and his life so beautifully!
Grief can be a bumpy road, as you know. We’re here. 
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Oh bother…
Thanks for the link.
Found her.
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Welp checking in at 505. Another doctor today and another issue. My heart is out of sinus rhythm and I got AFib. So let’s pile that on top of the root canal and the 2 precancerous moles that need to be taken care of. I got an appointment with a cardiologist June 9 and I’m pretty sure I’ll need another Catheter ablation procedure. Looks like I might be stuck out in Cali for awhile. All my doctors are out here. I can’t remember which old timer here said it but
“at least I’m not on fire 
”
And I didn’t get all liquored up about it tonight either. What’s the fucking point!
I really don’t feel like drinking at all. And I’m not drinking tomorrow.
I’ll figure it out.
I’m still going to enjoy myself because I got 505 days AF and I’m not going to loose that. No way!
Stay sober folks. Drinking would just makes me more miserable in the long run.
I get to drive out to see my daughter tomorrow. Can’t beat that. And I won’t be hungover.
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Aww… seeing the dog girl just cheered me right up.
Give her a nice good long pet for me.
You’d think I didn’t have pets 
Can’t get enough of that lovin.
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Day 37 here for me. And for you too @Penguin hope you’re doing well!
I did cinema (with a fancy soft drink rather than gin in a tin) and a couple of hours in a bar with a friend (with ginger and lime - my new fave). I know staying away from bars is essential for some especially in the early days, but I’m trying to do it mindfully on occassion and with exit strategies in place. I actually didn’t miss or crave it last night. In a few months when I move I know lots of socialising with new friends will happen around drink so I’m trying to train that resistance.
I saw a handful of women drunk and struggling last night. I was in the centre of the city on a Friday night so that was expected. I have been those women. I don’t want to be again.
This journey keeps bringing lessons. Last night I just really really enjoyed film and food and company. I didn’t need the alcohol to make it a fun night.
So here is to a fun, sober weekend all. Happy to read over everyone’s successes and those staying strong in adversity at this time. 
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Not only what you said, but you’d only exacerbate your condition. Like me and my blood pressure and depression/anxiety. Alcohol never helps. Thanks for continuing to be a model of recovery. Drinking isn’t worth it. I’m so glad my parents don’t drink!
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Good for you! It’s just so dangerous. I was half passed out in a shady alley by a dumpster and my husband had to come find me because my male friend just left me there when I became distraught. Hubby was working and meeting up with us later. It’s not the shitty friend’s fault, it’s mine for getting wasted by 7 pm on a holiday night and expecting someone to take care of me. I’ve been violently sexually assaulted while intoxicated in my early 20s and it is simply not worth putting ourselves in that danger. Maybe circumstances change, but the drinking doesn’t unless we decide to make a change. Thanks for letting me vent after your post.
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You’re so right about that!
And my blood pressure was GREAT! 113/76. I couldn’t believe it.
And they do call it Holiday Heart. Drinking too much can cause AFib. I’ve heard people get it after the new year.
Thanks
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That reminds me I didn’t post my dinner
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Well hurry up! I gotta go to bed it’s 1 am and I am supposed to go for a hike in the morning!
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Working on it
Hi @RosaCanDo I’m so sorry to hear of the terrible thing that was done to you. And of the situations that have come from drinking.
I know from bitter experience how scary it can be to end up in scary situations when you are unable to fully care for yourself so I appreciate your honesty with this.
It is one such situation 39 days ago that has made me see i need a full change. And I see how every journey is different and will come with peaks and troughs for all. We’ve got this though, and as you say, deciding to make a change is key.
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You haven’t even heard the half of it! Lol. I try to laugh instead of cry. And be grateful every day I stay sober. Thank you for your kind words. I wish I could say that my experiences are not the norm, but we know they are. Are you doing okay?
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It also sounds like you’ve had a traumatic experience. Have you gotten any counseling or help with that? I’ve trying counseling for the first time (really) recently and I feel like it might be helping me. But it’s a learning experience.
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308.97 Days
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Ive never heard of it before, it sounds serious. Are you in pain , and are you feeling OK functioning wise? Will keep you in my prayers tonight 
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@MrsOdh sorry to hear about your pa that’s terrible
@Dazercat A-fib? That is the most common arrhythmia, when I used to teach ACLS I said it comes standard with your AARP card. Expect a blood thinner to become part of your daily regimen,
As far as me, I’m all over the place. I’m at work now,
I didn’t think finding out an old friend died would bother me as much as it would. But it’s really fucking with me, long and short we were close friends for a period of time, it ended on a sour note. 15 years ago. I’ve always looked for her when I battled deep depression because she had the ability to pull me out, never found her. I also wanted to get some closure on the ending of our relationship because I wanted her to know that yeah even though our friendship ended on a bad note, I had no ill will or resentments, well finding out that the opportunity is no longer possible has been fucking me up, we haven’t spoke in 15 years… why is this bothering me? Idk
Either way, I guess I have to keep at it, cause I don’t got any other options
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Checking in at day 412 
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