@CATMANCAM and @Squirt thank you for your encouragement, thank you for being so supportive with everyone @liv_m You have been very important in the recovery here for me. May the Lord bless you always and fills you with His Grace. Thank you
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Hey all, checking in on day 339. I hope everyone has a great one.
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Day 341 clean and sober today. Have a great day everyone, love you guys!!! 
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Checking in on day 28. All is good. 2 more working days then 2 weeks of holidays 
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@M-be-free49 Nice catch on your numbers. We’re preparing for snow here too. Was +30° yesterday and snow coming tomorrow.
@Julied Congratulations on triple digits.
@Jennajen Good luck with your paper; hope it flows smoothly.
@Tomek Hope you’re feeling better soon. Healing vibes sent your way.
@Best_Me Congratulations on 1 week.
@Charlie_C Make the most of it and enjoy your last full day.
337 days. I know this too shall pass but I’ve found myself in quite the funk the past few days that I can’t seem to pull out of. I find myself frequently on the verge of tears and am feeling unsettled. Was asked yesterday if I had any moving boxes and this alone brought me to tears. The majority of my belongings sit in the basement in U-Haul boxes but all I could think is I don’t know whether I’m staying or leaving. I won’t drink but I crave the escape, even if it’s temporary.
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It’s funny you said that…I wonder if this has something to do with where we are in our sobriety, because I’ve felt the exact same lately and I know we’ve always only been a couple days apart. I’ve been really irritable and grumpy and just kind of…meh. Everything is going really well and I have absolutely no reason to complain; No urges or desire to drink or anything but I’ve just felt kind of gray, if that makes sense.
I’ve always heard from others on here that the 1 year mark can be tough. So I got that Russell Brand book on recovery to give myself a kick and so far that’s been really good. I think some or a lot of my funk has been due to complacently and not actively working on my sobriety.
I’m not sure if that helps at all but you’re definitely not alone. We’ll work through it 
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Thanks April, I struggle with Hope & Faith., I always had. I just need more people like you, (ladies my age with magic crystals lol) yes I remember that convo 
@Mno hey man I appreciate it, it’s just frustrating, like I get that pounding down a few drinks isn’t gonna solve anything, in fact all it does is prolong the inevitable, just need something to go right for once.
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Checking in at the end of day 136.
I’m going to bed sober.
It’s a win.
Have a great sober day, wherever you are.
Goodnight. 
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Checking in day 728
Really struggling today, life post cancer is hard and tiring, I want to run away and have a good cry about it, alas life must go on. 
Full of cold and got a real pessimistic head on today sorry ya’ll, I just really needed to vent.
As you were 
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Day 927. Okay day. Okay days are better than the best drinking days.
Seeing so many of you stacking up the numbers sober makes me feeling, yeah, it’s working. Sober is better even when life sucks big time, sometimes.
Glad being part of this community even when I sometimes think not being really part of it.
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A good cry can be really helpful at times. The bowstring can’t always be taut to use a Dutch expression. I for one am really happy to see you Fran, despite the circumstances. Vent all you want. Hope it helps. Big hugs.
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As a matter of fact you’re a big part of this community Franzi. I know the feeling you’re feeling but it is not true. Thanks for being here. Thanks for being you and sharing yourself. You make this place a better one. No joke. Hugs.
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Still hanging on in Day 2. Feel better with my self now then earlier at in the Day. Got my self a shower, eat food and even got outside of the house to follow my son to fotballpractice 
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Checking in today, super excited for my parents to arrive tomorrow, but I have a lot to do yet to get ready. Glad to be around but might not be checking in daily, we’ll see. So looking forward to their positive influence in my life right now. A year and a half is too long to be apart from my beloveds. Grateful that the era of pandemic seems to be coming to a close, at least in our immediate lives. 
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@ChristinaV congrats on 30 days 
@zepolarne congrats on 1500 days
@Julied congrats on triple digits 
@Tomek feel better soon 
@Squirt sending strength 
@Frantasticooo sorry you’re struggling, sending strength
@RosaCanDo have a wonderful time with your parents 
282 days no alcohol.
250 days no cocaine.
The nightmares persist, last night’s ones were all related to ex best friends, my subconscious is clearly having a big sort out in there somewhere.
Feeling frustrated by my physical limitations, it’s hard to imagine ever being able to walk normally again, without being in agony, but I try to remain hopeful and I’ve got the appointment with the Podiatrist next month.
I went back to the opticians and sent away my sunglasses to have the new prescription put in, so I’ll get them back in a week. While I was in the shopping centre I stocked up on breakfast stuff for the week.
It has been 5 days since I binged so this new way of eating seems to be working, I’m looking forward to sharing this progress with the therapist tomorrow afternoon.
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Rosa, this is great news. The pandemic and being away from loved ones has been hard for sure. Have a fantastic time with your parents and enjoy!
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Sounds great Rosa. You’re going to have such a wonderful time. Happy for ya.
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Thanks sir. Great to see you too. I like your Dutch expression it makes total sense.
Feeling better since venting, something so good about saying stuff out loud, definitely takes some of the power out of intrusive thoughts. Had a wee cry too 
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Thank you kindly 
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Day 4
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