The world has felt like its opening up as I’m getting closer to one year I’ve felt very empowered lately very in control of my emotions and not flipping shit on people I want to call out like I normally would. I’m growing and emotionally evolving day by day and it’s very nice feeling to realize after all this time my life has gotten so much better not because things have changed but because I changed and I was the problem in my past but I’m not allowing myself to be the problem in the present and that’s what matters to me. Confidence is a beautiful thing and I have nothing to prove to anyone in the world except for myself because it’s always been me here for me the entire time. I quit on my own no guidance just a very strong spiritual inclination that I believe in myself and I always will. So irregardless of any of of drama in life, today is a good day because I made it a good day and it is only bad if you allow it to be that way. Have strength be strong and I hope everyone has a great day
@Fury I feel like sometimes things get much more challenging when you first get sober. Then you just have to hold on till it gets a bit easier. Then it gets easier to the point where you forgot how bad it was when you were drinking, and then you think sobriety socks, but actually it’s your best friend. Hope you see some sunnier days soon. @apes2020 how is your ankle? Similar to the above- I just think the universe sometimes wants to test the will of sober people in the early days by throwing in a few curve balls! Im so sorry about your ankle just as things were looking up. Not fair!! In a more positive note, maybe the universe is actually saying slow down, practice self care, don’t try and go a million miles an hour when you are still a bit wobbly.
I don’t know…its all so hard isn’t it? But this is better than waking up in the usual hell before sobriety. Lots of strength to you all
I’m sober almost a year, in fact tomorrow will be 11 months, it started out hot, then slowly but truly everything has been taken away.
People say addiction wants to kill you, but first it wants to get you alone and take everything away from you slowly,
Since I got sober I lost my relationship with my kids, which eats at me daily, I lost a relationship with my significant other, my job my house, my car and my savings.
So sobriety took everything from me, not addiction
In my opinion there is one thing sobriety cannot take away from us, but addiction can - dignity. And this is a must-have if you will ever start to build upon.
Feeling great about my small accomplishment. 30 days and counting. The devil has been calling me due to nice weather and feeling proud of myself for doing well at my new job and being sober. The son of a bitch (aka my alcoholic addled brain of 30 plus years of abuse) is using every trick in the book to convince me that I can drink without worrying about it. It’s all lies and bullshit. I have learned for a fact, that there is no half way. I can only stay sober with total abstinence. Anyone that has ever quit, knows the lengths we go to, to convince ourselves it will be different this time. Well I am not falling for any of it. I hope everyone else out there recognizes what I am saying is the truth. If you do, stay sober one more day just to show yourself you can. Then repeat the process eveyday just for that day, then repeat. Now we all can do this. So go out everyday and enjoy it. SOBER. For yourself and anyone else that benefits from it as well. Big positive vibes to everyone that this may help. “Stay true to thine own self.”’
I’m back into the hook up culture, I read a post here regarding Nice Guy Syndrome, And it reminded me that when I’m in a relationship with someone, I become more soft, like I enjoy doing simple romantic things to make them feel loved,
But it also makes me a doormat, because they feel they can walk all over me, but then when they meet a total douche who beats them, cheats on them, and overall treats them like trash, they are in love, but cry that they can’t find a decent dude,
You had one, you walked away cause you thought he would be right there waiting for you at every turn to pick you up when someone else shattered you, so you can regain the confidence to do it again,
I’m actually going to see this girl I met on Tinder tonight, that sounds absolutely terrible, but it’s who I am, no emotional attachment, no feelings, just hang out and move on to the next. I’ve came to terms with I’m not gonna get better, there is no love and be loved in my future. So I mine as well enjoy what comes my way when it can? Right?
checking in at 10 days I feel amazing I feel sharp just really trying to stay strong and stay on top I’ve lost 50 pounds got 30 more to loose iam one subject away (math ) from getting my Diploma trucking is going great relationship with wifey of 12 years is going great I love this girl to death not more then I do myself of course things are different in a good way ! So alot of positivity in my life so keeping my head held high let’s Gooooo
Hit a bit of a bobble in the grocery store today, with sudden positive thoughts of drinking. I wasn’t anywhere close to actually buying a bottle of wine but it was a surprise. Maybe it happened because I ran into a huge traffic jam on the way there caused by a road block. Really annoying. I felt fine, but I wonder if that was a factor. The sudden onslaught of positive drinking thoughts makes me feel vulnerable. I guess I’ll try to focus on the negative consequences of drinking. Like feeling sick, eating too much, etc.
Checking in sober. Drifted away from some of my healthy habits and feeling the consequences in my mind and body… Getting back at it and taking it one hour at a time. Grateful to be here.
I’m doing better now today, thank you for asking. I managed to be able to stay at work all day yesterday and I iced it when I got home. When I woke up this morning two hours ago, It seems OK now, I can walk on it… But yes , I think your right about the slowing down bit, I had sheduled my days full so tight that I was full steam ahead. And to go from 0 to 100 in such a short period of time is not ideal lol… I’m still learning healthy balance
it’s hard keeping on top of it all day after day but a little effort goes a long way. Like it says ’ I have a program, I may not stick to it but I have one’
Don’t give up so easily. Your just in a rough patch and feeling down. It will pass. Just keep doing things that you enjoy and make you happy. You were very positive before, you can get that back. You just have to want to
Glad you checked in April. I wanted to ask about your ankle. I’m glad it’s not a fracture. I hope you can take it easy for a couple of days. Good to learn a healthy balance. Not always the easiest thing to learn.
Easy does it. ODAAT
I’ve lost 50 pounds got 30 more to loose iam one subject away (math ) from getting my Diploma trucking is going great relationship with wifey of 12 years is going great I love this girl to death not more then I do myself of course things are different in a good way ! 
So alot of positivity in my life so keeping my head held high let’s Gooooo
