Glad things are going well with your parents. I’ll be seeing my mom in like two weeks when I make my trip to Texas for my sons graduation.
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I’m here, I’m alive and I’m sober.
Day 264
Dad passed away yesterday.
The hospital called the day before yesterday, asking us to say our last goodbye. I couldn’t because I wasn’t allowed into the hospital, my village have a high virus spread and is currently in a red zone.
Yesterday morning, they called to inform us that he had zero lung capacity left and asked if my Ma would allow them to turn down all life supporting gear. The last thing Pa would have wanted was to stay alive in an artificial way, so Ma said that she allowed it.
Two minutes after 13:58 he took his last breath. We’re joking about it, saying that he checked out of all that shit with the words: Screw this we’re going for lunch and slided into heaven on a cloud asking what they served as a lunch special, because he was really hungry from all that hospital food.
He loved food and eating at restaurants trying all new things.
I’m currently at my parents house with my ma, I’m supposed to stay until Sunday. And I’ve called all the necessary calls and authorities and bill collectors today. Because I’m the only one capable of doing it.
We have made something that resembles the Mexican ofrenda, but with only a photo of Pa. Placed his favorite drinks around it, a lot of flowers and plays his favorite music. The ofrenda is placed in the dining room so he’ll be gathered with us, and done together. That’s the way we do it here.
And there’s always graveyard beers and drinks involved. Because that’s also the way we do it, to honor the one we’ve lost. I had one alcohol and gluten-free beer yesterday. And I’m trying not to be really sad. Pa wouldn’t have wanted us to be sad, he wasn’t a sad person. Always happy and cheerful and filled with ideas.
That’s all for now. We’re supposed to meet the funeral agents Monday.
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Congrats on your sobriety but my condolences about your father. It’s tough to lose a loved one saps parent. Keep you head up and remember the good times you had with him. That will always help remembering the good times.
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Very very sorry for your loss Sophia. And sorry you didn’t get to say goodbye in person. The offrenda sounds like a beautiful thing. Take care. Hugs.
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I’m so sorry for your loss, lady. The ofrenda is a wonderful tradition. Sending love 
Very sorry for your loss @MrsOdh.
I chuckled while reading Screw this we’re going for lunch. Honoring his silliness lightens the mood.
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I’m so sorry for your loss Sophia. 
My heart goes out to you.
Kondolerer 
congratulations mate, its been an absolute pleasure watching your journey. 
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enjoy those emotions for what they are bc they mean you are sober and in control for once, much better than the feelings of guilt and disappointment. Well done to you 
it’s great to have you back so soon, 6 days immediately after a slip is very impressive, mine usually last months so well done you
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It went fine. Nothing to be scared about, in case anyone else is planning on going in for some dental work.
Bye for now…
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Day 26.
Saturday.
6.43am
2 degrees (!!! 
) OK its freezing! What is going on, we are not even in winter, its autumn! 
@MrsOdh Sophia i am so sorry about your dad. It breaks my heart time hear. Hugs xx PS… The univerese has to give you a break sometime soon, right? You have had one stressful event after the other. You are a beautiful person, somethings gotta give soph, it will get better xx
@Lisa07 Lisa I’m sort your tummy is playing up. Hope it clears up soon 
@marcusmaximus2000 congrats on 500! 
@anon53116147 mike, glad your back. I think you need to do the daily work to keep you on course, ask your higher self for the strength, not god, because ultimately its going to be you who is doing the work these coming days /weeks/months. We all believe in you. Chin up eyes forward and when did you study to do tattooing!? Sounds like you have found a passion you can focus on instead of using again
@Charlie_C love that you are excited about database recovery
@Wakikki I notice you keep resetting your counter very recently a few times. What’s happening that you havnt jumped on here before you’ve relapsed? We are ALWAYS here. ALWAYS jump on here and read if you feel you are going to drink or use. Thats what we are here for.
@Bigbear twinzie what happened?? Have you stopped?
@Soundlab matt I hope you didnt loose your job? Glad you didn’t pick up. We are almost at one month twinze
@anon35096624 excited to hear all about your two week holidays!!
@SoberWalker Claudia that’s one hell of a tower! It looks like a transformer very cool you got up there and conquered it
So its the weekend and I’m so excited to enjoy it thoroughly! It is so long since I’ve been able to cherish the weekend. The past 15 months , everyday has ultimately been the same. Now that I’m back to a full scheduled Monday to Friday week, I now can cherish my time on the weekends it is FREZZING out there this morning. 2 degrees and frost. So I’m going to fluff about lazing in bed till it warms up then I’ll head out to get coffee.
I’ve had a very satisfying week just past. I was offered another shift at work so I took it. That was a nice feeling, hearing that I was wanted back 
I’m going to a meeting this arvo and tomorrow morning. Didn’t get to any this week yet coz of my injured ankle. I’m looking forward to them this weekend.
I had two dreams last night , about people that use. I feel OK this morning, it hasn’t rattled me. But I learnt in class that I need to be aware for the next 72 hours as it is type of trigger so my subconscious is on high alert or something along those lines.
Happy weekend TS fam 
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So sorry to hear about your Pa. It is terrible you were not able to say a last goodbye. I’m glad you are with your mom during this sad time.
Thank you! Glad to be here!
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Checking in, day 21.
Didn’t work out today. My body is still sore from Wednesday roller skating. I fell once on my butt and my tailbone still hurts. I don’t floss regularly, but I decided to floss this morning because I want to take better care of myself. I want to brush and floss twice a day and shave once a day.
Today is my daughter’s birthday. So we took her out and she opened presents. On Sunday, we plan to do more. We’ve booked a nice hotel in Wisconsin and we plan to have fun in the pool.
I haven’t checked out a woman in the past three days. There have definitely been opportunities. But I’m seeing how important it is for me to stop trying to seek validation from other women because it distracts me from demonstrating for myself that I have value.
I’m going to shave now and go to work.
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Thanks I believe in myself to, I know what I need to do. It was really a short relapse so not to sound cocky but I’m not to concerned about picking up again. Started doing the tattoos a few months ago, which is exactly why I don’t wanna pick up again because I’d like to pursue it to the best or my ability
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@marcusmaximus2000 Massive congratulations!
@Echolaj Triggers are just triggers, they can’t hurt us unless we act
@CATMANCAM Sending strength, sober twin
@Lisa07 Take care! Stomach bugs are the worst.
@MrsOdh My deepest condolences. Sending strength at this difficult time. Humor can be all that gets u thru.
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