- Check-in/out I can’t help but feel blessed. I’ve been sick again and today I feel so much better. My kids are amazing they’ve gotten me through so much. They’ve all pulled together to keep the house up and make meals and just letting me rest. I’ve decided that I need to change my rheumatologist because I now have a new illness due to my current drs lack of attention to putting me on steroids for my flare-ups and I get so sick it’s unbearable. Anyways…I’m feeling better for today so I am truly grateful for that.
Congrats on all the milestone. Keep up the good work everyone.
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Ha. The extra time really messed with me at first. I couldn’t believe how much time there was in a day. And the weekends were another level again. Love it now though. Wonder how I ever had time to drink. When I think about how much my life revolved around it, I cringe. Organising things early to enable me to drink. Declining invitations to enable me to drink. Rushing work to enable me to drink. Being absent from the lives of people I care about to enable me to drink. And then there’s the time actually spent under the influence. As you intimated, the day is over by 6pm, or wherever you had that first drink.
Life is SO much better now.
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Feeling really jittery today. There’s a lot going on in my life and I want to quieten it down. Each of the things in isolation would be fine, but together they are proving to be a bit overwhelming. I won’t bore you with the details.
It’s really interesting how much it is making me want to drink. I didn’t truly understand how much of a coping mechanism it was for me. That absent feeling is really appealing to me at the moment. I want to rise above it and to feel everything and just deal with it, but I also just want it to go away.
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Checking in on Day 177 alcohol free. Tonight I went out to dinner for the first time in…a really long time!! My parents are in town and we went out with my boyfriend for mexican food. They all got margaritas and I got a virgin one. It tasted so good and I honestly liked the taste better than if it had tequila. Since I quit drinking during covid and wasn’t going out at all (I’ve been very cautious until I was recently fully vaccinated), I wasn’t sure what it would be like to dine out. Would I be tempted to drink? Tonight, I was not tempted at all. I had no second thoughts about my choice and it was enjoyable, maybe even more so than an alcoholic beverage because I didn’t feel tired afterward haha. A success!!
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612 Days. I went to my usual in person womans AA meeting last night and it was horrible. I never walked out of a meeting feeling like I got absolutely nothing. It was a small group (6 of us) but that’s never been an issue in the past. The leader ended the hour meeting 15 minutes early after saying “let’s close up before anyone goes off on a tangent.” Very disappointing to say the least.
Since I got nothing out of last night, I attended an online woman in recovery meeting tonight and it was great and I got what I needed. There was even a sign language interpreter for a deaf attendee. How cool is that! It never crossed my mind how deaf addicts get help in recovery especially these days having to wear masks, they can’t even read lips.
I can’t stress enough how important it is to keep searching various avenues of recovery to find what suits your needs.
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Yes I’m still sober I feel like I’m on top of the world despite the challenges This weekend has had besides the drugs being thrown in my face I’ve had a bad head cold it’s kept me pretty much isolated to my room which in the situation is a pretty good thing but I’m 107 days over now I’m feeling on top of the World I feel like I can accomplish anything anything
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Amazing!!!
Love that you went out again tonight searching for the message you needed to hear and heard it.
Congrats on your days.
xxx
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Checking in substance free for…
I keep writing and deleting very detailed descriptions of my past. I have no idea what the hell is going on with me, it’s like I am practicing being vulnerable and then erase it all. There has been some things I have read recently on other threads that has brought up quite a bit of “stuff” in me.
I guess writing it out and erasing it is better than not getting it out at all.
Congrats everyone on your clean time.
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Let me see if I can find it, but I have a 12 lead ECG for dummies that was written by one of my instructors,
The most common lead that is read is lead 2, which will show A-fib absence of P waves, and regularly irregular.
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Just got off work, headed to hotel, I did speak with another group who wants me at their house, not too far away so hopefully I’ll be moving In this week, the one guy who lives there works for one of the local dealerships, who owns a Chevy dealer, when I said I was a master Auto tech with Advanced Diagnostics and Diesel certs. He wants to see if he can help me land a spot.,
I may be down on myself, but in the car world, I’m very valuable and my skills pay incredibly lucratively. I’m listening to my therapist when he said that he knows I don’t want to work in a dealership forever, but it can make a great bridge, where I can use it as a catalyst to reach my goals,
As far as my NSA’s go, man I struck out, met 2 women, first an attorney who flaked on me.
The 2nd an attractive business owner, successful and has a good head on her shoulders, we have nothing in common, for me I think perfect no attachment it works,
But she’s the sweetest person you’d ever meet, I’d feel completely guilty.
So those of you who said you didn’t want me in the hook up culture, congratulations your winning.
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Checking in on day 932 and 11.
Have a good and sober Monday, free Monday. 
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Yay… , congrats on 6 months nicotine free, NOPE! 
Blessings and sobriety!
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Checking in on Day 39. Feeling great and SO happy with my decision after yet another busy sober weekend. Someone mentioned on this thread that they are shocked how much time they have. I absolutely agree. It’s amazing!
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Can you find a healthy way to find that quiet space to recalibrate?
I too find that I used to escape a lot of over stimulation and now I will literally walk away from things mid conversation or mid chopping salad whatever it may be. I will go take a short walk and focus on my breathing or drive and sit at the beach, something, so that I can get that “head emptying” space I need.
It may sound simple and compared to the amount you have going on not seem like enough but you might be surprised.
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Day 328.
A good day. Mostly in my wee garden. From a few snowflakes to sowing seeds in less than one week. One day at a time indeed!
Some stuff on the fringes, right now. Sobriety made a lot of things a whole lot better, but it never made all the stuff go away.
And that’s okay - it has to be. I couldn’t have fixed it all today, anyway. Better to go to bed a good tired, with dirt still under my fingernails, and sober.
Let’s do another day tomorrow, hey friends? G’night - big love to all. 
Not without congrats first!
One week @Seb!
And one week @Chosen2001! Thank you for so authentically and honestly sharing your journey here, and your day today. To be present. I still “aha”, almost every day, on that one…
And 4 months @YeeYeeViking! And…
6 months Nicotine-Free @I.cant.We.can! Boom goes the dynamite is right! 
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I’m so sorry 
I was born with tinnitus. It’s loud and I hate it with all that I am. I didn’t find out until I was in my 30’s that not everyone hears this awful screeching in their ears 24/7. Then I got mad and sad. I need to be around noise to quiet it down or I’ll go crazy.
I can’t imagine what it’s like to get it after knowing what silence is. I’ll never know, but I can only imagine the frustration must be intense. If I ever come across some magic cure I’ll let you know 
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Morning everyone day 105 today and the start of another week. I have a day off work today to look after my grandson during the holidays, taking him out so should be a good day of crazy golf and laughs with him, he’s great company at 7.
Happy Monday everyone- we’ve got this ! 
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