@anon53116147 I think stepping away is a bad idea. Stay here and connect. Don’t feed your addiction, fight it. We’re all here in your corner. Coming here to talk about the addict voice and your urges is no different than reaching out for help and that’s what we’re all here for. Hope you have a better day today. I believe in you. @Jennajen Awesome numbers girl, congratulations. Relax and just breathe; you’ll be in Finland before you know it. @jjcarson92 Congratulations on 500 days. @Soundlab & @apes2020 Congratulations on 1 month.
344 days. As I sat here scrolling through the thread I received a call from my friend’s daughter asking for help. This girl is someone I’ve known for most of her life and love like family. She was there for me in 2019 when I contemplated the road of recovery and now I want to return the favor. Without any hesitation I told her to get the TS app. Again it has become so apparent how much this community means to me and talking with this girl this morning has completely dissolved any thoughts or questions of my ability to drink in moderation. Coming here during my biggest struggles has saved my ass more times than I care to count. From the bottom of my heart I thank you all for being part of my journey.
Checking in at the end of day 143.
That is more days than I ever dreamed I would reach. Each one a real, sober, alcohol and hangover free day. Incredible.
Got over a little hump earlier this week where I was really wavering. Back to feeling good about it all today.
Have a great sober day, wherever you are.
Goodnight.
Day 22
Today I went to my office since a long time and saw a few colleagues of mine in real live and not via a screen. Almost immediately I was invited to have some drinks next week when the weather is finally better. I answered quasi-nonchalant that I want to be sober for a year to see how that goes. They responded not quite as I expected and were very positive about it. One said, I often take a break bc I get so tired of drinking, another said ‘oh that’s great, I should do that too cuz I can’t stop once I start’. So, that’s a big relief!
Then 2 hours later, my manager came in with a present that looked like a bottle of wine. A thank-you for all employees for the hard work. For a moment, all kind of thoughts and emotions were swirling around. When I was alone I took a deep breath and opened it. Inside there was a bottle with salt and ginger for a foot bath to relax after a hard workday. This was my second relief hahaha. Weird way to start off at work.
Have a good evening all of you out there sober and all. And many congrats on all the milestones, makes me very happy to read them!
Did y’all see the lunar eclipse last night!? It blow my mind how amazing our universe is and how the astronomers know so far in advance what’s happening in our orbit is wizdary that I’m yet to figure out
I woke up at 5.50am with no alarm. This makes me happy to know I’m falling asleep by ten pm easily and waking up well rested and naturally with no alarm. Small wins before I get out of bed add up
Coffee. Journal. Meditate.
Then work at 10am.
I just realized, I havnt done any on line shopping for about 6 weeks or so. No parcels delivered I think I’m well and truly on top of that cheeky habit lol I do need to buy a laptop though coz now that OTP class has gone on to zoom indefinitely with this latest outbreak happening, I need a lap top to do zoom on. Will do some research today and see if I can get a reasonably priced one soon. I know I wouldn’t use a laptop for anything else, I just don’t use computer’s for anything. Maybe I should just get a tablet instead…
Checking in May 26 so this morning was crazy I live with my family now so that means I see more of my father whom is still in heavy chains of this poison he was negative and opened past wounds that made me loose control of my emotions and it’s rare now that I loose control like that and I had thoughts of using again but I’m stronger then that and this situation won’t stop me iam 17 days sober as of Today and iam very proud of that
289 days no alcohol.
257 days no cocaine
12 days no binge-eating.
Swimming was so nice this morning, there were only 3 of us in the lane today, instead of 5, it was much less awkward and so much more enjoyable.
Then the engineer came to sort the washer dryer out, the drain was blocked so that’s all that was wrong and he sorted it really quickly, so I’ve done some washing today
I was supposed to be visiting my brother tonight as it was their 7th wedding anniversary yesterday so I wanted to take their card, but when I got in my car and pressed the button for the electric gates, I realised that my fob wasn’t working I opened it up and all the switchboard inside is corroded, then I remembered I went swimming with my keys in my pocket yesterday so it’s my own fault and my car is trapped in the car park, need to get it sorted or a new one asap
The cold tap and the heater in the bathroom are also not working, so trying to arrange tradesmen for those jobs too. I’m not too stressed about these things but it will be nice once it’s all in working order.
I need to contact my creditors soon as I haven’t heard from them for a couple of months and they said I’d be receiving letters but I haven’t, and I redirected my mail so I know I haven’t missed any. It’s my last 2 debts so will be good to have them sorted out.
I didn’t fancy a warm meal tonight so I ate cereal, then I ate cereal again an hour later, it’s healthy cereal, oats and pea protein, and I don’t consider it a binge, I was genuinely hungry and one bowl probably isn’t equal to the nutrition in the ready meals I usually eat, but will stick to the program from now on as I don’t want to sway off track.
Laptops are pretty reasonable. I broke down and bought one specifically for all the zoom meetings I do. Plus, it helps with responding on TS. You are doing so well, April. I always look forward to your check-ins.
@apes2020 Bloody cloudy here so couldn’t see the lunar eclipse😭. I always want to see these things, but forget, so the time I remembered still couldn’t see it. I have been online shopping a bit recently, easy to fall into. Not super expensive stuff, but it adds up, and is not mentally healthy.
its gone by SO fast.
and iam very proud of that 
I opened it up and all the switchboard inside is corroded, then I remembered I went swimming with my keys in my pocket yesterday so it’s my own fault and my car is trapped in the car park, need to get it sorted or a new one asap 
I’ve been sober for 4 months! Woohoo! 