Treat the business growth as a time of growth for yourself 
you couldn’t handle this with the booze and imagine how much harder it could have been, serious downtime and recharge your batteries is a good plan I’d say!
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Great job April ! One month already time flies ! Keep taking care of yourself proud of you!
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Day 331.
Yesterday sucked. Sucked bad. And the voices kicked in, the “I am not enough” voices. The “I don’t do enough, and what I do do sucks, I suck at everything” voices. Really, the day was just a perfect mix of a whole bunch of stressors, and me not getting a great sleep the night before. I know this. In the before time, though, I’d have poured wine down my throat to silence it all. Last night (when the same voices were working on me to go get a bottle) I napped after dinner and then went to bed.
Today? The stressors are still there, but the “I suck at everything” voices are off in the distance. Waking up sober means I can outrun those big dumb meanies… 
Had I drank last night? Today would have been fundamentally different…
I cling to this. To every morning I wake up relieved that I am not digging myself out of shame and regret.
What doesn’t suck? Sharing another day with you.
G’night, big love to all. 
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I love your check-ins. Rest well in the mountains, friend.
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I made 5 months so happy with this milestone. This is my longest stint ever… this attempt is different I don’t want to drink, I can’t and I don’t. I can’t relapse it will ruin my mind, I read my journal regularly of my last relapse and it certainly keeps me on the path of sobriety. My anguish screams out in my writing.
I want to thank you all with your posts and support, I take valuable snippets daily.
My interview went well, I gave it my best, they commented you could see my passion for keeping people housed. Fingers crossed 
if I don’t get it that life there was someone better. Yes will be disappointed as perfect role, but there will be others.
@Eleven17 congratulations on 4 months 
@Dragonflygirl82 your break sounds perfect nature and peace 
@M-be-free49 great work getting through a shitty day and what a great reward waking up knowing you ticked off another day.
@Best_Me I loved reading your post, read twice, I tend to act irrationally at situations, so I am going to practice turning events on its head. Thank you
Have a great day everyone, you are amazing
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Congratulations and I have everything crossed for the job role!!
Checking on on Day 42. Really tired but glad it is nearly the weekend and grateful for a week of socialising that has included zero alcohol.
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Day 3 
I’m going to do this again
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Thank you 
and isn’t it good feeling no alcohol! Your days are racking up well done.
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Yes you are 
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Congratulations! 5 months was a personal best for me too! And after that I kept on going, sure u will too!
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Thank you, I am praying so… 
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Feel free to hire me and il happily move to america foreverrrrrrr hehe! 
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Congrats Marie, keep on keeping on ODAAT! 
Blessings and sobriety!
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Calling in another sober day at 510.
I had a nice uneventful day and went to the beach by myself this afternoon. I was wondering why I always had to get a good buzz on before doing any fun activities like going to the beach or the movies or basically going anywhere. Always had to have a good buzz on. It was very enjoyable just me and the beach and my new love of “just for today sobriety.”
Welp I’m probably not drinking tomorrow.
@Hopeful777
Congratulations on your 5 months Marie. 
Great accomplishment. Every sober day is a little miracle we’re all worth.
One day
Or
Day one
We get to decide. We can do this together. 
@Dragonflygirl82
Courtney great job recognizing you need a break. The restaurant business can be one mean ruthless son of a bitch that will take advantage of you everyday. It shows no mercy. You keep taking those breaks. I’m sure you’ve earned them. Whatever it takes to stay sober.
@M-be-free49
M it’s great to realize those voices don’t mean shit when we’re sober. We get to tell them to bugger off. And we wake up feeling better and better each day. I hope you’re already counting sheep getting a better nights sleep tonight. Tomorrow will be even better.
And @Eleven17 congrats running up 4 months free from alcohol. That’s beautiful.
Stay sober folks. Wherever or whenever your are.
Drinking makes us look ugly
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Thank you Joy , and I will… love your numbers you have always been so steady in your recovery 
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Thank you Eric and it feels like a miracle for sure. I love your quote “drinking makes us look ugly” hits the nail on the head, so absolutely true. I am saving that.
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Day 13 out the way. Previously a risk day as it was my PB that had the potential to be seen as a target to complete and then reward myself with a drink. I’m just so relieved that things seem different now and I’m pushing on. I put a lot of it down to coming here every day multiple times to read others experience and knowing I’m part of a community.
Day 14 today, like yesterday it could be seen as a risk day because I have no work today. However, I do consider myself busy because I’ve set myself goals for the day - things I want to achieve for my growth and enjoyment. Just reading, exercise and time time with my wife.
I’m reading a book atm called “the Humans” by Matt Haig. Here’s a bit I thought addressed some really cool ideas:
“That it will never come again is what makes life so sweet” - Emily Dickinson.
…the earth’s moon was a dead place, with no way of healing its scars…not like earth or its inhabitants. I was amazed at how time mended things so quickly on this planet. I looked at Isabel. It was ridiculous I know but a human in its own small way was a miraculous achievement in mathematical terms. For a start, it wasn’t very likely that Isabel’s parents would have met. And even when they did, the chances of them having a baby would have been pretty slim given the numerous mishaps surrounding the human dating process. Her mother would have had about 100,000 eggs ovulating inside her and her father about 5 trillion sperms during that same length of time. But even then…even that 1 in 500 million million million chance of existing was a terrible understatement. And did nowhere near the coincidence of a human life justice. You see, when you look at a human face, you have to comprehend the luck that brought that person there. Isabel Martin had a total of a 150,000 generations before her. And that only includes the Humans! That is a 150,000 increasingly unlikely copulations resulting in increasingly unlikely children. That is a 1 in quadrillion chance X 1 in quadrillion chance multiplied by every generation. Or about 20,000 x as many atoms in the universe. Even that though, was only the start of it. As humans had only been around for about 3 million earth years, certainly a very short time compared to the 3.5 billion years since life first appeared on this planet. Therefore, mathematically, there was no chance atall that Isabel Martin (insert your name here) could have existed. A zero in ten to the power of forever chance. And yet, there she was in front of me. And I was quite taken aback by it all I really was…"
He then goes on to say how love gives meaning to our existence. We can apply that to be mean love of our partner, of our children, of our community but most importantly ourselves. To Foster a gratitude that we are even here, to me at least, forces me to try to be better so as to fully appreciate the gift we were so lucky to get!!
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Checking in on day 36. Still enjoying beautiful holidays. Hope you all are having a beautiful sober day 
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It seems likely that the state of emergency, and so the online classes will continue. Maintaining motivation is tough. Gonna have to really dig deep and use time productively.
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I hear you, Fleur. We are looking at a phased return. Some classes online and some in person. At least there’s a bit of variety. Motivation is a real issue, though. Just can’t be bothered today.
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