@Girlinterrupted
I’m so fucking happy for you!!!
Congrats, you have worked so hard for this!!!
I love you.
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The best part of waking up on TS is knowing someone achieved something fantastic and looking for that persons post. And today is your day Beth. I never saw it coming 
You are an incredible person.
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Day 15 done. Day 16 today. I’ve really been struggling today and yesterday but holding firm. I’m not sure if it’s just my habitual mindset of wanting to go back to something “regular” “normal” “comforting”… or if its a response to new emotions coming up or the new baby coming any day now. Im so so excited to be a dad, and cannot wait to hold my son and my wife on my arms and give him all the love I didn’t have but there is this tremendous feeling that looms over me. Usually I thrive on change! But now I’m getting sober, this is an invisible, unidentifiable, terrifying feeling of love and fear in equal measure. I speak to my wife a lot about it and she to me. We work through it, but it’s there… I think we just need him to come now. The twiddling the thumbs and waiting is killing me (I always was an impatient child- instant gratification is a common trait of my generation and below I guess). Just need to be…Notice, observe and be… cannot wait to meet him.
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I haven’t checked in in a while but I’ve been watching and silently cheering everyone on. six months and 8 days sober and feeling clear headed and blessed. 
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I am a little tiny bit envious, Alex. Your life will never be the same again. Enjoy it.
We spent this time making a video diary to our eldest daughter in which we told her how excited we were to meet her. It was magic. It was lovely showing it to her when she was about 11.
You’ve got me all nostalgic.
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@anon27760155 really sorry you’re struggling, but glad you’re working through it with specialist help 
@M-be-free49 I really enjoy the way you write your posts
@Beforemy30s good luck for the next week, it all sounds very special, enjoy it authentically
@SoberWalker sorry about the bird attack, and the pain from your father, but congratulations on the recognition from work, and for staying sober 
@Girlinterrupted Yay! Congrats on your soberversary 
@Mephistopheles cool number 
@Jamie3 congrats on 6+ months
291 days no alcohol.
259 days no cocaine.
2 weeks no binge-eating.
My last record for binge-eating was 13 days, and that was whilst seriously restricting, which I now understand was part of the bulimia nervosa cycle. This time is different, I am eating healthy meals and snacks at 6 scheduled regular times throughout the day, I have no desire to binge, no urges for take-aways or junk food, and I feel so free from the obsessive compulsive disordered eating behaviours, I also haven’t used laxatives during this time. I can’t believe how quickly this specific therapy has worked on me, no therapy has ever worked in regards to my anxiety or depression, but for this it’s been life-changing! 
The therapist is off this week but I feel strong.
I also can’t believe I’m actually going swimming every day 
this is something I’ve been wanting to pick back up for over a decade! But my feelings towards my body have prevented me. Starting to recover from the ED has illuminated so much self-loathing, that I honestly believe that’s what’s helped me feel able to start swimming.
Swimming is amazing, as a water sign, I feel at home in water, and it’s so great to be able to do an exercise that doesn’t cause any pain
The depression has definitely lifted somewhat since I’ve been going swimming, but it still comes in waves so I think I need to start doing something in the afternoons too, so I’m going to ask for a gym induction so I can start doing some cycling on a stationary bike.
Another Recovery Coordinator job has came up in the place where I’ve applied twice already, I didn’t even get an interview the second time and it’s the same person overseeing the applications this time. I want to be brave and make a new application but I have really lost confidence after so many disappointing outcomes from my interviews over the past 18 months.
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HAPPY SOBER ANNIVERSARY Beth, you’re killin it girl! Keep on sobering on ODAAT! 
Blessings and sobriety!
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Checking in at the end of day 145.
Went to see friends. They, and Mrs Singtone, all drank. It was fine. Had a lovely evening.
Have a great sober day, wherever you are.
Goodnight. 
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Day 2 sleeping all day. Girls don’t want to listen and I get it. I got a tattoo to do once they leave, two tomorrow, one Sunday and 3 monday. Hopefully I can get on the groove
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- Hard to have a bad day here
We came down with Ms. Monkey’s bff and her husband. He drinks heavy and smokes pot. Nothing made him happy, something was wrong with everything. He was constantly walking off to get a hit. I would have been the same had I been drinking.
Personally, cant find anything wrong with vacation in Key West. Ms. Monkey and I are already planning on coming back.
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Some unsolicited advice, or just a suggestion, Tyler: I’ve been in your shoes regarding job applications at the same employer, and I followed advice my dad gave me before applying a third time and contacted the hiring manager before applying. A phone call, or in my case an email, expressing interest and asking for some feedback on previous applications. It can’t hurt to try, and it shows your intention to improve yourself as well as your chances for an interview. Good luck with whatever you decide, and I’m so very happy for your progress so far! You’ve come a long way.
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Glad you’re having such a good time!
Man that was exactly how I was on vacation when I was drinking. Angry and stressed and anxious all the time, trying to think of when and where I could get my next drink. Thank God that’s over.
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Oh, Eric. I’m sorry. I should have thought about that being a downer story. Big time! I felt bad all day. Texted with my friend. First pet loss. Doesn’t matter if you’ve lost 1 or 100…each one hurts.
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You win!
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I second that! I hire a lot of people. Ms. Monkey is a recruiter for the same company. Touching base with the hiring manager will always get you to the head of the line. However, I have moved people to the back of the line based on their attitude and personality. So, when you talk to the hiring manager…treat it as an interview. Neat clean clothes and respect goes along way in that initial contact.
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One whole year!!! What an accomplishment!! Huge congratulations to you!
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No worries from my end. I definitely need to learn to deal with my feelings about this subject sober. It’s just so hard.
I just love all animals so much. People? Meh 
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Congratulations! Way to go!
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Let’s try that again lol… Congrats on one year!!! 
no idea why I typed 100 last night lol. Anyway, this is even better !!! 
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