Yes indeed!! We are making a similar video diary about the journey of his mum and dad and how he came to be! You’ve just reminded me to make more videos in the build up. Wife is having period pains today which we understand to be a sign that things are starting to happen!!!
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Wow. So exciting. I don’t have a great memory, but I remember the birth of our first daughter like it was yesterday. I’m tearing up just thinking about it. Such a magic time. So emotional.
There’s a hormone that your body has managed to keep secret from you for your entire life up until this point. It’s pointless me trying to describe it because I’m nowhere near articulate enough, but you’ll know it when you feel it. An overwhelming feeling of being protective, being proud, being overjoyed, and a love like you never imagined was possible. Enjoy it, my friend. 
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Early check in today. After being encouraged, if not necessarily delighted, that the school that I work at was doing a staged return (50% of students in at any one time, staff able to go in to work), the rug has just been pulled. Full time remote learning again for (a minimum of) another two weeks from Monday. Gutted is an understatement.
My first thought was to get wasted this afternoon! I am going to visit friends with my wife. The three of them will be drinking and wanting to know why I’m not.
With a likelihood of remote learning until the end of the academic year in early July, and then a six week summer holiday, in which I’m not allowed to travel home - I’m basically free until late August. Three months with little or no responsibility…
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Day 6. Check.
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You know what to do and you are stronger than you think. Do your recovery work and you will be successful in your sobriety. I won’t offer advice because I’ve caved and regret it but you don’t have to take that path. I believe in you!
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YAY!!! A new place to live, that is so awesome!
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For me in the uni holidays I make a plan. Sobriety activity in the morning, then schedule work related stuff, exercise, personal development, not forgetting relax time. There are so many free or cheap online courses.
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Thanks @RosaCanDo and @Misokatsu. I’m not planning to drink, so there’s no need to worry about me. I just hate it. I also find it interesting that the first response of my badly conditioned brain is to reach for the booze. The good thing is that I can now recognise this as a conditioned response just like the others that I’ve had and ignored. It’s just like getting a Tuesday off work and spending it by getting hammered on the Monday evening - but just on a bigger scale.
I’m just feeling a little bit sorry for myself. This too shall pass.
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Don’t feel that you shouldn’t or that you can’t offer advice, Rosa. Your advice is always sound and wise and it comes from a very generous and caring place. No amount of slip ups would change that.
In any case, if I understand your slip up correctly, I’m not sure that I would be beating myself up too much about it.
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Definitely feeling cranky today. Some of it is not me (I don’t think I am being a princess when I want the toilet door shut after my husband takes a shit and it is meal time and the toilet is smelling distance from the table), but am feeling sensitive and eating too much. I did get my son (12) to prepare dinner as practice. It took patience to watch him take 3x the time to do it half as well. But he needs training to be independent, bit by bit.
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Ha. We should be exempt from parenting duties for the next 10 years, or until we can learn to drink moderately - whichever comes sooner.
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Didn’t realise you used to be a lurker, so glad you dipped your toes in the water. It’s a far better place for it 
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awesome work 
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Absolutely! One day when upset I found myself hovering in the kitchen, wanting a drink or food or SOMETHING. Always looking outside myself for comfort and acceptance.
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A 4 is sober longer than a 3, congratulations on your . 34 its great
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It’s funny though, I don’t know about you, but I’ve surprised myself recently by being a (tiny) bit wiser, and a (teeny) bit more patient in my interactions with my kids. Sometimes the words even come out of my mouth in the right order.
I’m not going to say I’m a (slightly) better parent, or anything as self-aggrindising as that, but there is definitely something weird going on. I wonder what’s causing it? 
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Oh, I will come out and say I am a better parent when not drinking. So irritable when hungover, or hiding drinking! Or I would let them do things because it was easier and I wanted to be left alone. I am so ashamed.
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Let’s not dwell on the shame. I try not to think about it. Let’s just never go back.
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