- Coffee. Weekend. Spring. I was planning on a bike ride but my bestie called wanting to do something together and we haven’t seen each other for quite a while due to her not being her best. So a change of plan. I can ride tomorrow too. Priorities.
One thing that’s not going to change is my commitment to staying sober and clean. Because all good that is happening in my life comes from that. There’s still a lot of bad shit too but at least I have the opportunity to work on making it all a bit better. One day at a time. Have a good weekend all, or at least as good as you can. Clean and sober is a big part of that. Love from Amsterdam where the buttercups are out in force.
@Dolse71 & @AyBee That’s a cool (metric) ton together guys! Huge congrats!
@Misokatsu That’s cool stuff Flo. If there’s one thing I’m grateful to my mother for it’s her teaching me the basics of cooking.
@Soundlab You’ll be fine Matt I’m sure. Physical stuff without booze before or after actually is much nicer. You’ll find out. Enjoy.
@Joyce19 I’m glad you’re here Joyce. It’s ODAAT for all of us.
@Clarity Stella said exactly what I wanted to say too. Very happy and exited for you that this opportunity is on your path.
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Day 505. It’s a not so eventfull saturday. The kind of saturday that I’d spend drunk. Because I don’t feel like doing anything.
I am meeting some friends this afternoon to hang out. Know that feeling your exited to see your friends but also just wanne lock yourself up in the house and drink? that feeling is back. Haven’t had that in a long time…
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Sounds like a lot of fun man! Wish I could surf haha.
I’m confident you can break that habbit! Just enjoy yourself on a beautiful day! Have fun
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Checking in, day 205. I have an overwhelming desire to isolate myself, I want to be detached from my best friend, want her to leave me alone, want to leave TS, to push everyone away, to do anything to be disconnected. I don’t understand why. I know, that I should fight it, so I share it here and won’t leave (I guess I couldn’t do that anyway). But I don’t know what’s happening.
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Hey all, checking in on day 349. I hope everyone has a relaxing and sober weekend!
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Congratulation man! Fuck fentanyl!
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I get like this often. I’m very introverted and I tend to need quiet. When I find myself in this space, I give myself what I need. My friends understand that when I drop off for a few days or weeks, it’s because I need quiet. I have one friend who is just exhausting. She sucks the life force out of me. I love her dearly, but she’s a lot. She knows that when I disappear, it’s just because I need a reset and does not take it personally.
Listen to what you need for your own emotional health. I think this place is obviously important, but allow yourself what makes you feel better and reset a bit. For me, as simple as it sounds, just being outside is very helpful. I hope you feel better soon 
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Day 351 clean and sober today. Going to go get some tattoo work done and then off to band practice. It’s the first time the entire band will be together to jam in 2 years yikes!!! Hope everyone has a wonderful day today, love you guys!!! 
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Rob, what was that rash on your arm the other day? Sorry if you posted it already!
That’s exciting playing with your band!! 
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Glad to hear it, and thanks, Tony. I am sort of loathe to give advice generally. I can absolutely relate to what you’re describing. It’s sucks, doesn’t it?
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Love it April thank you for sharing!
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Hi Donna! It turned out to be broken blood vessels 
it’s all healed up now though. Super weird, I have no idea happened lol
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Good to see you too man. Yeah, I’m back on the forum for now. Nice to know some people miss me LOL.
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Just joined the community. 5 Days Sober and working on 6 today. Great to find this support.
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Checking in substance free for…
Once again the reality of our disease has slapped me in the face and I am watching another person I care about fall through the cracks. This has been the story of my life. Watching people either die slowly, or quickly. Be pulled from twisted cars, unable to be brought back from ODs, or their hearts, livers or brains just couldn’t take the fucking abuse anymore. Their organs shut down or they ended up killing themselves. I can’t even count how many friends have died due to addiction… I have lost count.
For those of you who are not the ones who have relapsed after having a good chunk of clean time under your belt. Believe us when we say it is fucking HARD to get back. HARDER than before… something happens. You think that you can just pick right up where you left off but you can’t. Your disease has been building inside you that whole time you have been clean… getting strong just like you have. It’s so hard to get back, and you have so much more shame for “failing”. It’s harder to get back after a good chunk of time…lots don’t ever get back.
When I cleaned up from meth 16 years ago I didn’t surround myself with other addicts. I didn’t see the value in it. First of all I thought it was bullshit that any addict was clean… and if they were they definitely weren’t an addict like I was. I didn’t want to be around anyone that potentially could disrupt my cleantime… little did I know that the biggest threat to that was myself. Little did I know that other addicts falling off the rails was the biggest value to me staying on the straight and narrow because it scares me to fucking death.
I am grateful I made it back 17 months ago, I am grateful I tried something different and I pray for all the addicts still suffering.
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Thanks man. Probably won’t be zooming much, unfortunately.
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Congrats Dan super accomplishment.
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618 Days. It’s a long holiday weekend here in the US and I have no big plans but that’s ok. My woman’s AA meeting tonight is celebrating a lady with 39 years. We’ll be taking my mother in law out for her birthday dinner tomorrow. I chair a Monday night meeting and I had no intention of opening this week. Well, it just struck me hard that a newcomer may just need that meeting being it is a holiday. How effing selfish is it for me to think everyone would be fine without it? I’ll be there with a smile to run that meeting no matter what.
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Congrats Paul!!!
You must be noticing a drastic improvement in your lung capacity by now hey???
Great job on your recovery.
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