Back in the day whenever days like these would come along I’d drink until I would vomit…
to not feel the loneliness. And to keep myself busy. Booze would keep my mind occupied with other things.
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I’m here, I’m alive and I’m sober.
Day 273
Thanks everyone for your condolences.
Now it’s been over a week since dad died.
And as you guys knows by now, things seems to happen at once here. Murphy’s law in live action.
I’m the most practical one in my family, and that’s almost nothing that can break me down. So when Pa died I rushed to my parents house to help out and comfort Ma. My siblings and my uncle came to. We do look at death a little differently than a lot of people so I’m not really sad. I think Pa is still with us, and he definitely have showed that he is. So I did all the practical stuff Ma doesn’t have a clue how to do. Including the economy. I made sure that the bills and the loans got payed. Ma and Pa owns my house together and I’ve been renting if from Pa for years. Paying triple for what the loans costs, so they house account should be well stocked. It isn’t, it’s empty. It showed that Pa had used a lot of money buying stocks from what we believe is a scam company. So now we’re trying to get that money back. The good thing is that I’m in charge from now on and can make sure that there’s money for future renovations.
The old lady we’re helping had a stroke last week,and is still at the hospital. She’ll probably been getting out from there next week with and oxygen tank. (I don’t now the right English term here) and she’ll be assigned to her new apartment directly with the help from home care services. Leaving us to Finnish everything at her old house.
The good thing with that is, that she won’t be sleeping on our sofa anymore, and that we don’t have to work as caregivers. She’ll also get all the help she needs professionally.
Tweenie is decided to be moved to her old foster care home. They couple that abandoned her at the child psychiatrc hospital. They where the only ones they could find that was willing to take in tweenie, and the only place tweenie wanted to be at. So they doubled their pay to have her and gave them a better deal. It kinda sucks, and not even the social services thinks it’ll work. But the good thing with that is, that the social services is taking full responsibility. If it doesn’t work out she’ll be assigned to a locked youth care facility by law. The other good think with that is that they’re going to move her the first day of the summer holiday, and that way we can still have the planned Yes-day with the boys. And they’ll have a chance to charge their batteries and get a well needed break during the summer holiday. And none of us have to worry about them being in jeopardy anymore.
Another good thing is that we’ve managed to save up enough money to afford the entire Yes-day, with hotel costs and all. And that the weather is amazing. I have to admit that I always get some cravings for beer and nachos when the sun shines. Or pizza, so I had a non alcoholic gluten-free beer yesterday,with some vegan Cheese and Jalapeño chips. It was delicious.
I hope your Sunday is awesome. And I’m sorry for not being able to keep you guys updated. I couldn’t find the time until now.
Thank you once again for all your support, you guys are amazing 
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Ah Beth sorry I missed your day… but I am so so super proud of you… congratulations on 1 year
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154 days completed
2nd Jab had really knocked me out, been sleeping so much, felt thick headed and starting to feel more normal, which is good. The weather is amazing, sitting in my garden reading my book. Kayaking and river swimming planned for tomorrow so I am looking forward to that.
Catching up on the last 2 days, so to those who have hit milestones, I salute you 
Keep strong all and have an accomplished sober day
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Surely your mind is more able to entertain itself if it is clear and sharp.
Drinking is the easy option, sure - but it isn’t the best option.
Read a book. Watch Netflix. Go for a walk. Call your parents. There are literally hundreds of things that you can do. Drinking is just the easiest.
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Had a great day so far . Resisted the urge to drink and take cocaine last night while watching champions League final with friends . Came home sober , woke up nice and early today and spent some time with my sister playing tennis and having some breakfast . 45 days now with no cocaine and a month with no alcohol . Using this app has been a great help so far . Cheers 
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I understand the loneliness and that can be so tough, but sometimes when I feel it, I have to get out and do something…walk, explore, got to a different town nearby and sit somewhere to read or write…just change the scenery to change the thought patterns. That is just what works for me.
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Still on day 7.
Finally I had talked to my boyfriend. I told him, no more wine anymore. He looked at me and just said “great”. So he is supporting me - as usual, I have to say. And this showed me that he had seen in our long-distance relationship since almost 1 year, that I drink more than him.
We didn’t make a big thing of it.
That’s what I like and need for now. I can go on with my decision of staying sober without feeling under pressure to drink when we are spending time together.
He just chared a bottle of water with me, without any further questions.
Without any alcoholic drink for him either.
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Drink two pints of water as a starting point. That will give you some time to think.
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Do you have a car? Go for a drive. Get onto a zoom meeting.
Just don’t pick up, Jonathan. Don’t do it.
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Checking in today with the focus of appreciating the time off with no hangover or wrangling of my life to drink and wreck the weekend as that is exactly what would happen. Enjoying being able to just breathe and live and be at peace. My stress level in general has decreased since sobriety and I can tell it’s due to more mindfulness, feeling the feels and letting them go, and getting quality sleep nightly. I really want to maintain that and see where that can take me as it sure as he’ll has to be better than how I’ve been living until now.
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Very nice!
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I drank some water and a book, went outside to read it. That helps a little.
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Take a jug of water with you and take big satisfying chugs of it as you’re reading. When you finish it, pop back inside and fill it up.
You will feel so triumphant when your head hits your pillow tonight and you are sober. You’ll feel even better in the morning. Come on. Fight.
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You are right! And I do have to get up super early tomorrow morning so a hangover is the last thing I’d need then!
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Checking in on day 350. I hope everyone in the US is having a good and safe Memorial Day weekend and I hope everyone elsewhere is enjoying their non-holiday weekend!
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Good morning! Getting ready to take a Pilates class at HOTWORX, my new passion. Exercising in a sauna. I think I just enjoy torturing myself. 
Kidding! This is good torture! Hope everyone is having a great day.
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Day 352 clean and sober today. Gotta get to the gym today and get busy getting better. I hope everyone has a wonderful day today, I love you guys! 
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Checking in at the end of day 147.
Today is Mother’s Day in France, and my wife is French, so we have been celebrating in our house for most of the day.
Had a lovely breakfast (croissants, pain au chocolate, brioche, etc.), then a raclette for lunch - which is our family’s favourite meal. Our eldest daughter made a beautiful cake for dessert, and Mrs Singtone got a few nice little gifts. I did the dishes, whilst listening to a Shair podcast. Happy days!
Who needs alcohol?
Have a great sober day, wherever you are.
Goodnight. 
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