Ah nasty shock for your daughter wishing her a speedy recovery with bump on head…
I used to do the exact same re drinking in morn etc so awfully exhausting planning it and failing… its liberating not having that worry when you hear a knock on door… good feeling Fleur 
Loving the view of all the trees… enjoy time with your bestie and good luck with your therapy session💯
@anon27760155 great to hear you so happy and positive enjoy that we’ll deserved ice-cream
@Singtone congratulations on 5 months 
@hazy amazing job on reaching 60 days so happy for you.
@Rockstar24777 so good you have been signposted to relevant support groups from your friends on here… your never alone 
@Its_me_Stella well balanced numbers for your check in… you doing fantastic
Good morning. Day number 2, definitely tired and it’s crappy out so I’m gonna take the day to relax a little. Much love everyone
Day 74 - Alcohol & Day 36 - weed. Feeling better today. Sorry about my “pity party” posts for the past couple of days. Watched some YouTube vids. Started on a new project. Nothing much.
Congrats on 11 days!! 
I’ve done some of the same things which has been helpful but still adjusting. I’ve been eating a healthy breakfast/lunch (which I never did before since it was substituted with alcohol) but the dinner I kind of cheat a little and eat junky. To me right now anything is a win as long as I don’t pick up!
Well done keep it up🙂
Congrats on 5 months…that’s awesome!!
Dang this is awesome!! So cool. All these milestones give me such motivation!
Well done!
1 month sober. I see so many wonderful numbers adding up in this thread. Makes me really happy! The big round numbers are so impressive. But also the ones who start again and just keep coming back here, I’m certain it will make your sober muscle stronger.
Today I told the best friend of my husband that I’m 31 days sober. He is sober for 10 months and is the only person in my inner circle who also drank way too much. It was the first time I talked about it and smiled so hard. I felt so proud of myself and could show that to him. When I talk about it with others I’m hiding my excitement and other feelings, just act if it’s very normal for me to not drink. So was great to let it out!
I gave myself a treat, and bought the ‘law of attraction planner’. Tomorrow I have the day off and will write down my goals and stuff. Looking forward to work on this.
Have a very good evening everyone!
That is wonderful, congrats!!
And that my friend is how you slay 5 months of recovery!
Well done, I see you reaching out when you need help, offering a ton of support, being honest with your loved ones about where you are at in your head and heart and those are all ingredients for success.
Great job, really happy to be on this journey with you.
@anon27760155 I know right! 
@littlemisschatterbox thank you 
@apes2020 thank you and I’m proud of you for saving instead of spending
@dalex77 so please to hear you made it through that 
@Ken37 welcome back 
congrats on 63 days 
@Misokatsu sorry to hear about your daughter’s fall, I hope the bump goes down soon and she’s feeling okay 
@Hailstrom good luck with completing 
and congrats on the recognition at work
@Hazy congrats on 60 days
@Rockstar24777 I’m so pleased you’ve found some mutual support groups
@Sanuk congrats on your month
297 days no alcohol.
265 days no cocaine.
20 days no binge-eating.
Therapy was pretty tough today. Teams wouldn’t let me access the meeting, so for the first 15mins we were on the phone trying to make different links work, before deciding just to do today’s session over the phone as a one-off, I’m going to uninstall then reinstall the Teams app and test it ahead of the session. If it doesn’t work I suggested Zoom instead. This week’s change is I now have to add an ‘after food’ with 2 of my main meals, something like a yoghurt or fruit. I have also been having an extra bowl of cereal late at night since I added in the gym on Monday and I have been feeling really bad about that despite it not being a binge, she said that I need to eat a bigger meal when I’ve been to the gym and swimming, as if I’m still hungry after dinner and a snack, my body is signalling that my energy is too depleted. I find it so stressful not knowing what to eat, the reason the ready meals have been mostly working is because I know they are an ideal portion and are healthy foods so it’s easier not to feel bad about them. It’s embarrassing but I have very minimal and basic cooking skills, so I don’t know where to start with preparing a proper substantial meal, and in the past when I’ve made pasta, I know I always make too much and then eat too much because I hate waste, and then I’d just feel bad. So she’s going to speak to their dietician and get either some advice to pass on to me, or a session face to face with me. I tried to vocalise that I recognise my progress and consider it an achievement, but don’t know how to express myself, but she still said she felt like it was only her feeling the joy 
I really didn’t feel like rushing off to the gym straight after the session, so I’ve taken the day off from exercising. Then ten mins after I was due to leave, an Amazon delivery arrived that I’d forgotten all about, so the universe had my back it would seem
Really struggling with the 2 very distant and only remaining friendships that I have. I never feel that I can say how I feel, I feel that they are both being self-righteous most of the time, and also the things they say often feel very invalidating. It makes my headspace not a nice place to be.
I received an email back from the recovery place saying they were unable to give feedback on previous applications, so I’ve decided not to apply there again. But I did reapply for the NHS job, I reworked my previous application and elaborated a bit more, so we’ll see if I get an interview this time
@manishc no need to apologize for your “woe is me” posts — that’s how you really felt in the moment and it’s better to be honest and public about it than privately deceptive. that way you can reflect with greater clarity. i’m glad you’re feeling better 
day 3! i had an awesome breakthrough today — ONE OF MANY REASONS that i felt resistant to sobriety because it felt like a “rule” and i feel like somewhat of a “rebel”, so i would say “oh you want me to get sober? BORING! i enjoy being sick and twisted, i enjoy being a hedonist in this world of tedious plastic conformity!!” today i realized that by committing to the role of “addict” i WAS playing by a rule, and actually i was conforming to the same world i “addict-rationalized” that i was rebelling against: the world of warfare and division, the world of manipulation and coercion, the world of slavery and profit — THATS the world i was serving, conforming to, and whose rules i was playing by, when i was shackled in the chains of addiction. NOW that i see this clearly, i can honor my rebel nature by rebelling THAT broken world, a rebel to the “rules” of violence, coercion, debilitation and victimhood, shame, regret and guilt (addiction in a nutshell) — rebel against a world addicted to addiction, attached to attachment. i/we can choose to fight instead for FREEDOM. by doing this we are literally liberating ourselves — and everyone we touch! i get it now. 
I relate to a ton of this. We become slaves to what we thoughtlessly consume.
My realizations on day 3 have usually been no longer than two words.
Pain big. Life hard. Endless groaning. You get the picture.
”pain big. life hard. endless groaning.” okay i relate to those FOR SURE 
Wow great job Charlie welcome to the club!!! It’s amazing to see what you can do in life if you put your mind to it 
Dude I’m so fuckin happy you’re doing better in life, the best days are still ahead my friend and I’m glad you are that much closer to a whole year
Day 305 and besides the heat and sweating to death 
it is an amazing day! I remember I used to show up to work hung over and work all day in this heat and I would die, I’m so grateful that I shaped my shit up