Day 50!!!
I’m so thrilled to reach another significant number. I know I will get to 60 soon. And then 3 months. I won’t look much further yet, but I feel sure of myself as I’m continuing to work on it every day.
Still on holiday having the most amazing time exploring Scotland. Here is a picture of a beach we stumbled across yesterday with deer on 
(granted you have to zoom very close to see ha!)…
Day 12. Check.
It would be glowing and fully acknowledging what a wonderful person you are and how your irreplaceable!
50 days and you’re on Holiday!!
Wow. What kind of amazing is this!!
You’re a pillar of strength and determination A.
Good for you.
Congratulations
Day 75 - alcohol & day 37 - weed. Went for a motorcycle ride today after a really long time. Had to remove cobwebs from my bike 
There’s lockdown going on. So couldn’t find ride far but it felt good. I should do this more often. Listened to some Janis Joplin. Felling better today. Sleep cycle is still erratic.
I just love the way you write! Really nice the way you set a sphere or mood in your writings.
I read somewhere, by the way, that mosquito’s are very fond of persons with alcohol in their blood. I hope they will leave me alone now.
Day 989 
Set another profile picture on my Facebook account. It shows a bit of my tattoos I’m proud to wear. An ex colleague reacted by saying I was a very pretty lady but she was sorry to see I mutilated my arms with ink. Well, I didn’t asked for her approval ore opinion and I told her so.
You may think whatever you want and you do not have to like my tattoos, but you do not have to share everything you think 
So now I have one Facebook “friend” less and I’m not going to miss her! I’ve learned something in my sober life: I’m good as I am
I’m not letting people say I don’t.
So if people wear ink, having pink hair, are thin ore thick, black ore white, gay ore hetro, etc. It’s all good, don’t let anybody tell you it isn’t!
Proud of me and proud of you! 
@Beforemy30s Congratulations and gorgeous pic!
9m 24d
Another day of zoom classes, but these students actually give a shit, so that is easier. Met a friend yesterday for lunch, we meet every 2 or 3 months. I kept remembering how the first time we had lunch together the two of us (I met her at a larger gathering) I had actually been drinking in the morning, but I somehow got away with it. She made lunch for me a few months later, and that time I was hungover and had to force food down. I hope soon I can meet her without remembering these things.
What you’re feeling is normal, I was so angry and irritable it was scary. I was at the point of exploding at every human interaction unprovoked or otherwise. I was literally homicidal in those first 3 days but I kept reminding myself that the physical cravings are only for 3 days after that it’s all in the head, a habit. Oh, and I wasn’t going to die from craving.
After that it does get much much easier, so keep smobering on ODAAT.
Blessings and sobriety!
Thanks Joy, it’s a relief to hear it’s quite normal to feel like this. I’m determined to do it!
Oh i can totally relate,
I use smoking as a coping strategy, if something has happened and i know my first reaction isnt the best reaction before i even know i have the smoke in my hand and i’m reaching for lighter.
So here i have a learnt behaviour to smoke when i dont know how to address a problem/situation etc because i am giving my brain a moment to enjoy a smoke and think before i do and because this is something ive done for years! Oh my breaking this dam habit is now frustrating meaning i’m annoyed that its a problem
Now the joyous part for me is finding other ways of supporting myself to not pick up that smoke and better ways of managing my reaction… So i can kick the habit that i rely on so dam challenging!
look forward then 
simples 
Look at that number!
Truely inspires me to carry on, shows me it can be done!
Thank you for sharing!
You absolutely deserve to live your best life. You are too awesome not to
What a wonderful number!! Such hard work.
Congratulations 
Yes I agree. I was speaking to a friend and she said the idea of quitting terrifies her. She almost likens a cigarette to being her best friend - it is always there for her no matter what. Even when people have hurt or let her down or left her, the cigarettes are still always there for her. It’s such an emotional attachment, as well as addictive and habitual. Would sound crazy crazy to a non smoker that one little cylinder of chemicals and tobacco can connect with you in that way, but I completely get it.
high five
60 days is brillant, i hope you have smiled and had a little celebratory dance at your strength to carry on.
Enjoy it!
