Checking in daily to maintain focus #31 (Part 2)

Irishman · July 22, 2021, 9:40pm

Checking in. Not a religious person but am turning to prayer for help.

Misokatsu · July 22, 2021, 9:52pm

@Singtone Congratulations! Great achievement, well done!

@dalex77 my deepest sympathies in this tough time.

@Irishman Hope it helps. Sending strength.

Squirt · July 22, 2021, 9:54pm

401 days. Been a bit since checking in on this thread but have been lurking in the background. I have been sitting with some hard decisions and deep emotions but am taking a leap of faith. . .the faith being in myself. I am sure many have heard my complaints about the roommate. This time I’m no longer complaining and have made the choice to move out. It’s going to be hard financially but I’d rather be struggling financially than emotionally and if I were to have chosen to stay I think my mind would have been off the rails. How my move will effect my relationships with my man and the girls is unknown and frankly a lil worrisome. I’m literally moving only 2 blocks away but am feeling like I’m leaving the province. ODAAT is more important to me now than it has been for a long time. Keeping my mind on today is difficult but definitely needed.

apes2020 · July 22, 2021, 9:58pm

I’ve gone back old school and have been using my French press the past two months and have been really enjoying the change from pods.

I like to switch it up every few months

apes2020 · July 22, 2021, 10:00pm

The brand wicked awesome coffee looks shady lol ? anyone that would destroy lives by sending decaf should be punished lol

icebear · July 22, 2021, 10:07pm

I live in northern Minnesota. The deer just wander around here munching away without any fucks to give about anything. I’ll try to snap a pic next time if it happens in the daylight.

icebear · July 22, 2021, 10:14pm

Well it doesn’t show! Great job!

anon9289869 · July 22, 2021, 10:25pm

@apes2020 where are you that you DONT have deer? Lol even when I lived in cities and in the desert we have always had deer wandering around.

Clarity · July 22, 2021, 10:58pm

Huge Congrats on 200 days @Singtone !!!

Its_me_Stella · July 22, 2021, 11:30pm

Congrats on 200 days sober.

apes2020 · July 23, 2021, 12:06am

I love how Minnesota folk say “tapioca”

apes2020 · July 23, 2021, 12:08am

I’m in Australia, in a big city definetly zero deer here cockatoos a plenty but zero deer

Dazercat · July 23, 2021, 12:09am

Hey Michelle,
Nice to see you checking in on day 401. Congratulations big time!!!

I feel It is way past time to say good bye to that roommate. I think it’s a great decision. Whatever shit you got going on with that roommate isn’t worth risking your sobriety. And you’ve given it time. Lots of time. And you got over a year under your belt. It maybe be tricky at first but I feel it’s going to be worth it. I hate saying “you got this” but in this case I think you do. You got this!!

apes2020 · July 23, 2021, 12:11am

Actually, I just remembered something… A few months ago there was a news article about a wild rouge deer found running through the inner suburbs … It apparently came from forest land a short distance drive , but hours away for the dear to walk so we do have deer, just no where near where I live

Mno · July 23, 2021, 12:13am

I just woke up from a dream where I was running from some unknown people, ending up in a dark field and thinking “if they find me here I’ll be finished”. Instead there was nobody there. I was alone and it was dark. And as it turned out the field consisted of quicksand that got deeper very fast. Whatever i tried, floating, keeping my footing, turning back, it was no use, I was sinking. Then at the last moment I was pulled out. Unceremoniously. And woke up.
In my dream I didn’t know who saved me. But i know it’s you all. Not just the people on this site, but also my therapists and members of my therapy group. My friends in my 3D world. Everyone I dare to connect with. I can’t do it alone. I’m so scared to share myself. But I have to. And I am. One day at a time. One piece of me at a time. Thanks so incredibly much for being here. This place means so much to me. You mean so much to me. Deep in my heart. All of you. Love. Back to sleep I hope.

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