Day 340
A fairly calm and uneventful day. Thank goodness! Yesterday was almost too much for me. My partner helped me in trying to slow down my father’s start of alcohol today. Made huge breakfast burritos and lots of coffee so he was too full to consume anything until after later in the afternoon.
Finished a project that I have been putting off for weeks. Last year I made a frame bag for my bicycle but was having zipper problems earlier this spring and took out the zipper. Finally replaced the zipper this morning and went out for a 40 mile ride to test it out. So excited! It makes it easier to carry an excessive amount of water on my long endurance rides because I can put two hydration bladders in there for 4-5 liters of water on hand. Definitely glad I’ll have this again for my august race.
Got home from the bike, had some of the leftover holiday food, showered, and pretty sleepy now. Can’t wait to end another day sober once my neighbors stop playing with fireworks and it quiets down.
Going to bed sober on day 23. Just got back from a fireworks show with the kids. I made it! Tomorrow we leave, but I am super confident from here. There were some nail-biting moments, but I feel really good about steering clear of all the alcohol around. I had such a great time with my kiddos, and I felt present (even if awkward) for many conversations. My mother-in-law even wasn’t the usual master class in passive aggression!
Thank you so much TS fam for helping me through this. Thanks @anon9289869 for thinking of me. You people are so awesome.
Day 370.
A good day. I’m gonna sneak in a few quick shout outs before I call this one done…
…Happy Independence Day, neighbours! And congrats to all of you finding a new way to celebrate. Proud of you.
…Happy Birthday @CATMANCAM! Thank you for your always-thoughtful check-ins, your constant encouragement, and for sharing yourself so generously here. I wish you the very best - all good things! - this year and every year!
…And happy sober day or night to all of you. We did another one, friends. Some skinned knees here and there, but any day we lay our heads down sober is a victory.
Got it in my head that we can do this again tomorrow.
G’night all, big love.
Coffee. Start of my workweek. Four days of work before I’ll be out camping for a week. Can do with a bit of vacay. Evaluation talk with my manager coming up today. I’m nervous but not sure why. It’ll be OK. I’m sober and clean. Have as a good week as you can all friends! Love from my old street football court. Happy it’s still there.
Mornin here’s to a happy Monday checking in on day 10, had a lovely weekend with kids go my homegroup meeting tonight that I’m looking forward to. Come down to 38 ml on methadone today
Got back from weekend camp for friends birthday i had a wonderful time sober! It just did not bother me i was so relieved. I was the first one to bed, but up first so i would start doing breakfast. I did find myself people watching drinking, seeing them get boisterous etc . Went off and did some nice walks so nice to come home not feeling like crap and depressed knowing i had overdone the alcohol.
Following my interview on Friday i got a call 20 mins later saying i had got the role. Its for a large Housing Association and i will get a caseload of vulnerable adults and its my job to keep a roof over their heads. I am so happy . I can now make the most of my last 4 weeks with the homeless charity knowing i have a good secure job to go to. I am also having a week off before i start to go camping chill and have a break.
Missed last few days due to camp but congrats to all that have completed ODAAT and milestones.
You will be fine with your evaluation i have every faith in that, good luck though.
Ah another camper nothing better to restore yourself and so well deserved, being out in nature and getting back to basics lifts spirits and restores positive energy, you will feel refreshed i am sure… wishing your 4 work days to go quick for you…
190 days and it looks like some magic is happening in your life. I’m so happy for you Marie. And those people at the housing association will be so blessed to have you. Not to mention the adults you will be working with. Look at you go!!
I think so too Eric, if i had been drinking would not have been able to cope with the homeless job, and would not have known how much i love this type of work. Being sober has brought me a new career which is giving me job satisfaction so i am so grateful. Thank you as always for your kind words. Off to my morn cleaning job which i can give up in 5 weeks another bonus! Have a good day
487 days into this journey getting close to 2 year’s I can not believe i. I’ve been there before and it makes me sad I was days away from my 15 year chipand let my guard down I thought I had the addiction beat bad mistake. My sober/clean brothers and sisters NEVER let your guard down
It’s pretty painful yeah… it’s. 4 titanium disc, 4 titanium covers, a titanium plate, and 12 titanium screws…I’m doing a lot better than I thought I would be…
Though a friend of mine had one disc done and she cried for three weeks couldn’t eat, couldn’t do nothing, And I mean her husband waited on her hand an foot… she ate liquids for 3 week. I’m already eating.when they said you have to swallów to leave the hospital, I said no problem." I’m going home tomorrow" I was eating solids the evening oh the surgery. I was like I wanted a Whooper on the way home…Yes a Whooper:hamburger: exter cheese… I called her she was like you must of gotten a better surgeon… I’m up and about I have to keep this thing on for 3 mths. She only had to keep it on for 3 weeks and then she got a soft collar:fearful: I don’t get a soft collar I asked the doctor why he said because my surgery was a lot more extensive level 4 swallowing though is the worst especially if you haven’t drank nothing in a while and coughing hurts really bad. I look alot better today. Took it off to shower.
This funk I’ve been in seems to be passing. I declined the job offer I’ve been conflicted about and now the lady (a mum of my daughters friend) is super shitty with me and cancelled the girls planned sleepover that was was meant to be tonight. It was a super lame excuse and very short and curt text… now my daughter is super upset and I’m struggling to not feel guilty. I’m such a people pleaser and the one time I put myself first, I get the cold shoulder and my daughter suffers ffs dealing with people can be so difficult. Repeating the serenity prayer in my head and trying to let go of what I can’t control…
I feel so bad that she this mother would do this to these girls. And so sorry she has stepped below a child’s level because she did not get her way in the adult world.
And truly you can’t step down to her level and say anything to her, ignore her she clearly wants attention. The girls need to see an adult, There needs to be an adult in this situation. Thank God you have your sobriety to help you be that adult. Because I could see me running my mouth and turning this into a bad situation. Which needs not to happen.
So talk to your daughter let her know that it’s not because of her or you the this person is acting this way.by canceling the plans. Because as we both can see in the real world she clearly has issues, that have nothing to do with your daughter or you she just taking it out on these little girls it’s called “bullying”. Take her to get ice cream, or a new pair of jean or do something with her it dóesnt have to be about money… Remember your her parent and a damn good one! don’t allow someone else to take that from you to control that . So sorry about the job…Your daughter needs to understand what Bullying is by adults… .she my have been being bullied by this ladies while at her home playing, maybe not. You just don’t know unless she know what it really is.
Day 15. Another Monday morning that isn’t filled with dread, anxiety and general misery. Congrats to everyone who’s got another sober day under their belts and my thoughts are with those that didn’t. Keep going! I was about to write “have an amazing day” but it doesn’t matter if it’s amazing or not…. Have a day… just make it a sober one. Much love my friends.
Day 328
Feeling much calmer and more motivated. Though the husband isn’t back yet. Just my daughter and her friend here. I am much more relaxed than him about this. He gets annoyed and audibly tuts at them getting toys out or eating snacks. As long as they tidy up before they leave, I don’t mind.
peace to you all.
And congrats to all of you finding a new way to celebrate. Proud of you.
. I can now make the most of my last 4 weeks with the homeless charity knowing i have a good secure job to go to. I am also having a week off before i start to go camping chill and have a break.
nothing better to restore yourself and so well deserved, being out in nature and getting back to basics lifts spirits and restores positive energy, you will feel refreshed i am sure… wishing your 4 work days to go quick for you…
exter cheese… I called her she was like you must of gotten a better surgeon… I’m up and about I have to keep this thing on for 3 mths. She only had to keep it on for 3 weeks and then she got a soft collar:fearful:
I don’t get a soft collar 
ffs dealing with people can be so difficult. Repeating the serenity prayer in my head and trying to let go of what I can’t control…
.she my have been being bullied by this ladies while at her home playing, maybe not. You just don’t know unless she know what it really is. 