I know what you mean, not wanting to break my streak and reset my counter has dragged me through quite a few difficult moments. I wish I could fix it for you, but unfortunately I can’t. All you can do is dust yourself down and work on getting back up to 74 days and beyond.
Checking in on day 20
Where have I seen smiles on your face? When you are with your girls. You hate being sober, you hate being a drunk. Give your girls ODAAT a sober father … somehow let it empower you.
- Coffee. Strange how the summer is doing a reboot this morning while close by people are still literally upon their necks in water in and outside their flooded homes. Live goes on I guess. I’m thinking about taking a bike ride in the sun. I’m sober and clean. I got my little home, my little cat, my job to go to on Monday. So much to be grateful for. Have as good a day as you all can friends. Clean and sober. ODAAT as we never know what tomorrow brings. Just for today I will not drink and I will live to my max. Love from my jungle balcony.
You’re thinking about and for yourself for a change friend. That’s not selfish. That’s wise. You can only help others when everything is in working order inside yourself. From what I read the only selfish one is her. And we all know where she is and we all know we can’t help as she has to help herself first. Like you are. Take care friend and do what is right. Hope you’ll have fun with your daughter.
Thank you. I’m sorry to hear about your family. I hope they recover soon. It’s so nice of you to be helping them.
@Dragonflygirl82 Congratulations on your new one being sugar and spice!
@Girlinterrupted Very good! I think you can get the hard word, dedication, and consistency part down.
@Rockstar24777 okay cool. I was just curious.
@SoberWalker love the arm art!
Checking in Day 63 AF on a chilly Saturday evening. Sober weekends are becoming much easier.
Peace and strength to all
Day 875
Feeling a bit tired this morning but nothing that coffee cant fix. Weather is great and I’m enjoying pottering about the house, listening to music.
Football this afternoon which I’m buzzing for. First game since last year. It really helps me feel connected to my local community to support my local team.I have missed it. Come on you Robins!!!
Have a great day folks
Hey Mike, I’m in the sleepy crew too so I feel ya SO MANY NAPS.
For me though, it’s not being sober I hate. It’s definitely frustrating having to deal with physical and mental health stuff, side effects of medication, the medical system, etc… But that’s nothing to do with the absence of alcohol in my system.
Sometimes getting shitfaced seems like the easy way out. But we all know it just puts it off for another day, all that shit will still be waiting for us. As well as the other stuff that we add to our to deal with list when we go there (shame, regret, blackouts, anxiety, broken promises, arguments, bad choices, money spent, mystery injuries, etc…).
Sobriety doesn’t promise life will always be easy. Things are shit sometimes. That’s just life taking one of its curves and by being sober, by not numbing or ignoring it, by accepting the things I can’t change and making efforts to change the things I can, I give myself the best chance of actually coming out the other side of it as soon as possible.
I know you’ve been struggling with the ADHD and getting the right support for ages. I hope you find something that makes it feel more manageable soon because you deserve to find peace, we all do
@Misokatsu @icebear @CATMANCAM @Chiron
Thank you all for your kind thoughts and words I really do appreciate it. It’s so nice to be heard and understood
Thank you Menno. That’s what I keep telling myself. I can only help her if the situation is not hurting me. Setting boundaries is new for me, but something I am learning.
@Dazercat, @littlemisschatterbox, @Its_me_Stella, @Olivia, @CATMANCAM, @Jennajen, @Hopeful777, @SoberWalker Thank you all for your kind words! Yes, it’s a tough decision to make indeed. But also liberating. There will be times when I will crave their love and acceptance for sure, and it will be hard to stick to my decision. I think it’s the same as with booze: they seem to promise good things, they say they care about me and want to help me and it would be easy to fall for that, but with my objective mind I know that it’s fake and it sucks on the long run. If I fall for that I lose everything and gain nothing, they wouldn’t give me any care or love I need, it would only feed my hunger and enlarge the void. So I will have to use my coping mechanizms learnt from addiction and try not to relapse on the idea that they will ever love who I am.
Omg so fun!!! I haven’t roller skated in ages but I used to love it. You must have small feet LOL! No judgment, mine are just so long and ridiculously narrow.
Is this get smart?! I just was commenting about that show to my husband!
I just love this.
Thanks so much Eric! ya the fam wanted a gender reveal but I said nah I’m old school we just tell people.
I missed Morgan Freeman when I read it before
Well sadly I have to reset my clocks. I ran into my baby mama’s sister tonight getting a pack of smokes. I didn’t know she recently started working at the store I get my treaty smokes. Not a hi. Just a blatant ignore. It’s like I don’t even exist to them anymore I swear they’re trying to do everything in their power to make sure I never see my daughter again. I should of reached out but honestly I knew the second that happened I was gonna drink tonight. Anyways day 0 again. I do appreciate your guys support and I’ll still keep coming back. Just needed to vent since my girlfriend doesn’t wanna reply to me. Good night yall I’m gonna go sleep this off and regret my choices is in the morning.
I’m sorry for your shitty circumstances and I’m glad you’re here now but at the same time I need to say this friend: Every reason to use is an excuse. Because there is no reason to use as it doesn’t help you or me with anything at all. it’s just addiction telling you you are weak. Which you are not. You can do this. But you need the right mindset. And the right support. Either here or elsewhere. Or both. I wish you all strength and success to deal with all your stuff but please don’t ever think again grabbing a drink or smoke will help you because it’s all lies. And please next time come here before you use. We might talk you out of it. Or not. But at least you’ve given yourself and us a chance.