Checking in on day 13. I’ve been sleeping great the last 2 nights. Maybe too good because I’m having a hard time getting up today. I am going today to reinstate my license!!! I dealt with the court yesterday and got the paperwork I need from the judge so fingers crossed it all works out at Secretary of State. Other than that just cruising along adding up the days. I have slight cravings but I just keep reminding myself how great I’m doing and taking something would just make me have to reset and that would be a set back. @Charlie_C sorry for the loss of your brother, my condolences. Have a great day TS friends! 
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@Olivia congratulations!!! Having difficulties to rest almost every day. Your post gave me hope and I can relate how great one feels when is rested
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Good job on day 2! The fact that you keep trying, makes you great if you ask me.
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Oh I’m so sorry Charlie, sending my thoughts and strength to you and your family 
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Now that is seriously soooooo cool!!
Sober: 420.36
ED: 40.47
So, I’ve mentioned before that the desire to drink has not only disappeared, but has turned into repulsion. I will always be on guard though, I don’t trust that tricky little mofo. The odd part is that this time, my eating disorder seems easier to beat too. I don’t feel like I’m having a hard time not sliding back into old habits. It’s so strange. I know what my triggers are, and one is throwing up when sick. That has happened twice. Gross stuff ahead. Either something is wrong with my stomach, or I had a bug/food poisoning, but I’ve been extremely nauseous for a few weeks. Two of the days I was so sick that I threw up. I was so scared if it triggering me that I was swallowing it back and not letting it come out, until, like the old faithful geyser, I had absolutely no choice. I was actually on the phone with my friend both times. I’m happy to report that it did not trigger me. I was so terrified.
Anyway, my body is talking to me today and I’m listening to that old decrepit thing. My brain thinks I’m 20, the bod knows it’s 50 
I’m working from home and only stretching today. I’m going to try to get to bed super early too.
I love my sober life. I love it so much. I wish happy soberness to every!!!
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Day 68: Absolutely miserable night last night with a late arriving pressure headache, ear pain, nausea and my damn wrist hurt! Minimal sleep. I’m trying to rest now and I can’t keep my eyes open but sleep still won’t come. Just have to take it easy for now. But I am sober and proud!
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Sending love. How terrible for you and family. 
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Hey all, it’s been awhile since I have been on this app… I’m still here and sober. 743 days and counting!
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Sending you lots of love Charlie. 
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Oh honey, I’m so sorry. The day started out so much better than it ended. Sending hugs and lots of love. Take care of yourself today and remember to drink your water 
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Day 405 clean and sober today. Got invited by a girl I went to high school with to hangout and go to the museum but had to turn her down due to me not having the money to afford to go. In regards to what she may think it’s embarrassing but to how I think about it is it is what it is. I’m not ready to do things like this yet. My life is in transition right now and I’m ok with that but others may look at me like a flake or a loser but I know it’s not the case. Anyway, quality problem for sure. Actually not a problem, I’m learning to love myself no matter what. I don’t know if that made any sense at all lol. I hope everyone has an amazing day today, love you guys!!! 
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Day 635. I struggled for a little over a month but it has passed, I’m truly grateful to be living a sober life.
I read this thread and I’m inspired by the strength so many of you show. The horrible things that life throws at us and yet most of you stay sober, it really is remarkable, you are remarkable.
My experience has been that this sober journey has highs and lows. Battle through those lows, they will end, they will pass.
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I relate to this so much!!! 
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Day 358
Yesterday was weird. Was clocked in for 20 minutes at work and then the internet went down. When I first started working remotely at the start of the pandemic we lost internet a lot and I would use it as an excuse to drink all day. I didn’t have the urge to drink but felt pretty restless knowing I was supposed to be working but was unable to.
After a few hours puttering around the garden I decided to use the time to make some phone calls I’ve needed to. Sat down and had a notebook ready where the phone number for the orthopedic specialist I needed to call was written. Got to talking with my SO for a moment and my phone started ringing. The number matched the number written in my notebook. I had submitted an appointment request form on their website last week and they just happened to call me right at that time.
So I got my MRI scheduled for next week Friday. The moment of truth - finally going to figure out my hip & knee issues. It makes me nervous and I spent the rest of the day cleaning in a bit of a manic way until the internet came back right before bed. Coffee now, a new sober day! Hopefully no more internet problems.
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Old behaviors in a new environment are still old behaviors.
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Congratulations bro heck yeah!!!
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I’m so sorry for your loss. Condolences for you and your family.
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